YOUR MAIN PROBLEM IS YOU STILL DON’T KNOW HOW TO JUST BE
Your main problem is – you still don’t know how to just be.
Your main opportunity is – you still don’t know how to just be.
Your main note to self needs to be – it’s REALLY time to learn how to just be.
Be?
Be what, you ask?
Be the thing you’ve been waiting for.
And the world, too, has been waiting on.
The thing you promised yourself you would,
and could,
one day,
when.
One day,
when I’ve done this, ticked off that, learned about such and such, implemented 77 x 77 thingamabobs, one day,
then.
But the truth is –
(and you do know this, you KNOW!)
It’s not about that at all.
Because, well, let’s play imagine, yes?
Imagine the money was there (rivers of it! endless! unstoppable!),
and imagine the list was complete (all of it! done! forever!),
and imagine your home was tidy, perfect, a haven, and your body also, tidy, perfect, a haven! (lol)
and then on top of it –
your relationships all just chugging along smoothly, like good little engines that could.
Everything,
but EVERYTHING –
done.
Then –
THEN –
who would you be?
what would you choose?
what would you DO, and focus on, and create?
The flicker of anxiety, or fuck, or eek, or GOSH, which comes up when you imagine that –
That is the place to lean into.
The part of you which still hasn’t QUITE figured out the idea of using a moment just,
and only,
to be.
Nail that moment?
Learn how to dance, and twist, and breathe, and DEEPEN into it?
And everything you’ve been waiting so long to have will unlock for you.
The answer was never “I’ll be her when I get there”.
It’s always been “I’ll get there when I be her”.
Stop running towards what is already available to you. You can’t find it that way.
