BUSINESS AND LIFE WITH/OUT/YOU

Do you actually seriously believe that the pathway to get you to where you want to go and are MEANT to, is outside of you? Seriously?! Like – actually?

I know you’re smarter than that, more switched on than that, transcended far beyond even the idea of that, and yet –

here ya go again

doing what they told you

doing it how you’re supposed to

push push pushing up against the first nature of your own soul in order to forge a way that’s not yours,

that you don’t care about, not really

that can’t possibly get you to where your soul longs to be,

because it’s not yours!

And why? No really, WHY?

Why is it, that after all these years, all these tears, all these releasing of fears, and all of the FLOW that has arisen from the times you’ve been brave enough to let GO,

and say yes to what’s inside,

all of the sharing with and beseeching of others to understand that what THEY are looking for can only come from within,

do you still motherfreakin’ turn away from your own deepest truth whenever the going gets a little uncertain, or you set your eyes on something you’ve not yet done?

DOES ANY PART OF YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVE THAT THE ACCOMPLISHING OF SOMETHING YOU’VE NOT YET DONE,

DROPPED INTO,

OR BECOME,

can POSSIBLY come from any place outside of you?!

How could it ever make sense,

that the bringing to life of a thing which has been revealed within you,

could depend upon a single thing with-out you.

With/

out/

you.

Existing –

with/

out/

you.

Do you feel me?! How does this make sense? If IT is withOUT you, then where indeed are YOU?

Well I suppose that wherever you find yourself,

is indeed where you are

But you can bet your bottom dollar and then some that wherever it is you DO find yourself,

will be without the so-called outcomes you were trying to build without you. Since they were built, chased after – without you and not with you!

Making them, by definition, even if you are bloody-minded enough (and I think you just might be) to follow through on ’em no matter how much their WITHOUT YOU-ness drains and exhausts you,

not of you!

Nor you of them.

Meaning, that whatever you DO manage to build in this way,

is not yours!

Not the ACTUAL ‘yours’, the one you see inside. The one you dream of. The one your soul screams of. The one you know you can’t live without, can’t let your life pass on by without, and yet continue,

to allow nonetheless.

And where is THAT stuff? The actual thing? The true thing? The YOU thing? The way you just want it to be and know it should be?

WHY IT’S WHERE IT’S ALWAYS BEEN SILLY.

With/

in/

you.

In harmony with YOU.

IN you.

With the INNER of you.

With/

in/

you.

So tell me again,

please – !

How it is you decided to diligently give your days,

your weeks,

your months,

your heartbeats,

for the pursuit of something that came without being of you?

In order to breathe life into something within you?

Tell me again,

I wanna know – !

How this makes sense to you?

How it is the most rightest of all right things to do?

How they convinced you that it’s going to take you all the way down to you,

when the way that you’re traversing is as far from you as you can be.

Tell me.

Explain to me.

SHOW me.

And then I’ll show YOU,

a woman

a man

a human

who always had the answers

who KNEW IT ALL ALONG

who was born with the soul certainty and bravery to back it

and to bring to life EVERYTHING that was shown within,

FULLY ON THEIR TERMS

and who decided,

no thank you.

That’s not the life for me,

because

(you see)

They said that I couldn’t

I heard that I shouldn’t

I was scared that I wouldn’t

And bit by bit I watched my life drip away

eventually unable to deny that in the end, even though I ALWAYS KNEW AND LIVED MY ENTIRE LIFE TURNING MY BACK ON THAT KNOWING, it was only about one thing –

I didn’t.

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