‘AM PROBABLY WASTING TIME, AND HAVE NO CLUE WHAT I’M DOING’

So much of what creates your success, has in fact already been creating that success, is literally right now building it underneath you whether you’ve noticed or not – is a simple outcome of the fact that you repeatedly did things which did not make sense,

were never obviously going to get you anywhere,

and absolutely fell under the banner of ‘am probably wasting time, and have no clue what I’m doing’.

Things which you did over and over again because somehow you just found yourself doing them, and you defaulted; didn’t even realise you were.

Or because something inside of you more consciously pulled you to do so, and you followed.

Or because, in a moment of soul certainty and connectedness, you dropped IN, and you felt it, you breathed it, you saw it, you believed it, you were it! And so – it made sense. You were EXCITED about how OBVIOUS this was! Until, a moment or a few moments later –

reality came crashing back down.

Despair or uncertainty rose up.

You looked at your bank balance,
or the looming never-ending list of tasks ahead,
or the NOW ‘obvious’ truth – “as if THAT has any purpose! That’s not what I should have been doing!”,
or the fact that all and sundry around you were DEFINITELY doing other things, More Important Things, Proper Biz-Niz Things, and that That is Absolutely What You Should Be Doing Instead. Toot suite!

and you felt – UGH.

YES. I am saying what you know I’m saying. That THESE things. These ‘non-sensical’ or ‘should not be doing’ or ‘is not getting me anywhere’ things …

are the things that got you there.

The things which INARGUABLY built the success that the future you is so wowed by, and trust me –

you WILL be wowed. Even as you bit by bit succumb to, accept, delight in that new normal you WILL still be wowed. Grateful. And in awe. That all it actually took, in the end?

Was you just waking up, being the you who you’d be if you were left alone to JUST be,

and repeat.

Now think about this:

So many of the ahas, the breakthroughs, the NOW wow moments, or the ways in which you are led down a path you didn’t sooner see, a path which is so YES, are a product of the fact that right before that?

You said yes to soul on something. You did a thing you were led to do, and just for that reason. You repeated a thing you’d done a million times without really knowing why, or while telling yourself off for wasting time and not doing proper things, and it unlocked something. You gave yourself true time and space, to be intentional with your writing, your work, your message, your art –

and the penny dropped. Opening the gateway to the new, the exciting, the WOW.

Now come back to the NOW. Why on earth would you do ANYTHING OTHER THAN SAY YES TO WHAT YOU ARE ACTUALLY LED TO RIGHT NOW, AND WHERE YOUR FOCUS LONGS TO GO, if what you want is to continually be shown your next holy shit moves to make?!

Next question:

Why on earth would you want to do anything else anyway?!

Here’s the spoiler your soul has been trying to shriek at you the whole damn time:

It happened when you gave in to doing it the you way.

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