WHAT IF YOU JUST FUCKING DECIDED … RELEASED THE HOW … AND SHOWED UP LIKE IT WAS DONE?
I’ve been journaling on manifestation, on the amazing and epic things I have manifested, and doing kind of like a ‘recon’, I guess, into how I’ve done that.
I know it’s funny I just wrote that, when the title of this blog includes releasing the how, but there’s how –
And then there’s how.
Which I’ll explain.
Anyway, I was journaling.
And I had a problem.
It’s been bugging me for weeks … even months.
It’s caused STAGNATION, because mostly, how I have dealt with said problem, is by not.
I’ve ignored it.
Put it aside.
Decided it wasn’t urgent, and I didn’t have to.
And, conveniently used the end of the year as a get out of jail card.
“I’ll deal with it then”
Problem with using a timeframe as a get out of jail card, is that said timeframe tends to roll the fuck around at some point.
Well, the end of the year came.
And it went.
I had other things to focus on instead.
Can’t look at that right now!
Eventually, it got to the point where I HAD to actually figure this shit out. My team had been postponing things for long enough. It was time to give them an answer.
Eventually is right now … like, on the current flight I’m sitting on. lol.
So, I did what I had to fucking do, didn’t I?! I opened my computer to dive into my thoughts and make a DECISION, got side-tracked writing a little love note to a man, which I may or may not send, and then decided I needed a nap.
I did need a nap! I had the WORST sleep last night, sleep demons were beating me WAY up, and I dreamt that 3 of the people I loved most died.
It was full on.
WHEN KAT NEEDS A NAP SHE GETS A NAP.
Problem-solving had to wait…. again.
Two hours later, I woke up, sat up rather like the Dormouse, all at once, and half frightened the steward who was passing by, asking for a Cab Merlot when he thought I was passed out and snoring.
I grabbed my laptop.
Somehow ended up writing a full analysis of a time when I needed 114k in 2 days and had ZERO fucking clue of how that could possibly happen, but yet did it.
I’ll definitely share about THAT soon, actually it’s the exact sort of foundational ‘how to manifest like a motherfucker’ stuff I’m going to share in my 300k in 5 Days case study this coming week. More on that below!
So, that was IMPORTANT to work out. I love looking at that sort of thing! How did I just create an EPIC result, from TOTAL flow, when it was COMPLETELY not on the cards?!
Super cool to analyse, and more deeply understand what I already know about manifestation.
Still wasn’t me addressing said problem though!
So, I decided to sternly pose myself the question at hand –
Enough was enough already!!
“What do I actually want to happen with XXX?”
Just so you know, XXX is something entirely related to my business.
My mind spat out the following:
“An incredible hot, fun, funny, SUPER sexy and successful TALL man appears in my life. He desires me sexually and in all the ways, and he shows it no apology. He is available, he is on the Gold Coast, this happens fast, he tells me straight up what he wants and he makes it happen. We connect instantly and DEEPLY, in multiple ways. He is amazing … and a total King. He treats me like a goddess and a Queen. We also have insane amounts of FUN together. So much! He meets the kids and is great with the kids, as well. This all happens this week. 0 to 100!
IT IS POSSIBLE
I know it may not happen
I have asked and stated
I now get to show up from flow, in all the ways
Back on point!! XXXX!
fast forward fast forward fast forward
what is the outcome I desire
what do I want then?
I DON’T KNOW!
but there’s always an answer
what is it
XXXX! Really now!”
I then followed this on, randomly, with the following statement:
“I CAN’T WAIT TO SEE REGAN!”
(I’m seeing her in LA in a few weeks … we haven’t seen each other for ages … it is going to be a LOVE AND MARTINI FEST EXTRAODINAIRE. Stay tuned for THAT!)
None of these statements, while powerful and also verrrrrryyy manifest-y (ask for the things!) –
Really had any fucking thing to do with what I was meant to be figuring out!
Finally I wrote –
“Even though I feel like I don’t know what the answer is, if I DID know, it would be – “
This is a technique I ask my clients to use often, when stuck. Your SUB-conscious mind always knows. This way of asking helps to clear the bullshit.
And, it helped a little bit for me … I had to ask it a few times … but it still did NOT feel like I knew. I identified what I did NOT want, which was helpful. But I couldn’t see what I DID want.
Some things were coming up which I noticed did NOT feel good … fears … basically underlying reasons for why I’d been stagnant in this area.
Why couldn’t I figure this out?!
And finally, something just clicked –
“What if —— (shit relevant to outcomes I want relevant to XXX) and it got to ONLY feel amazing?
What if I just detached from the how and DECIDED …
What if gave my FLOW energy and just trusted and knew …
What if I also decided … (other thing I just want DONE) …
This is the answer.”
And suddenly I realised, that all of the evading I’d been doing, well, maybe not the past few months, but certainly on this flight, was part of it, and perfect, and needed.
I needed the nap … like, for real though, I passed out INSTANTLY when I put my beats and eye mask (purple!) on … and just before I did, I set an intention:
– The answer will be shown to me.
I also needed to randomly dive into analysing some of my best manifestation stuff, and reminding myself of JUST HOW FUCKING POWERFUL I AM, and that ANYTHING can be created simply by DECIDING it, even if you don’t believe it WILL happen, you know it is POSSIBLE, and so you state it as done, then surrender the HOW, and get back to flow.
I needed even to test out that by writing a man manifestation statement …
Reminding myself that if I just ask clearly for what I want, and put it out there OF COURSE IT CAN HAPPEN.
And the Regan thing was just ’cause I looked at my wrist, where every day I wear my Louis Vuitton bracelet which she gave me, and it made me think of her which got me excited, as only girls can about soul sister catch ups 🙂
When I was diving into the ‘how’ of the 114k in 2 days thing, and also at the same time thinking about the 300k in 5 Days Case Study Workshop I’m running this week, the shortlist ‘reminder’ I wrote down was this:
– decide exactly what I desire and require
– be specific
– write it down as though DONE
– I must believe it’s possible
– and surrender that it may not happen though
– then show up from FLOW
– and also being honest with myself / accountable what I know I need to be doing
You know, I think that no matter how far down the success pathway we go, we can never be too often reminded of what it actually takes to receive.
So today, this is me reminding me AND you –
Just fucking ask.
Surrender the how.
And then show the fuck up for the now.
How would that look for you?
Don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.