Purpose

GET FUCKING HONEST, NOW

It’s time to be fucking honest with yourself, there is SO much you’ve been lying about.

No need to pretend –

I SEE YOU.

This yearning you have for MORE, by the way? For deeper fulfilment, satisfaction, a life that drips its blood down your chin and FILLS you with fierce wildness?

The yearning is the call, but it’s also the DOOR –

To leaving behind the madness of the world THEY say we are supposed to somehow fit into –

And to stepping into the one, and the ones, we create, where we not only HAVE everything we want and can dream of, but we ARE, completely, untamed, and free

SOARING through the air with a majestic power almost frightening to behold

But if THE YEARNING IS THE CALL, AND ALSO THE DOOR, THEN LET ME JUST ASK YOU ONE THING –

How the fuck do you imagine you’re gonna fit through there with all that junk you’re carrying around?

Trying so damn hard to make them LIKE you, to do the right thing, to look and walk and talk and even BREATHE the part, huh?!

You’re doing SUCH a good job at that –
I very nearly don’t recognise you as ONE of us
And if you keep on going, it’s fair to say you’re soon enough not going to recognise your SELF

Maybe you remember a time –

When you KNEW you had the entire damn universe at your fingertips

When you KNEW you were magic

When you didn’t QUESTION that ANYTHING coming through you was valid, real, ALLOWED, to live

And when you LIT UP THE HEAVENS WITH YOUR MAGNETISM, AND POWER

Maybe you remember

But WE don’t really remember it at all, it’s a nice story for you to look back on, but let’s get real here –

Nobody gives a fuck about who you used to be, what you were capable of, how you would leave us BREATHLESS with your charge

You are who you show yourself to be NOW

And THAT is what it is

Look in the mirror

GO AND LOOK, GOD DAMN IT

Get naked

Square your shoulders

Don’t HIDE

Look yourself RIGHT in the eye, and tell me –

Are you HAPPY, with what you’ve become?

Does this LIGHT YOU UP?

Do you feel VIBRANT and BRIMMING with life, with awakeness, with truth, and with a fire which burns so damn deep inside of you that you not only couldn’t PUT it out, the reality is you know you ARE the damn fire itself?

YES, you feel all of this, you LIVE it, you ARE it, and we SEE it?

Or no
You feel like you kind of sort of should have been maybe used to be and could possibly be except for that you’ve no idea HOW anymore, and actually –

You want to cry

You want to scream

You want to RAGE at the terrible terrible injustice you have bestowed upon yourSELF, to have allowed yourself to become

so

bland

so pale

so lifeless

so well polished

so …

proper

careful

safe

and mostly

forgettable

IT
IS
E-
NOUGH!

It’s ENOUGH, do you hear me? We are not the ones who CAME here to do it like them, and yet here you are and I’ll be damned if you’re not doing SUCH a great job at fitting in that it’s gettin’ kind of hard to argue that it’s not on PURPOSE.

Are you from the WILD, from the FREE, from the RAW?

Or are you from a box
Joined together
Like a jigsaw puzzle
Perfectly functional
Perfectly nice
Perfectly safe
Perfectly predictable
Until a piece falls off
And we find that you were never real at all and actually the CRAZY ones just made you, and now –

Will cast you away
Forgettable
Because how can we remember?

Something that was never real?

Do you want to get ANGRY, do you want to lash OUT at me, because you KNOW it’s your truth that’s causing THAT to happen.

It will eat away at you
It will fester inside
And IT
WILL
KILL YOU
If you don’t let it out

Soon enough, if you don’t EXPLODE with it –

You’ll just be a shadow
Of a girl
We never even used to really know
And certainly not CARE about, because again, I ask you –

HOW COULD WE CARE ABOUT, OR REALLY, EVEN NOTICE, SOMETHING THAT’S NOT REAL?

It’s just how it is …

It’s time to get fucking honest

THIS IS NOT WHO YOU CAME HERE TO BE

You’re LETTING IT SLIP AWAY

Day by day, not only is the whole damn THING passing, but day by day your trust falls
Your confidence more shaky
You forget
That once upon a time
You didn’t just believe
You fucking KNEW you could do anything

BRING BACK THE KNOWING, THE FACT, THE UNQUESTIONABLE SOME-WOULD-SAY-ARROGANCE OF THE REAL YOU

Bring back the wild
Bring back the MAD
Bring back the UNTAMED
Bring back the SPIRIT of your God damn SOUL

And it STARTS
LIKE
THIS –

Just wake the fuck UP already, and be fucking honest

It’s the ONLY THING YOU NEED TO DO TO LET OUT ALL OF IT

Be HONEST about what you HATE, won’t STAND for, DESPISE
TELL people
YES SOME WILL LEAVE
Good.

Be honest about where you’re FLOATING, drifting, or doing shit to try and get an outcome instead of because you can’t not.

Be fucking honest that the God damn money doesn’t drive you ANYWAY, and it never DID, so why the HECK would you be making decisions, creating your LIFE, based on getting it?!

WAKE UP
WAKE UP
WAKE UP

The yearning is the CALL but it’s also the DOOR, and here is what else –

The door is fucking closing

You’re MISSING YOUR CHANCE

Drop EVERYTHING

And run

Like a woman POSSESSED

Leave EVERYTHING behind, care for NOTHING, you NEVER NEEDED IT ANYWAY, and now it’s threatening to BECOME you, so drop it, drop it, drop it, BURN it in your wake

And charge

Like you’ve got one fucking shot

And you actually know it

And you ACTUALLY don’t give a fuck about what they tell you, not just that you bullshit about it on the internet

AND DO THE DAMN JOB YOU WERE BROUGHT HERE TO DO

The job of being you