Sometimes when it seems as though life is throwing some shit in my face, something that could potentially have hurt me, got me down, or made me feel not good enough or bad, I actually find myself buying in to the idea that maybe there IS something I need to change.

Am I too much this?

Was I too much that?

Do I need to adjust / dial in / improve / perfect my attitude / body / badassery / whatever?

It’s hard not to be human as fuck about it, not to take things personally!

Well –

It’s hard for a MINUTE or so, and often less than that, however much time it takes for you to remember who you are and, actually, as a result of that lil bit of questioning, go even DEEPER into your power, your activation, your core.

Of course this last bit is true so long as you’ve been doing the WORK, the work of knowing that you and you alone decide your:

and outcomes!

Well, you IN GOD is how I would really put it! But I meant you as opposed to any other human, life event or experience, circumstance of any kind.

Let’s also just remember that there are some people / situations / life experiences which are just plain basic, that’s the (dubious) gift God gave ’em, so that we can all grow and enjoy the contrast of us and our lives NOT being so!

Of course more and more when you choose to be the person who you’re meant to be, what I’ve found is that that stuff will come along OH so rarely, and when it does it is only ever an opportunity for amusement and gratitude, to see what new things you get to learn.

Once you’ve come to understand how it works, to embody your fullest power and be completely dropped in TO your own sovereign being-ness, it’s actually one of the most empowering things of all when something comes along that could or ‘should’ have shaken you, would have shaken the earlier you.

It’s an opportunity to lock down your roots even deeper, to remind yourself of your truths, and to expand into even MORE receiving and flow.

But at first … and depending upon where you’re at in your journey … it really can mess with your head a little! Or a lot.

– when they don’t buy
– when nobody seems to be listening or watching
– when somebody said they were ‘hell yes’, talked a great talk, but then vanishes into thin air
– when the ocean of life just seems to be particularly stormy and you forget that the changing weather or seasons are just part of reality, and not something to take personally

“I’m not good enough for the ocean today, clearly I’m not worthy, look how it’s tossing me around, WAHHHHHHHH”


This is what some of you are doing with the natural ebbs and flows of LIFE.

Which is some crazy shit, girlfriend, and something I hope you can right now in this moment see the ridiculousness of, and henceforth adjust accordingly.

So anyway –

Here’s the thing, yeah?

We will always have more work to do. You are continually going to notice ways in which you want to improve, dial up or dial in your outcomes, be a stronger, more King or Queen energy embodied, more in his or her power version of you. Or whatever!

You are continually going to have circumstances occur in life where you look back – sometimes even right away, which can be a little painful – and you realise that UGH –

I was so not in my power there.
I was not being authentic to my highest self.
Why did I act that way / say that / show that?
I feel self-conscious!
Or whatever.

^^ you have two choices here.

1) Beat up on yourself for how not perfect and not enough you are, and continue forward with the mindset that when you get being YOU right then you will finally get what you want / be loved by life and everything in it


With women and men like us, there is no fear of stopping doing the work, becoming a person who does not grow and drop deeper into soul and self, accidentally turning lazy, undisciplined, or off purpose or mission!

We don’t have to worry about that!

It’s who you ARE, it’s in your blood, to keep doing the work.

Gosh, just think about it – before the time most people eat breakfast each day you’ve already typically had 88 amazing breakthroughs / shifts / drop ins / ahas, and probably changed the frequency of the whole world just by rollin’ out of bed and being you!

It’s just how it is. (*casual shrug*)

So, how can it ever be necessary to be in a mindset of:

I didn’t do it right
I shouldn’t have done such and such
I need to be better, more this or that, and then I will ____________ (insert outcome)

Answer: it is not!


In the past I used to feel this way as well, that it was about me, something I needed to fix in me, when life felt unsettling, or worse. It’s so funny to me now, to even imagine seeing it that way!

And it’s kind of based on a mindset of ‘life has to punish or upset me to remind me to do the work of improving and being fully in my me-ness’.


You will continue to do the work of improving and going ever deeper into your you-ness because it’s who you ARE. You can’t not. It’s imprinted into the very DNA of your soul! You just EXISTING is you growing! We are different from the other humans. We know this. Gotta remind yourself sometimes!

And, there will always be greater depth and true-ness to go to.

And, there will always, no matter how fucking woke and spiritual you become, be times when you act in a way which just makes no sense for a woman or man as evolved and powerful as you!

Get over it. Remove emotion, and get over it! As with most things – it is what it is, and that’s all it is.

Except, let’s just remember for a moment that how you act ALWAYS makes sense.

Yes, even if you did or allowed something which you don’t know whether to laugh or cry about right now, there is ALWAYS higher purpose at play.

You GOT to learn the same lesson again. (Maybe this time you’ll actually learn it, hmm?! Or maybe you wanna keep on learning this one again … and again … and again!)

You became stronger.

You dropped further in.


Downloads and visions came through which, without this lil bit of boat rocking, would not have!

Be GRATEFUL for the storm when it comes your way.

Lean IN to it.

Dance and play with it!

Smile, get curious, and ask God – “what is this about? What do I need to know? How are you asking me to grow?”

It’s ALWAYS for your benefit. You are being up-coded sister. There is no other option for us. We are always and ONLY being pulled to the next level, and further into our calling.

Where does our joy, our peace, our certainty, our inner strength come from? It comes only from being grounded in soul, planted in God. Which means it is always FULLY available for you, no limits, no matter what is going on!

Life is such a wonderful thing, truly.

Every day we are gifted with literally dozens of opportunities to become more of who we were always meant to be.

Be sure not to throw out the best gifts because on the surface of it they looked like nasty little pills.


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