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Success Mindset

WHAT I DO WHEN MY WORK FEELS LIKE BULLSHIT, AND I THINK THAT I SUCK

I did a livestream yesterday which SUCKED. I started feeling in the zone, and happy, and ‘me’, and then as I went I started to feel some sort of creeping ‘ugh’. A slight self-consciousness … a feeling of not being ‘properly’ dropped in … an annoyance that I could notice my own inner commentary at all, rather than just being there, and in the conversation, and knowing I am putting down what people need to pick up.

You know?

I got off the livestream and I felt – yuck. I want to delete it! I HATE when I’m not in my flow, and have the double barrelled curse of a) feeling uncomfortable about the idea that I looked or sounded like an idiot, and b) questioning whether I delivered anything helpful! I felt irritated at myself for … well, I’m not sure.

For not being perfect?
For not ALWAYS feeling fully ‘on’?
That I should have somehow done something differently in order to make sure that this and every other thing I present to the world is my BEST WORK EVER?

Haha. One thing I love and appreciate about me is that I can simultaneously be tearing strips off of myself, or hanging my head in some kind of ‘woe is me’ sorry and shame (lol), while at the same time also laughing and rolling my eyes at my own ridiculousness.

And it IS ridiculous. Because actually the livestream was gold, and I’m just being hard on myself? Well, truly I’ve no idea. I re-watched the start which was fine, and then decided to let it go and didn’t watch any further. It may or may not have been any good. I’ve put 1000 or more things out into the world that I felt this way about. MANY blogs, livestreams, even courses. Where some part of me wanted to squirm and hide and delete and run away. Where the inner critic was SCREECHING at me –

“That was stupid! You looked moronic! You’re all over the place! What, you think you said anything there that the whole world didn’t already know? You really are kidding yourself!”

Or just that I felt UNCOMFORTABLE … TOO conscious of my own human-ness … overthinking every little move I made or didn’t make or should have made!

You know?

>> IF I LISTENED ALL, OR EVEN HALF, OR EVEN 20% OF THE TIMES THAT THE VOICE INSIDE MY HEAD TOLD ME TO RUN AND HIDE, TO DELETE, OR TO NOT CREATE OR POST OR PUBLISH IN THE FIRST PLACE, I WOULD NOT BE HERE.

And neither would you.

Not in THIS space, with me, because I wouldn’t have a space, or certainly – not one like this.

I have become the leader and go-to messenger for so many hundreds of thousands of people around the world because I am really freakin’ disciplined at putting my own bullshit aside … at making it all ‘not about me’ … at letting the message be the message, and getting myself TF outta the way when my fear mind tries to take over.

Have you?
Are you?
Are you WILLING to?

If you don’t, it’s extremely unlikely that you will ever be the voice you are meant to be, or really –

Create anything.

So whether or not yesterday’s live that my little self-conscious inner girl wanted to delete was any good HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING. It’s not the point of this message, and indeed it’s also none of MY business, and my opinion doesn’t matter.

Have a lil think about that, yeah? –

^^^ Whether or not your message, and what you put out there, is any good, is not your business, and your opinion doesn’t matter.

Does that mean you should just whack out any old idea or thought that pops into your mind, with no regard for quality, for intent, for being your BEST?

Uhhh … no! Of course not! Don’t be moronic; you should ONLY do your bestest and most true work!

This is not a contradiction to what I just said before that!

Your job, in being fully you, and letting what’s inside of you out, is to be simultaneously committed to following God, soul, higher self, your inner wisdom / voice / truth (for me it works roughly in this order, aka … I plant my soul, intuition, inner wisdom, etc, in God),

and also to HAND IT OVER AND LET WHATEVER NEEDS TO COME OUT COME OUT.

Can I ask you a question which might help to make this clear, even if a little scary?

How would your showing up look if you had absolute trust,
that what comes out of you,
is what is meant to come out of you,
is coming from the right place,
is what is NEEDED,
and has been GIVEN to you with the understanding that you will be responsible to let it out,
and live?

How much EASIER, faster, more flow, and also – more aligned with speaking DEEP to the core of the people who you are actually here to impact – would it be, if you truly never had to think about any kind of version of “is this okay”, and –

if, on the occasions you DID wonder or question that, you knew that BECAUSE of trust, BECAUSE of your foundation, BECAUSE of who you are, and the way you take guidance and also live your life,

the ‘rule’ was just to get on with it anyway?

Do you think you might produce more?
Create more?
Sell more?
Serve more?
Help more?
And ultimately –

be YOU more?

‘kay, it was more than one question. 😉

Here’s the thing beautiful:

The job of being you was given to you long ago.
You’ve always known what it is.
Even when you’ve felt you DON’T know … you did, you do, you’ve never not.
It’s been there your entire life.
A sensing. A certainty. A knowing. A nudge.

Yes –

it is a responsibility to tend to that flame, take care of it, put IN what is good, and useful, and of integrity, and true, so that what comes out is good … useful … of integrity … and true.

But this is not something to go back and forth on every day, or with every message or idea or creation, trying to assess whether it fits the bill, whether it should be allowed to live.

In the end, at a certain point, it’s very simple:

You either decided to trust, and then you got TF outta the way AS A WAY OF LIVING, and let the message be the message, the art be the art, the work be the work, or?

You shall remain twisting in torment in the bowels of whichever place artists and messengers who don’t use the gifts they are given remain,

and living a life of bullshit.

Wanna know when that ‘certain point’ is??

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Here’s the thing girlfriend.

Sister.

Brother.

BADASS REVOLUTIONARY FUCKING LEADER YOU.

You came here to be all of you, be all of you now.

And now?

It’s time.

👉👉 IDENTITY.

10 Days with Katrina Ruth to Wake You Back Up to You. And Unleash the Game You’re Done Waiting For.

Day 1 LIVE Asskickery shooting into your soul in just a few days time!

DAILY you + me + God + soul to follow.

This?

Is the do/not/miss time going into you that you’re soul has been hungering for and it’s time.to.FEED it!

Here’s how it’s going down:

> 10 Days ALL new live online course with Katrina Ruth

> DAILY asskickery | activation | bulletproof coffee up the booty (that’s me)

> DAILY journal prompts | worksheets | exercises to get you going and flowing into ALL of you

AND:

> (this is crazy!) DAILY bonuses to help you implement our IDENTITY work in different areas of your business. Money. Body. Relationships. Life! Application of what we are working on out the wazoo!

> All trainings recorded and yours to keep for life in your Katrina Ruth Members Dashboard (training times will be announced day by day as we begin. Day 1 live asskickery at XXXX. Training times will vary day to day to account for students all around the world!

> Live Facebook Group with Kat and the #KatNinjas throughout

> IMMEDIATE and then DAILY and then FOREVER AFTER switch flickin’ into YOU as soon as you say yes! (That is just how this works).

What to expect, from this time together?

Every.single.thing. you’ve always known was there within.

> Certainty. Of soul, of God, of what flow requires, of, well, everything.
> Ability to always know the right decision to make, and how to make it. NO MATTER WHAT.
> Courage and abilily and inner strength to then ACT as you need to
> Ability and soul certainty walk away. Know what to walk away from. Shred and burn. Immediately and as required. Amen.
> ALWAYS ability to access flow. Message certainty. Soul guidance on what you create, unleash, how, to whom.
> Magnetism. Activated. From within. To and from your soul peeps. In all areas.
> Money certainty, where it comes from, how to inhale / exhale it, infinitely, PEACE on this.
> Peace. In general. Where it comes from. How to be IN it. How to return to it when it seems far away.
> Moving through the ‘woods’ of business, of life, of you. Recognising it. Being okay with it!
> Leaning in. Surrender. The things that go with this. How to let it be easy, happy, a joy!
> JOY. From God. From within. All THROUGH you. AS IT WAS ALWAYS MEANT TO BE.
> Forgiveness, and grace. Where you know it comes from. How to receive it fully.
> RECEIVING. Unlocking the portals to. Opening up the floodgates. Seeing where you dial it back. Stopping that shit!
> Turning up the dial in all areas. What it means, and how.
> BEING the mofo light. Being all of it. Owning your too muchness! SWAYING with it.
> Being in the dance with God and soul and life and ALWAYS knowing your next move. ALL of that. And so much more.
> Creating. Being the artist the messenger the performer the leader the shift the YOU, who just lets it flood out. Knowing what works. Does not. How to release. Go deeper. And also? Sell TF outta that game.
> Being the leader NOW. Appointing yourself. What it means and why you’re already pre-approved.
> BIRTHRIGHT. Accessing and owning your soul blueprint. The blueprint of YOU. Of purpose. And destiny. And truth. Let’s go!

You want more?

There’s so much more.

^^ This? Is the warm-up, the first bit of what dropped through to me when I felt in to this, allowed it to come through, for you.

We will see what unfolds,
when it unfolds,
when we enter this dance,
together!

But what this is really about, and why you know you need to be here?

You’re done with playing the game of waiting to play the damn game.

Identity, baby.

IT’S TIME.

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