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Success Mindset

WHAT I DO WHEN MY WORK FEELS LIKE BULLSHIT, AND I THINK THAT I SUCK

I did a livestream yesterday which SUCKED. I started feeling in the zone, and happy, and ‘me’, and then as I went I started to feel some sort of creeping ‘ugh’. A slight self-consciousness … a feeling of not being ‘properly’ dropped in … an annoyance that I could notice my own inner commentary at all, rather than just being there, and in the conversation, and knowing I am putting down what people need to pick up.

You know?

I got off the livestream and I felt – yuck. I want to delete it! I HATE when I’m not in my flow, and have the double barrelled curse of a) feeling uncomfortable about the idea that I looked or sounded like an idiot, and b) questioning whether I delivered anything helpful! I felt irritated at myself for … well, I’m not sure.

For not being perfect?
For not ALWAYS feeling fully ‘on’?
That I should have somehow done something differently in order to make sure that this and every other thing I present to the world is my BEST WORK EVER?

Haha. One thing I love and appreciate about me is that I can simultaneously be tearing strips off of myself, or hanging my head in some kind of ‘woe is me’ sorry and shame (lol), while at the same time also laughing and rolling my eyes at my own ridiculousness.

And it IS ridiculous. Because actually the livestream was gold, and I’m just being hard on myself? Well, truly I’ve no idea. I re-watched the start which was fine, and then decided to let it go and didn’t watch any further. It may or may not have been any good. I’ve put 1000 or more things out into the world that I felt this way about. MANY blogs, livestreams, even courses. Where some part of me wanted to squirm and hide and delete and run away. Where the inner critic was SCREECHING at me –

“That was stupid! You looked moronic! You’re all over the place! What, you think you said anything there that the whole world didn’t already know? You really are kidding yourself!”

Or just that I felt UNCOMFORTABLE … TOO conscious of my own human-ness … overthinking every little move I made or didn’t make or should have made!

You know?

>> IF I LISTENED ALL, OR EVEN HALF, OR EVEN 20% OF THE TIMES THAT THE VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD TOLD ME TO RUN AND HIDE, TO DELETE, OR TO NOT CREATE OR POST OR PUBLISH IN THE FIRST PLACE, I WOULD NOT BE HERE.

And neither would you.

Not in THIS space, with me, because I wouldn’t have a space, or certainly – not one like this.

I have become the leader and go-to messenger for so many hundreds of thousands of people around the world because I am really freakin’ disciplined at putting my own bullshit aside … at making it all ‘not about me’ … at letting the message be the message, and getting myself TF outta the way when my fear mind tries to take over.

Have you?
Are you?
Are you WILLING to?

If you don’t, it’s extremely unlikely that you will ever be the voice you are meant to be, or really –

Create anything.

So whether or not yesterday’s live that my little self-conscious inner girl wanted to delete was any good HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING. It’s not the point of this message, and indeed it’s also none of MY business, and my opinion doesn’t matter.

Have a lil think about that, yeah? –

^^^ Whether or not your message, and what you put out there, is any good, is not your business, and your opinion doesn’t matter.

Does that mean you should just whack out any old idea or thought that pops into your mind, with no regard for quality, for intent, for being your BEST?

Uhhh … no! Of course not! Don’t be moronic; you should ONLY do your bestest and most true work!

This is not a contradiction to what I just said before that!

Your job, in being fully you, and letting what’s inside of you out, is to be simultaneously committed to following God, soul, higher self, your inner wisdom / voice / truth (for me it works roughly in this order, aka … I plant my soul, intuition, inner wisdom, etc, in God),

and also to HAND IT OVER AND LET WHATEVER NEEDS TO COME OUT COME OUT.

Can I ask you a question which might help to make this clear, even if a little scary?

How would your showing up look if you had absolute trust,
that what comes out of you,
is what is meant to come out of you,
is coming from the right place,
is what is NEEDED,
and has been GIVEN to you with the understanding that you will be responsible to let it out,
and live?

How much EASIER, faster, more flow, and also – more aligned with speaking DEEP to the core of the people who you are actually here to impact – would it be, if you truly never had to think about any kind of version of “is this okay”, and –

if, on the occasions you DID wonder or question that, you knew that BECAUSE of trust, BECAUSE of your foundation, BECAUSE of who you are, and the way you take guidance and also live your life,

the ‘rule’ was just to get on with it anyway?

Do you think you might produce more?
Create more?
Sell more?
Serve more?
Help more?
And ultimately –

be YOU more?

‘kay, it was more than one question. 😉

Here’s the thing beautiful:

The job of being you was given to you long ago.
You’ve always known what it is.
Even when you’ve felt you DON’T know … you did, you do, you’ve never not.
It’s been there your entire life.
A sensing. A certainty. A knowing. A nudge.

Yes –

it is a responsibility to tend to that flame, take care of it, put IN what is good, and useful, and of integrity, and true, so that what comes out is good … useful … of integrity … and true.

But this is not something to go back and forth on every day, or with every message or idea or creation, trying to assess whether it fits the bill, whether it should be allowed to live.

In the end, at a certain point, it’s very simple:

You either decided to trust, and then you got TF outta the way AS A WAY OF LIVING, and let the message be the message, the art be the art, the work be the work, or?

You shall remain twisting in torment in the bowels of whichever place artists and messengers who don’t use the gifts they are given remain,

and living a life of bullshit.

Wanna know when that ‘certain point’ is??

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/