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I’m So Fucking Angry at Myself

I did it again. I can’t BELIEVE it, with all that I know, but I can’t deny it either.

Once again I did PRECISELY what I swore to never EVER go back to, and it very nearly cost me EVERYTHING.

You know how we all have our patterns of sabotage? The way that we DO shit to ourselves, be it with money, with food, or even (hint!!) how we run our entire fucking BUSINESS?

Yep.

That.

And the worst part is, I FELT it. I KNEW that I was doing it … it’s been creeping up on me for a while … the niggle has been MORE then there, and yet I ignored it, or at least until TODAY when (thank God!) it came down on me like a ton of bricks, and I just couldn’t, I mean I couldn’t BELIEVE that I’d so very nearly been so very stupid.

Thank God for journaling and yoga and massages for sorting shit out, that’s all I can say!

But also, a word of wisdom from somebody who seems to at least bi-annually deliberately try to screw herself over:

LISTEN when things feel out of alignment.
LISTEN when you know it’s not working.
LISTEN when you feel yourself TRYING too damn hard.
LISTEN when the anxiety, the fear, the God damn PANIC is not only not going away but it’s getting worse.
LISTEN, and then do something about it.

Of course the truth is I’m grateful for the opportunity to once again CLEANSE. We go through these stages of ALMOST creating the wrong thing, of almost BEING the wrong person, of almost stepping SO fucking far out of alignment so that (I think) we can be REMINDED of what alignment is, and why it matters so damn much.

It’s a test …

To see how serious we are.

To see how self AWARE we are.

And sometimes we’re aware enough to notice right away, and put a swift stop to our rapid descent to the land of SHOULD …

And other times we ignore the signs until the pressure gets to a point so great where we either IMPLODE or EXPLODE. Hence me being so fucking angry right now, at myself, that I can LITERALLY feel my skin boiling. I wouldn’t be at all surprised if there were ACTUAL steam coming out of my ears and I’m pretty sure I just gave a random guy an accidental look that will keep him awake for weeks to come.

So yes, this is a GOOD thing, to have the chance to notice.

So many don’t!

MOST don’t in fact, because the drum of conformity beats TOO FUCKING STRONG. They’re drinking ALL the Kool-Aid and they don’t want to even CONSIDER stepping away.

So, bully for them.

This is not who I am.

Haven’t ever been.
Can’t ever be.
And everytime I HAVE tried to force myself into that fucking box, well –

All hell breaks loose sooner or later.

Which is putting it NICELY.

So yeah I’m fucking GLAD that all hell broke loose today in my mind, my heart, my soul (and my furiously scrawled through journal!) because the ALTERNATIVE would have been all hell breaking loose sooner or later in my BUSINESS / my money, my life.

What this really comes down to is so ridiculously simple I can’t even believe I have to point it out in my own blog post:

LISTEN to your fucking intuition.

About how to do business –
Life –
You.

And if it doesn’t FEEL HOW YOU WANT IT TO FEEL there’s a very good reason for it.

It’s a question of VALUES really, isn’t it?

For me I value freedom, and fun, and creativity, and spontaneity SO far ahead of money and other so-called markers of success that we’re not even talking the same stratosphere.

So when I find myself making DECISIONS as to how I’m going to DO things based on MONEY or so-called SUCCESS?

Well.

Let’s just say I either end up a VERY unhappy soul (even though I may well MAKE the money and ACHIEVE the ‘success’), or else days like TODAY happen to save me from myself.

But here is what else it comes down to:

You have to CHOOSE whether or not you’re going to believe in success on your terms.

Without fail EVERY great creator has been told they’re doing it wrong … that’s NOT how it’s done … no, you can’t do that, it’s not APPROPRIATE or it just won’t work!

And what they’ve ultimately done if indeed they’ve lived INTO their calling and BECOME great?

They’ve listened –

Nodded their head –

Smiled politely –

AND DONE WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY PLEASE ANYWAY.

ELVIS did it after he was told NOT to move his hips on stage.

Henry FORD did it after his prototypes REPEATEDLY failed and the powers that be determined they could NEVER foresee a time when the motorcar would be more in demand than the horse and carriage.

Robert BANNISTER did it when he broke the unbreakable 4-minute mile.

Van GOGH did it when he was labelled a weirdo, a recluse, somebody with NO PURPOSE IN SOCIETY.

PICASSO did it when his work was so far ahead of his time it received ZERO interest.

The STEAM TRAIN people did it when they threatened to operate at speeds that would surely cause spontaneous COMBUSTION.

And every.

fucking.

TRUE creator.

simply MUST do it, in their own way, or else spontaneous combustion of their SOUL will surely ensue, but also REALLY –

Don’t you fucking BELIEVE?

Don’t you fucking BELIEVE that the reason that nobody’s DOING IT THAT WAY is because YOU are the one born to pave that path?

Don’t you fucking believe that you’re called in a certain way for a REASON?

And even if you don’t know if you can bear to have the strength to believe don’t you want to GO FORTH WITH YOUR CRAZY CREATOR MADNESS ANYWAY?

What other choice do you have?

Honestly now … IS there any way for US to live?

You can keep the clock ticking, sure.

But I don’t call that living.

Neither do you.

So join me.

In being so fucking angry at your own BULLSHIT servitude to the norm that you’re actually going to have the guts to rip shit up, STIR it up, and finally TURN up as who you were meant to be –

Who you’ve ALWAYS known you were born to be –

Who you simply HAVE to be –

And who quite frankly you don’t see the point in pretending you’re even LIVING without being.

You were NOT born for the box baby.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/