GOD IS BIG ENOUGH TO COMPLETE HIS WORK IN YOU
Yesterday at church, the preacher said a sentence which jumped out and hit me square in the heart, as is so often the way in these situations.
In fact, there were certainly several such sentences said yesterday, but here is the one which really spoke to me –
“God is the author and the finisher of your faith, and He is big enough to complete His work in you”
I suppose that if you wanted to, you could take the word God out of it, but perhaps instead you could just take your conceived IDEAS about what God is out of it, and simply tune in around this concept of faith, calling, belief, in you, and that it is something which GOES BEYOND JUST YOU.
We’ve always known, after all … haven’t we?! … that our message is SO MUCH GREATER THAN US.
The realm
Of which most won’t speak
Or even
Acknowledge
They know
But aha – ! I know you know. And you know that I know you know. And we BOTH knows that each of us know, and so, well –
Let’s just be okay with knowing that we know, yes?
Yes.
You see you and I, and those like us, those APPOINTED, ANOINTED, perhaps in the physical as a small child, or perhaps without ever official ‘marking’ as such, but with the only thing which matters, which is SOUL knowing, you and I –
We’ve been spoken to
Spoken over
From the spiritual
From the heavens
From the highest of highest selves
THE CALLING HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE
And we can try, OH how fantastically we’ve tried, to evade it, avoid it, pull away from it or even, destroy it, and our selves along with it, but the thing is –
You can’t break an unbreakable bond.
You MAY cover your eyes and your ears and harden your heart and ‘refuse’ to listen.
Good luck with THAT!
It’s still there
Waiting
Patiently
Knowing
Always
That one day
You’ll realise
It’s time
To come home
Knowing, also, that no matter how terribly you may think you’ve screwed it up, wandered from your path, gone OH so very tragically away, that God, faith, your SOUL –
Is still big enough to complete the work in you.
Do you believe it?
Do you believe you ACTUALLY CAN’T SCREW IT UP?
I mean, YES – you very well COULD die, game over, poof, while still off path.
I don’t mean that THAT is not a thingĀ
But right now, you’re here.
Your heart beats.
Your soul waits.
Your breath quickens, when you read this.
And you know –
There is still time.
And perhaps you feel what you’ve been trying so very hard to NOT feel, you’ve been scared, or you truly managed to convince yourself you didn’t want to, or couldn’t, or are not good enough, or allowed.
You feel –
That yes yes YES. I MUST. And hurry hurry hurry. There’s no time to lose. And run run run. INTO THE GOD DAMN LIGHT WHICH I ALWAYS KNEW I WAS, and have fought desperately and FAILINGLY to pretend I can’t be.
I know.
I feel it too my darling.
For me.
And for you.
The thing with being called is, you may very well RUN to the ends of the earth, and you may very well do your EXTRA special best to destroy it and cover it up, and you may go to EXTREMES to create entire shadow LIVES instead of the one you were chosen for –
But – infuriatingly, perhaps, at times! – NONE of that weakens the call!
If anything,
It becomes stronger.
More absolute.
More determined.
More GRITTY.
And perhaps at times,
Just a little bit aggressive.
And it – God, your higher being, your soul, the reminder of FAITH – speaks to you, and it says:
WHEN WILL YOU COME HOME?
Enough is ENOUGH.
ANSWER,
My call.
There’s nowhere you can go and nothing you can hide behind and NO amount of substances you can mask this with.
You know this.
WE ALL FUCKING KNOW THIS.
So,
Why then?
Why do you wait still?
Do you imagine that one day you might look back, and say, oh – !
I’m SO very glad I waited so long to press play?
I’m SO very thankful I put off the work of my soul?
I’m SO deeply happy I fought so valiantly to be ANYTHING BUT ME?
I don’t think so.
I don’t think so at all!
Do you?
And if NO, then WHY, pray tell, WHY do you not just DECIDE –
Right now –
In this quiet moment –
With the UNCEASINGLY LOUD INSISTENCE OF YOUR SOUL,
Which you perhaps FINALLY admit is not gonna shut-the-fuck-up,
And which you’re perhaps FINALLY ready to allow might actually be RIGHT,
Wny not just decide,
Right here,
Alongside me,
To be all that you were always divined to be,
And have always known you must?
A prayer, which is coming through me right now, for you, for us, for THIS:
‘Thank you God, for preparing me for this work.
I am ready.
And it is time.
I GIVE myself, fully and wholly and with FAITH,
For that which I was called.
Thank you.
And Amen.’
And then?
YOU GET TO WORK.
The longer you resist,
The greater the pain and the sorrow, and no amount of ANYTHING can drown that out.
But don’t answer it for that reason.
Answer it because you no longer can deny,
the true God,
in You.