FUCK TRYING TO SELL STUFF AND FUCK YOUR WORKING TOWARDS VIBES
Fuck trying to sell stuff, and fuck your working towards vibes, where you push endlessly for money and growth, yet wonder why, when you refuse to pursue what’s actually inside of you, you never get it.
Oh, but you’ve been ‘doing the work’ for 100 years now, and 11 more?
You claim and you state and intend?
You show up, you push, you BELIEVE?
Yes, but do you actually believe in YOU?
Do you believe that you, yes you, can have it all, the REAL version, the one that would light and excite you, spin you around from the inside out and delight you, the one you don’t even LET yourself dream of, because instead –
You chase what they tell you to chase.
You chase what your fear demands.
You chase what would fill the gaping wound of your not enoughness, except that of course –
it won’t.
The truth is that the working towards vibe was never the vibe for a girl like you, a girl like me, or for any of us, who were called to BE the light, to SEE the light, and to say YES to the light.
You know what is? You wanna know what IS the vibe, but also what IS the thing which is gonna get you to those places you endlessly and exhaustedly pursue, and think you want?
a) admitting you don’t give a fuck about getting to those places
b) following the damn light
Because here is how it works. For me. For you. For those who were called by their badassery like US.
The money. The growth. The acclaim. The ‘WIN’ things. They show up as a natural by-product, a ‘how could they not!’ outcome of you being in your excite and delight following the damn VIBE of the thing light.
It’s when you go back to creating for the sake of creating …
Playing for the sake of playing …
Yes-ing because it’s a true yes …
Going where the wind of your soul is taking you, and not giving a fuck about the mess.
It’s when you trust you can take as much time as you need. To wander, and muse, and explore. And to allow the smallest and littlest seed,
to gradually
become more.
It’s when you ADMIT:
I don’t care about how to make MONEY, or grow a BUSINESS, and I never did!
I.fucking.EXPECT these things to occur!
Of COURSE extraordinary amounts of wealth are there in the vision of me being all of me. Of COURSE extraordinary impact. Of COURSE a vast globe-covering audience of fellow fuck yes badasses are there, buying the things from me and repeat saying yes. HOW COULD THESE THINGS NOT BE?
But,
it’s not because I chased ’em.
Tried to go and get them.
Or pursued an endless and soul-crushing idea of needing ’em.
It’s because I went into the motherfucking light.
And said yes to what I FOUND there.
Realising that not only does it NOT have to make sense, but that it is almost a REQUIREMENT that it doesn’t.
When I am in my art. Truly acting from my heart. And doing what I came here to do in the ACTUAL manner I came here to do it.
The thing is …
You can pursue a shadow version of what’s inside of you for the rest of your life if you like.
You might build something impressive this way, important, and solid.
But the one thing it cannot and will not have,
is the lit up living breathing and pulsing beat of YOU.
And so I ask you –
where then will that be?
As you chase. And pursue. And do. Every God damned thing you can think to do to get there,
except,
be you.
Just something to think about,
as you remember –