SITTING IN THE SWILL OF YOUR OWN BULLSHIT, WHEN FLOW IS JUST A STEP AWAY
There is a place you hide and hang out in, right on the edge of pain and burn and tears, JUST before you fall into it, and you tell yourself –
This is enough.
There is a place where you play on the edge of the push, you sweat, you stretch, you grrrriiiiiinnnnnnnnd, just – JUST on the wrong side of careful, the EASY side of careful you understand is the wrong one, and you tell yourself –
This will do the job.
There is a place,
a place where you convince yourself you’re showing up,
doing it right,
And where you can really and truly say – “I tried!”
A place where, if you close your eyes really hard, squeeze them OH so tight, and shake shake shake away the certain feeling that THIS IS NOT WHAT IT TAKES, you can and do tell yourself AND the world –
I did what it takes.
I do what it takes!
The place I’m talking about of course, is the place in which you play in your own bullshit, and run from legacy, from truth, and most offensively of all –
It’s the place of “but I do the work!”, and yet at the same time “somehow I’m never there. Never happy. Never content. Never fulfilled. It’s NEVER ENOUGH”.
This place of course is a trap it’s a vortex it’s quicksand it’s the devil incarnate, sent along to KILL YOUR PURPOSE AND WITH IT YOUR SOUL.
It’s the place where those who TRY but never ARE don’t understand that success, fulfilment, and a life in alignment and FULL colour expression has nothing, NOTHING, to do with what you DO.
A place where you’ve been sold a lie and now have BECOME a living lie, perpetuating the same mistruths to others, as through virtue of what you have chosen to be you continue to try and convince yourself and the world that if you just keep ticking the list, checking the boxes, doing the THINGS, then somehow you get there … get SOMEwhere … become something … LAND.
The worst thing of all about this place?
If you would JUST –
Man the fuck up
Woman the fuck up
And GO THE EXTRA DAMN MILE INTO WHERE IT BURNS IT HURTS IT HURTS IT HURTS SO GOOOOOOOOD, and you can’t, you can’t, you CAN’T keep going, but then you DO, oh YEAH baby, if it hurts push HARDER –
You’d break the fuck through to glory, to mayhem, to FULL expansion and expression of all that you always ALWAYS were meant to be.
And it would be so.much.EASIER!!
The place where you hang out in the eternal do do do, stupidly scared of pushing through the pain and just a LITTLE bit harder, it is SUCH a TRICK, a LIE –
I’m already doing so much!
I push so hard!
I show up!
I do all the things, I CAN’T do more, I can’t go further, it’s already COSTING me so much, I don’t have more to give!
But through the pain –
Through the fear –
Through the extra mile –
Through the BURN and the STRETCH and the SWEAT and the BLEED –
THIS is where you click into superflow gurrllll.
It’s where you land and EXPAND.
Don’t you see?
The switch will fucking flick JUST on the other side of the pain you’re most scared of and also LONG FOR THE MOST.
And from the fact that when you go JUST beyond your fear, you become –
ONE with the flow, swept up in it, it is you and you are it and you have the energy and momentum of the entire.fucking.world, the cosmos, the collective, into the 5th and even BEYOND –
My DARLING, don’t you REALISE how HARD you make it on yourself!
Try try trying so damn hard to be the very best at JUST being human, at excelling in the physical, when you have it in you to be SUPERHUMAN.
You are bound by your bullshit.
Playing in a land of excuses and nonsense.
‘Giving’ all of you and believing you CAN’T do more, when you never had to give in that way!!
You see those who go SO much harder, SO much deeper, SO much more consistently, SO much more damn POWERFULLY, and you wonder how they do it … or you question their values, and what they are giving up to be like that … or you just assume they have some kind of superhuman energy and you write it off, but don’t you SEE –
And they said yes to opening the damn portal to the energy, momentum, magic, confidence, discipline and power of the entire GALACTIC behind them!
THIS is the secret.
This is the thing you avoid.
When you back down right before it burns too much in the gym.
When you step away as the message is at its most resistant or most vulnerable.
When you shrink back JUST as you could plant your flag and say “HEY – I CAME HERE TO RUN THIS THING”.
Cry cry cry when it hurts.
Excuse excuse excuse when others show up more powerfully than you, and are relentless at doing what it takes to create the life they want.
But at the very least, if that’s who you’re gonna continue to choose to be –
Then take a look at your feet.
In fact you know what? Pick ’em up and smell them. Give them a nice long lick.
And enjoy the taste of your bullshit. Since it’s what you’re choosing to live in, you might as well embrace it.
Don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.