Will You Make Space For Your Dream Life?

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(you gotta have faith) – photo by garychrist

This post is Part 2 of my series on creating your dream life. Read Part 1, ‘Losing Weight, Quitting Your Job And Living Your Dreams: Could You Really Have It All’. 168 people like it, and I think you will too 🙂

My friend Helena has an online business. It’s something she is very good at, knows how to do. She can help people with this business. Make their lives easier, happier. Allow them to move a little closer to their dreams as a result. The stuff Helena can do is stuff that has me reaching for a paper bag and a huge block of chocolate if I try to do it in my own business.

Another friend, Bridget, also has an online business. She is one of the lucky few whose qualifications match her passions, and her business both on and offline is a success as a result. I know as a fact that she has personally helped hundreds of women to feel more confident and happy about themselves and their bodies. Every day she changes lives.

How lucky these women are to have something they know how to do, and can do well.

Except –

Helena mentioned just recently that she had a dream idea for a completely different business that she felt called to run. Something that had personally impacted her life and the daily choices she makes,  and something she felt called to write about. This dream idea is something that would almost certainly touch people’s lives and make a lasting difference. To Helena as well as to her clients or readers.

And she acknowledged –

“The way I’m running my business right now? It’s not working for me. But I don’t have the right skills, qualifications to write about that other thing. I wouldn’t know where to start. So what do I do? Do I just quit and let it fall by the wayside? I have such hang-ups about not finishing stuff”

Would you walk away from something you’d worked hard to build up if you thought it wasn’t quite right for you? Even if it would mean you would have to basically jump off a cliff without knowing what’s below?

Could you?

Bridget’s situation is a little different, but still one that’s making her answer some tough questions about who she is and what she wants out of her business and her life. She loves what she does but she feels like she’s not really doing enough of the bits she actually loves the most and is brilliant at. She says –

“It’s just the AWARENESS of HOW I want to help and WHAT I DO with those I work with…. I already do all the things I want to do, I just need it on a more regular, consistent basis AND I need to learn how to make it a daily part of what I do and help how I help people …  I need to simply BELIEVE in me!! SO many people tell me how great I am and how they look up to me….I am always surprised!!! ME?!?!!?!? Im a weird paradox!!”

The thing with this is that Bridget does already have ‘the dream’ as far as her business goes, but it’s just not quite playing out in the best possible way. It’s like she’s getting snatches of her dream and then going back to the safe and ‘should do’ things to keep her business going.

Have you ever done the same in your own business or career, or perhaps in your life? I know I have, time and time again, and I have to tell you –

The worst thing is not not living your dreams or even knowing what they are. The absolute worst thing is being so close to your true dreams that you can taste and feel them, but that you’re also satisfied enough to have no deep need to step off that cliff and see if there really is something mind-blowingly amazing waiting for you.

A hint – there is.

stop living a good or even a great life – and start living your dream life

Good is not enough. Even great is not enough. Until you can say you’ve really given it your all to create your idea of freaking amazing, then no, you’re not living your dream or dreams, are you?

Even if, and perhaps you don’t have this stuff; perhaps you’re still working for it, but just go with me –

  • You are in good or great health and fitness
  • You have a settled and happy relationship
  • You have a great job or business
  • You have a nice house
  • You have all the other accoutrements of a successful modern-day life

But is it what the very deepest part of you truly yearns for? Or is it just what you thought you would need to be happy?

If you’re not ‘there’ yet in the above areas, you’re the fortunate one. You can change your mind about what you really want before you finish climbing the wrong ladder. And if you are there, then know this –

It’s okay to be grateful for and happy with what you have, but to still admit that you want more.

That you want a life that is much less ordinary; one that is nothing short of spectacular. One that fulfills your wildest fantasies.

And that you want it now, dammit.


You want to live a dream life? Make your fantasies come true? Then tell me this.

How are your dreams going to have a fighting chance of finding space to grow when your life is so full of the things that drain you and make you less you? Before you can reach for your dreams you have to let go, and make some space. You can’t grow a beautiful and life-giving plant when it is surrounded by weeds. Your dreams are waiting for you, but they will never come searching for you. It has to be the other way. So today, make a little space. Start with the littlest weed.

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(don’t make your dreams fight for survival) – photo by chidsey

how to reach a big crazy dream – step one

So here’s what you have to do. Step one of creating the life you fantasise about, of reaching even just one of your big crazy dreams, is to quit.

Quit the stuff that isn’t the you who you want to be. Quit, quit, quit. Just jump off the cliff and have faith that you will fly.

This is so important; I can’t stress it enough. You will never get to your dreams if you’re not willing to let go of the stuff that is keeping you so safe and secure. The stuff that everyone ‘knows’ you should be fighting towards. Be honest now – how’s the fight to live the perfect little life going? Are you loving it?

One thing I do to reach live more of my dream life, is I try to quit at least one thing every day. It’s not a sometimes thing, it’s a daily thing you need to do as part of the ‘how to’ of making your wishes and hopes come true. Your sneaky little monkey mind will try each day to trick you into getting distracted back to the safe things and the should-dos.

Never ever ever try to strive toward any goal or dream without first making space for it.

Me, for the best part of my twenties, I stole my own dream. At the time I didn’t know it at all; so consumed was I by Getting Ahead and Being Happy By Having And Doing More.

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(what happens when you get to the top?) – photo by srbichara

So yeah, my idea of a dream life, the life I was born to live? I stole it right away. Hid it, in fact. So deep that I pretty much forgot it had even existed.

What I wanted, was to inspire people. To motivate and empower them to live an outrageous life. To have them listen to me and then to rise up and say YES, it can be me. It can be now.

I wanted to move people to tears, to passion, and most of all to massive action. To watch their self-confidence and determination go from being wilted or non-existent to being so ridiculously and unstoppably on fire that nothing and nobody could get in their path. Not even themselves.

I wanted to write, speak, perform, cry and laugh with people. To be completely authentic about reaching for my dreams, and show others how to do the same.

Instead, I went to Uni. I didn’t like it; it wasn’t what I expected, and so I changed courses. 3 times. That didn’t help, so I went to Europe and Africa for 3 months, traveling mostly alone.

That was awesome, although I came back with extra booty baggage which worked out okay as it resulted in my becoming a gym-junkie turned personal trainer.

At last I knew what I was going to do with myself. Something fun, matching my interests, allowing me to help people and also make a good income. A true dream, right?

I like to get ahead at most things if I can, so after a few years I entered personal training management. Climbed the ladder like a good girl. I had it all! I was making it. A few more years and I had the marriage, the savings account, the even higher up the ladder job.

I lost my dream to get it, but it didn’t matter at all because I didn’t even notice.

Eventually I tired of working in management, and went back to personal training. I was proud of myself for walking away. I found it terrifying to do so – I was literally shaking when I quit. And as I got back into working for myself and inspiring people to get in shape I thought I’d finally figured it out.

But somehow, it still wasn’t enough. Although I didn’t even really know it, I wanted to write, speak, perform, cry and laugh with people. I wanted to change lives. And I wasn’t. Not deeply.

Eventually, I ended up here. Via a client newsletter, via my first ‘blog’, via my first ‘official’ blog Body Incredible and via a lot of failed blogs and joint ventures that you’ve never even seen as I lost interest in them before they made it out of infancy. Here, where I am now, I am impacting lives. But I’m still not quit being the me I want to be. I haven’t truly let myself soar.

you have to let go in order to be free

"dream life"

(what do you really want and need) – photo by bjearwicke

Take a look at your life.

Not through anyone else’s eyes, just through your own kind and compassionate eyes. If you’re not used to being kind and compassionate to yourself, well – humour me and just pretend you are 🙂

So, being kind and compassionate and loving yourself right now, tell me this –

Are you living a life of brilliance? Do you find yourself so caught up in what you do each day that time passes in an instant, that you could happily do it all day long even if you had no reward for it, that you just love it so much and are challenged and grow from it as well?

Yes? No? Sometimes?

The last is the probable answer. I hope you don’t say that never is the answer, but that’s okay too for now.

Because regardless of where you are right now as you read this, regardless of how deeply you feel that it’s too late for you, that you missed your chance, there is an unshakeable truth about life –

It is yours for the taking. Yes, you. Life is yours to choose what to do with. Every. Damn. Moment. So whilst it might be safer, easier, less challenging to claim that you don’t have what it takes it’s also a big huge crock of you know what.

The reality is that no matter where you find yourself now, no matter how far you’ve sunk or swum from your dreams, you can get to brilliance.

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(following your dreams can lead to absolute freedom. but you have to start now) – photo by noodle1

But you have to choose to step away from the things that have kept you safe. Secure. Comfortable. And so busy and full that you possibly haven’t even realised there could be more.

Will you choose? Or do you prefer to stay?

i’m stepping towards the light

This is where I’m at right now. I’m stepping away from what’s safe for me, what’s easy enough, what’s already on track. Once again, I find myself ready to walk away from something I thought I wanted. Something I’ve worked incredibly hard to build up, am proud of and have had a lot of fun with. Maybe you can guess what it is?

Something that ultimately, is just one part of my journey though; one dream fulfilled. It’s not the essence of me. And I’ll be damned if I’m going to miss out on continuing to find out what is.

So I challenge you to do the same. To shed another layer of the you you’ve been presenting yourself as, and get even one step closer to being the truly gorgeous and vibrant you.

how to achieve a big dream, something crazy even – step one, continued

I wanted to write an entire post on exactly how to achieve a big dream, something crazy even. But I’ve realised –

If I wrote all of that, every last step, as just one post, you would read it and (I hope) be inspired and even moved by it but would you do it?

I think, not all of it. It’s too much. And it goes against the grain of true and lasting dream living to even try to do everything all at once. So, if you’d like to join me, I’m going to take you through a process over the next few posts.

A layering of dream creation 🙂

Each post will reveal another step in the process. In the order that I’ve found to work very well. Follow the process and you can actually make a dream of yours start to become a reality in the next 2 weeks. Better than being inspired just for a moment or a day after reading the whole system all at once but being a little too overwhelmed to do it all at once, right?

So, step one, which I know I’m kind of revealing to you in a very round-a-bout manner right now. But I hope the stories help?

step one, continued (again) – make space for your dreams

It’s time to claim your future. To stand up and be counted for what you really want out of life. To be ridiculously, unashamedly, no-holds-barred honest about what you want for once. And this time, NO – not only to yourself.

It’s time to stand up and be counted as a woman who plain and simple refuses to live a life less ordinary.

How to do that? First, just make the choice.

Say right now – aloud (no matter where you are) – “I choose a life of brilliance. I am ready for more”

What is more? Some ideas –

  • Be proud that like my friend Jess, who you read about last week, you want to quit your job and spend a year or more traveling
  • Be honest about wanting to create your dream job like Jo, Pam, Denise, Leonie.
  • Admit it if you don’t like the way you look or feel
  • And if you long to spend days cruising the coast in a black Maserati with your hair streaming behind you and diamonds on every finger, just say so.
  • And even if you have the supposedly dream anything right now, be ready and willing to say that it’s actually not enough. That you want more. And that you believe you can have it and that you deserve. You know I believe that about you, right? Completely and utterly.
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(wouldn’t it be just beautiful to let go sometimes?) – photo by chidsey

Right now, it’s not about voicing in detail or maybe even at all what you do want to create. That’s part two, the next blog I’ll write for you in this series 🙂

So for now, your job is easy –

  • Admit. Admit that you’re not satisfied, that you want more. That you’re destined for more and absolutely unashamedly deserve it.
  • And then quit. Make space for your dreams to grow. Stop doing the little (and if you dare the big) things that are making you less you. Delete, diminish or delegate them. Do it now, and keep doing it. One thing each day, remember? Promise me you’ll do this at least until we get to part two.
  • And finally, for now – believe. Believe that you have everything you need, waiting for you. Believe that incredible abundance and joy can be yours. And be willing to hold that belief close to your heart no matter how many bright shiny objects keep coming your way. And now, you’re already moving forward, moving closer to your dream life. Who would have thought it could be so easy to start that transformation?

Helena and Bridget, they’re not quite at their true dreams yet. Neither am I. It’s a journey and it always will be.

But they’ve started the process. Bravely they’ve admitted to themselves and to others that no, actually, this is not okay. And yes, as a matter of fact, I am incredible enough to live an even more amazing one than this already pretty good one I have.

Are you willing to be just as brave?

Life is Now. Press Play.




A One-Time Live Online Workshop with Katrina Ruth, on How to Make Money Anywhere, Anytime, With ZERO Dependance on Any One Platform, Program or Tool … Aka JUST BECAUSE THAT’S WHO YOU ARE … AND – With the Greatest of Ease

Okay. Imma gonna get straight up on your ass about what needs to be said here, because obviously SOMEBODY needs to hit the damn truth button on this shit!!

Straight up from the gate up, you do NOT make money because of Facebook.

Because of Instagram.

Because of email.

Because of ANY of this shit.

You make money because of who you are and what you decide and make NON-NEGOTIABLE, period, The End!

As you may be aware, in the last day or so Facebook and Instagram went down down down OH so far down.

After a few obligatory ‘stop the world!’ messages to my team and friends (which resulted in a serious convo with one of my soul sisters as to whether we’d now have to become porn stars instead), I got back to business.

The business of posting and selling shit on Facebook, which is admittedly a big part of what I do each day???

Nah … the business of being ME, because THAT is what I actually do each day, and also?

It’s what gets me paid.

Funnily enough, as is often the way with these things, just yesterday somebody was making smart-ass comments to me about how all the coaches would survive if there was no Facebook or Instagram.

“How would they survive?”, I asked myself.

“Well, I have no idea how THEY would survive but I sure as shit know how I would survive:

Very fucking well indeed, thank you very much, because that is who I AM”

Word to the wise:

A) I was making serious money long before I used Facebook for it.

Allow me to say it again for those in the back: YOU MAKE MONEY BECAUSE OF WHO YOU ARE AND THE LEVEL YOU VIBRATE AT.


It’s an energy thang baby, a frequency shiz niz, it’s just who you ARE and how life works for you.

Handy hint —> the level of wealth you enjoy or moan over now is already just a direct reflection of your frequency, and expectations. It ain’t got jack shit to do with what you do, and it certainly is not a product of which tools are available to you.

It is a product of YOU.

When the socials went down today it was FASCINATING to me to observe the response that came through in the in-between-y bits when people managed to post something.

People worrying about how it would impact their business, or feeling in some way handcuffed.

This is crazy! It’s fear-mongering at its worst and it’s an absolute SHITTY mentality as far as belief systems around where results come from.

Do you know what I felt, when I realised we couldn’t use Facebook as normal for our biz stuff?


It took a minute to click in, but I found myself getting all wriggly and lit up with excitement.

I love a damn challenge 🙂

And since I also choose to believe that everything is happening FOR me, I also took personal responsibility for this occurrence.

Obviously FB and Insta had gone down in order to force me to finally pull my finger out and learn how to go live on YouTube.

But mainly – hell YEAH to the opportunity to get creative!

Probably taking the whole thing a little bit too far, as I worked my way through some sprints on the rower post HIIT weights session, I started to imagine what would happen if Facebook was TRULY GONE AND NO LONGER OF THIS WORLD.

I got MORE excited with each second that passed (which makes me remember how damn BORED I get as soon as I know how to easily do something aka make money all day err day on Facebook), and I also found myself AUTOMATICALLY GOING INTO ZAG MODE.


You know, like ‘When They Zig you Zag’. A classic, if ever there was one!! Thank you Dad, for always having all the BEST books on your bookshelf for me to start reading from 10 or 11 years of age!

See, I have a belief system which works rather well for me and I guess is just part of who I am –

I believe that things ALWAYS work out perfectly for me, and are always done FOR me …

I believe I am always on path …

I believe I always make the right decision, so therefore I never have to beat myself up, I just wait for the lesson –



I believe that my outcomes are predicated only by my choices, and that there is nothing I EVER need in order to get or maintain or ONLY improve on an existing outcome.

It’s this mindset that causes me to wonder what TF it has to do with anything when people say things like they can’t be in shape ’cause they have kids or just had a kids … or ’cause they can’t get to the gym (for example)

And it’s also this mindset that causes me to KNOW that the money I make and the impact my soul work has in the world has NOTHING to do with what tools or platforms are available to me or working.

I programmed myself a long time ago to IMMEDIATELY swerve if something was no longer serving me or working for me. It’s this part of my mind which therefore right away started coming up with creative and imaginative solutions for how business would OF COURSE carry on (and improve!) with or without social media.

And it’s also this part of my mind which of course right away finds a way to monetize the damn thing and turn it into epic and highly helpful content for you, aka this workshop!

It’s just how I think, and who I am. I am simply unavailable for NOT moving forward, and nothing will ever ever EVER make me believe that I have to depend on anything outside of me for my results.

So why a whole damn workshop on the concept?

Well, it’s more than that, isn’t it?

It’s a mindset of believing that you always get what you want.

It’s a mindset of believing that everything always works out for you.

It’s a mindset of believing that NOTHING can stop you.

That everything is working in your favour.


That you can monetize ANYTHING, any time you choose, and with no ‘requirements’ in order to do so!

I don’t have to tell you that obvs the outcomes you get directly follow and reflect your mindset and your beliefs!!

Here is what else, as well:

This is not just about making money any time, from any thing, and knowing that even with challenge or things going wrong you only THRIVE and EXPAND!!

For me this goes hand in hand with duh – I get to do all of that on my terms.

By having FUN, and being in FLOW, and with ease.

In fact, the more money the more ease!! #justhowitis

That I can literally click my fingers and money shows up for me, meanwhile I’m just over here doing ma thang.

Speaking of which –

I think it’s about time I shared exactly what I currently DO all day, yeah? And how I do it / fit it all in / honour ALL the areas, PLUS manage to spend so much time sitting on my ass doing sweet FA!

In other words … !

Let’s hang out together this weekend!!




A One-Time Live Online Workshop with Katrina Ruth, on How to Make Money Anywhere, Anytime, With ZERO Dependance on Any One Platform, Program or Tool … Aka JUST BECAUSE THAT’S WHO YOU ARE … AND – With the Greatest of Ease

> It’s happening Thursday March 21 at 11.30am Brisbane time (Wednesday 9.30pm NYC / 1.30am London, UK)

> All fully recorded if you can’t attend live

> ALL your questions answered (either live during the workshop, or afterwards in the group if you can’t attend live)

> KILLER bonus content on Top 11 Most Effective & Proven ‘When They Zig You Zag’ Sales Secrets

> Live support from meeeeee in the group afterwards for anything extra you want and need to know!

> Free Bonus Entire COURSE for Everyone! My $197 Alignment & Asskickery Toolkit, a 14-Day Smackdown to Bring You Back to YOU, and Into Massive Aligned and Result Based Action! Yes, that’s an entire $197 course and you’re paying less than half of that for this entire workshop!

> All content yours to keep for life!!


What We Will Be Covering!

1) How to Monetize ANY Situation, Including But Not Limited To:

* When social media or any typically depended upon platform goes down (including examples of how I have down this several times, to the tune of tens of thousands)

* Hater situations (including examples, again multiple times, again tens of thousands of dollars)

* When you make a fool of yourself / something embarrassing happens or you screw up (also examples! also lots and lots of lovely moolah)

* When people ‘screw you over’ (ahem, we will talk about this) or desert you (also examples! more money!)

* Basically how to turn any and all life situations, moods, changes of the moon, emotional ups and downs, real life SHIT, to money!

2) Why the ‘When Shit Happens’ times are often the BEST times to make money, aka this is where I teach you what it really means to understand human psychology in terms of SALES, and the mindset of being an actual IN THE FLOW entrepreneur, who ALWAYS sees opportunity and jumps straight on it

3) When NOT to Monetize (okay that one you can have for free – never!!)

4) Understanding Where Money Really Comes From – and aligning yourself TO the frequency of wealth, such that you can literally NOT.BE.IMPACTED by anything that 99.99% of people think will cost them business

5) Money Vibration Principles Revealed (… my own personal philosophies and things that I live by / instil into my being around this, including my own daily practices)

6) Coding For Success

* How to ALWAYS have an endless stream of ideas

* AUTOMATIC continual unleashment of creativity and imagination, especially in so-called times of struggle

* Seeing past problems and accessing higher self in order to always know the answer, and how to move forward

7) Programming to Upgrade – the beliefs, energetic states and emotional patterns you require in order to be this person, have all this work for you, ALWAYS see and have the ability to act on the shit that will most pay off

The ‘Do What You Want All Day’ Bit:

* Exactly how my typical day flows and how I operate for maximum efficiency of time, energy, mental acuity, soul connectedness, etc

* Getting it all done as a busy entrepreneur (and single Mum, in my case) who also refuses to operate at anything less than EXCELLENT in terms of self-care, fitness, fun, playtime, etc

* Exactly what I do all day, broken down to the detail, to helm this becoming-8-figure-empire

* Exactly what I do NOT do all day, either it just gets ignored (hint: a LOT that most online marketers think matters!), or I let other people do it for me

* Calling in soulmate support, even long before you are ready to afford it

* Optimizing energy, focus, personal power, happiness, general flow. Aka mindset and also brain / nutrition hacks and so on


AND, while we’re at it, we will also be talking INSTANT MANIFESTATION. The exact process I use to bring the future into the NOW, by clearing all blocks existing between its reality in the quantum and its physical manifestation in the now!!



I’ll be doing this ‘Rapid-Fire’ Session at the end!!

1) What it really means to be magnetic online – hint: it’s not about having a pretty and polished website or online presence!

2) Bringing the ‘in private / behind the scenes’ version of you to the public

3) Unapologetic messaging and soul baring to call in your true #soultribe

4) Audience quality vs quality, and active elimination of those who don’t ‘HELL yes’ on your content

5) People don’t buy your products, they buy you. No – people don’t buy you, they buy your energy!! What that means and how to let it out

6) Being real about where you need to take care of YOU in order to be able to show up and shine fully

7) Keeping a laser-focus and tunnel-vision on your own path, and having the courage to pave the way that feels right for you even if it’s not been done before

8) Discernment to walk the line between being polarising and positively outrageous as opposed to just a hot mess 🙂 Scaling and magnetizing FROM the chaos of creativity and following the true artists way!

9) Knowing which ideas to work, what will sell, and how best to sell it so that the entire launch and selling experience is fun AND rewarding for both your audience and you

10) Creating hell yes offers that make them scream yes!

I know!

This workshop is off the HOOK already, and we haven’t even accounted for all the random shiz which will be coming out of me!!


Don’t forget the bonuses >>>> !!!

> KILLER bonus content on Top 11 Most Effective & Proven ‘When They Zig You Zag’ Sales Secrets

> Live support from meeeeee in the group afterwards for anything extra you want and need to know!

> Free Bonus Entire COURSE for Everyone! My $197 Alignment & Asskickery Toolkit, a 14-Day Smackdown to Bring You Back to YOU, and Into Massive Aligned and Result Based Action! Yes, that’s an entire $197 course and you’re paying less than half of that for this entire workshop!

> All content yours to keep for life!

What are you waiting for? You KNOW that if you apply even ONE tip of the approximately gajillion I’m sharing here you’re going to 100x your investment back! Which is why I am even EXTRA excited to be able to give this to you at such a low price, as per the commandment of my soul!! Plus it’s fun 🙂

Okay then! See you IN there baby!


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  1. Christina says:

    Love this post – and can’t wait to read more! But must be blind because can’t find like button – but I like like like like!!

    1. Kat says:

      Thank you for the comment! It’s at the top 🙂

  2. I just started my dream job 12 days ago!!! I created a blog which outlines my new journey about Fitness Food And Style! Dreams do come true as I have always wanted to work closely with people (yes I feel close to all my cyber friends) and be a coach! So I hope to inspire and motivate people that even with 4 kids under 6 years you can keep fit, prepare gorgeous looking nutritional meals, look and feel great all at the same time! I hope you can share my post with your readers and come past when you can xxDani


    1. Kat says:

      Congratulations on your blog Dani! That’s awesome, great to hear you are following your dream 🙂

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