I've spent years undoing the bondage of should, and the truth is I'll probably never be done with that work.
But somehow, through the midst of the endless shoulds which I've fought and cajoled and bribed and threatened myself to do, be, submit to, I have followed a whole bunch of stuff I definitely should not have, and as a result?
I've built a business fully from soul and following what's in me, allowing myself to be taken over, led and guided, by something beyond me, made what many people would consider a mega f*ckload of money online doing so, and best of all?
Created a life in which I can BREATHE fully because I am BEING fully.
Plus, you know - bought and done and created a lot of cool shit ;)
But here's the thing.
Before I surrendered to the power of my SHOULDN'T, I actively worked AGAINST my magic and my natural flow for years.
Perhaps even for lifetimes. (God knows even a day spent fighting against your own truth, and telling yourself you SHOULD, feels equivalent to several lifetimes!)
See I was always the good girl. The high-achiever. The 'do it right', and 'be the best' girl. The 'please like me' girl. The do what it TAKES girl.
And I never had anyone tell me that doing what it TAKES, having it ALL, and indeed being 'the best' (your best!), was all only ever a direct flow-on from CREATING LIFE FROM YOUR MAGIC.
I worked my ass off.
I 'did what it took' the SHOULD way.
I pushed and I pushed and I pushed.
I got some pretty decent results.
Momentum always creates an outcome. It's not as though the SHOULD life won't get you ... somewhere.
But it wasn't where I knew I could be, it wasn't what I saw inside of me, and I FELT as though I was living in handcuffs.
I spent endless days, weeks, months, and years just KNOWING that I had all this ... POWER inside of me. MAGIC. FLOW. Supernatural I don't even know what! But I knew it wasn't what I was accepting, what I was making my normal.