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how long will you continue to run away
Purpose

HOW LONG WILL YOU CONTINUE TO RUN AWAY?

It’s so overwhelming to me sometimes to hear the true impact I make on people’s lives. What a hefty burden it can feel to bear … to know that, when I truly let my magic and soul message come out, I’m not doing anything safe and tidy at all, nothing so simple as helping people with BUSINESS, for example, but instead what I’m doing with them is raw, is messy, is gritty, is PAINFUL, traumatic even at times, and real.

A stripping away of everything in life which is not supposed to be there –

In order to reveal the core.

It scares me. It scares me when people tell me the way my words have shifted them, when I read what they email me, or comment perhaps on social media, or send me on a private message.

It scares me to feel the DEPTH of it and the fact that somehow, through what I have let out of me, this person is literally now wiping the slate clean and re-setting their entire LIFE.

Like today, just now, when I read an email from a woman who says “I don’t think I can fully express just how much your emails help me.”

And then goes on to talk about how she has previously unsubscribed (a common theme!), how she wasn’t ready for what I have to say, and now is.

She spoke of learning about alignment through me, and being able to now clearly see where work is needed and where she must pull back, and of the fact that every email I send helps her.

Shared details of her life, and the specifics which are being changed, impacted, attended to.

And thanked me, for being a gift.

And I felt … so happy to read this, a little teary, right away, in doing so, and also I felt that feeling of slight fear … the pressure I suppose, the responsibility of knowing just how damn powerful my work is, when I let myself be all of me.

Sometimes it feels so heavy, so full on, so demanding, so RELENTLESS and infinite that I just can’t even face it.

And the truth of the matter is, I know I’m barely getting warmed up here. I know that I too still hide, and run from purpose! I am great at putting on a show and stepping into the performer role alongside the healer, leader, messenger, and I suspect … I suspect that quite a bit (not all!) of the theatrics is my way of hiding from going even deeper, more real, more true, with what I have to say.

Because if it already overwhelms me to know that I am literally a trigger to set people on a path of living their entire LIFE differently, and being who they were always meant to be, how would I know how to handle even MORE of that?

I don’t know if I’m ready.

I don’t know if I can.

And yet at the same time of course I will continue, as I’ve always done, to not give myself a choice.

It’s been years now, of seeing that when I stay in my truth I impact people this way. Years, back to when I was a personal trainer, during which I’ve had thousands of people in tears, and probably many thousands or even tens of thousands more who I don’t know about, as they suddenly realise, through what I say or somehow just my presence, that they CAN’T KEEP LIVING THE WRONG LIFE.

Years during which I’ve seen high-powered and high-paying jobs left – 

Toxic relationships walked away from – 

Fresh starts embarked upon, and then again, and again, til it sticks – 

Empires built – 

LEGACIES from purpose, created.

And it STILL.FUCKING.SCARES me. When somebody really tells me with raw soul truth how grateful they are for me and the work I do.

It scares me because of the power of this thing IN me, which flows through and from me but is certainly far far greater than who or what I could ever be, and what if I don’t have what it takes to be a good steward, you know?!

What if I can’t contain it … what if I’m not SUPPOSED to contain it, and I lose myself in it … what if I somehow disappear into the work … what if I don’t steward it PROPERLY … what if I’m with fire working with people on the level I do, the other-worldly, the soul, the cellular? What if I in my human state can’t cope with the outcome of being a transmitter for all of that power?! Sometimes it’s so much, or I don’t remember to take care of my physical self because I’m so far gone in soul, and I tip tip tip into anxiety, into flying so high I can’t breathe or come down, or simply into that insanely frustrating place where you just.can’t.stop.

Because the more you create and let what’s in you out, the more that comes THROUGH you to create and let out, and sometimes, for the love of GOD – !

Just turn the damn thing off.

Just give me a MOMENT of not being this person, please!

Do you ever feel that? Like, can I just not be this person for a SECOND? Can I just not know, not care, not SEE? Can I just work in a fucking bookshop and be content with a life quite ordinary, just for a day?!

I don’t mean to imply I feel all of this often. I manage my human self very nicely, and from expansion. I am pretty discerning at knowing when to pull back, when, despite the damn message still hammering away at the door of my soul, Katrina the HUMAN needs to say no.

I know how to ground.

I know how to not be open energetically for the whole world.

I know when it’s time to SPRINT, and when it’s time to pause.

But maybe I’m TOO careful of not giving in to the full power of what’s inside of me. And maybe understanding that there’s no need to be scared of not being able to handle it, is as simple as this:

You’re not given something you can’t handle.

And probably?

Any tiredness, overwhelm, anxiety, worry, and so on, is a simple product of trying so damn hard to make sure you stay balanced, not led ‘too much’ by your power, for fear the monster or superhuman within you takes over and the only human is gone for good.

But what if,

you never were only human

and there is no monster within, no superhuman either

what if there were no separation at all –

and you just trusted,

I was given only what I am capable of, no more and no less.

There’s nothing to try and manage.

Nothing to ‘balance’.

And I don’t need to be scared of accidentally leaving this world altogether, because it’s my natural fucking state to EFFORTLESSLY dance between both.

When I give in to being fully me –

life allows me to see –

that I was actually always free.

 

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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