Purpose

RELAX INTO YOUR NEXT LEVEL OF RECEIVING

I met somebody who has such a deep level of appreciation and honouring of and wanting to give to me for just being me that I noticed it actually unsettling me a little bit.

I dug into that this morning, and noticed some pretty hefty parallels between this and (of course!) various business lessons and learnings, most of which I already know since long ago, indeed it’s how I BUILT this thing –

And all of which I still of course get to learn again, and deeper, prompting me to ask myself in my journal just now and to now ask you –

Have you made a soul contract with blood and sweat and tears?

Do you feel like you can’t trust something if you didn’t get there through grind, and only-push hustle, and paying a price, and PROVING your worth through expending your energy, your soul, and bits of your life?

Does it seem as though you can’t possibly trust in RECEIVING if it didn’t come through massive exertion and action, and ‘earning’ it in the sense of your physical doings?

Do you think that maybe all of this is just a teeny bit of bullshit, when you really stop, and pause, step away from your fear mindset and ask ‘but what does my SOUL really believe here?’.

I met somebody – literally just met, so don’t go expecting a story from me on this haha, just stay calm – who has such a deep level of appreciation and honouring of and wanting to give to me for just being me that I noticed it actually unsettling me a little bit.

The level of what I am RECEIVING without having DONE anything (except for be me) feels … well, fucking amazing, frankly, but also –

A bit scary.
A bit curious.
A bit DISRUPTIVE.

And I found myself questioning this person last night, just slightly. I went out of my feminine and into some kind of semi high-court lawyer status as I demanded (lol okay I didn’t demand; I asked) to know what this was all really about and WHY.

Why should I be receiving SO much when I’ve done nothing?

What’s that about?

What does it mean?!

It only took me a minute or so though, to consciously see what I was doing, and put the stop sign up in my mind as I said to myself –

“It is safe to trust in this”.

It is safe to receive.
It is safe to be taken care of.
It is safe to open myself up and ONLY be.

I exhaled, dropped back into my feminine, and let go.

This morning when I woke up though, I got curious about why this was coming up in me.

Okay, I know why it’s coming up! I made soul contracts with romance in the past that said it HURTS me, it COSTS me, it in fact ATTACKS me and tears off pieces of me.

The idea of relaxing –
Letting go –
Being HELD –

Is the thing I have wanted most but also the thing I have most felt wary of.

And my fear mind asks –

“If I didn’t do anything to earn it, how can it be real?”

“How can I trust it if it didn’t come through blood and sweat and tears … maybe especially, based on previous experience, the tears?!”

Interesting and obvious side note:

Do you really WANT something which came through tears? Is that what success in business or life is supposed to be built on? Hmmm? Hmmm!

Anyway –

I answered my fear mind (which of course is not my SELF, although I acknowledge I may have allowed myself to imagine it to be) thus –

“But Kat. What if you were worthy just for BEING?

What if there was literally nothing else you had to do?

What if in fact the more you that you ONLY be, the more you open up receiving because actually anything you add to it stops you being?!”

Hmmm?
Hmmm!

What’s hilarious here, so funny, so duh, of COURSE, is that THIS IS PRECISELY WHAT I TELL YOU IN BUSINESS.

The more you just be and ONLY be –

The more it all works.

I make millions of dollars per year based on my BEING!

Anytime I slip into DOING, cashflow goes down and gets harder!

100% of my clients who have gone beyond 50k months, 100k even 200k months will attest that that came from letting go and doing LESS. It came from BEING.

And yet still I forget that at times, I fall back into the old ways, or perhaps I go into doubt at ‘how can this really be real, how can I trust it, fuck, I better go GET MY BUSY ON!’

And I asked myself, thinking about romance and about next NEXT level business at the same time –

What would happen if I allowed myself to just be?

Well –

I would relax.
I would let go.
I would stop holding on so tightly.

WILL that allow more magic to just flow?

Well, what do you think?!

Of.
Fucking.
Course.

More magic will flow and I will be more of you!

So (I continued) –

What does that mean as far as how I’ve been blocking receiving?

– Reminder: EVERYTIME I try to DO in order to receive I take myself out of alignment.

EVERYTIME.

Therefore –

In business
In love
In life

The ONLY thing I have to do is BE.

The more I relax into BEING –

Feed my own soul in order to FLOWER more, basically!

– the more my ME-ness is a gift to the people I am here to give to!

Meaning –

My #1 job is to take care of my own soul needs so I can flourish and flower!

^^^ this is hardly new information.

I literally have my own handwriting tattooed onto my ribcage saying ‘When I say yes to soul, life says yes to me’.

I preach on this all the time!

And yet –

I had not acknowledge it relevant to romance.

So much so that when I started to receive just for being I questioned it! Only for a moment, but still.

And I now see how much deeper I get to go with this in business as well.

How the old patterns have crept up, where parts of me feel bad for not DOING more.

When in actual fact the more I do the more I ROB you of being able to receive what I came here to give you!

Because it blocks me from only BEING, and being fully in the depth of accessing and also allowing through my magic.

And here’s the rub –

If you know that the next level is ease and flow and of COURSE doing less –

Then why the fuck do you keep thinking you gotta do more?

The way to get anywhere is to go there.

Notice where you’re scared to let go, or trust, or accept that it could be this good.

And then decide to do it anyway.

It’s REALLY that fucking simple.

And faith?

Is always a choice.

How bout dis:

If you refuse to accept and trust your wave a magic wand dream life scenario when it shows up –

You’re pretty damn unlikely to actually get it.

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