Purpose

IT’S GOING TO HURT IT’S GOING TO BE SCARY IT’LL TAKE YOUR BREATH AWAY AND FREEZE YOU, AND THEN? IT’LL FUCKING FREE YOU

When you say yes to the life you know you’re meant to live and can’t NOT, it’s going to first require you to walk the fuck away from the life?

Which no matter which way you twisted or turned it or tried SO damn hard was just not going to FIT.

And they?

Well they’ll tell you you’re wrong and they’ll tell you you’re a bad person and they’ll tell you you SHOULDN’T and they will yell and they will sneer and they will try to tear.

you.

down.

To shame you.

To make you QUESTION whether maybe you ARE fucked up, messed up, doing it wrong, and you’re DESTROYING YOUR LIFE AND OTHERS AS WELL.

And you, well here’s the thing, if you’re like the rest of them, like the normal people then you WILL give in.

You will cave.

You will question yourself.

You will IGNORE the TRUTH you know inside and have known for so long.

Your years and years and years of self-worth BULLSHIT will come rearing up to STOP you.

And you’ll go back.

Head down.

Shoulders turned inward.

Chest so fucking tight.

And the tears?

Just always nearly there, always about to explode out.

Pour out.

Flood out.

I KNOW, I did it for YEARS, fucking YEARS baby.

In multiple areas … sure.

But really … you know.

And you get so damn good at holding it back, holding it in, stuffing it down, telling yourself it’s not so bad and it’s okay and you’ll BE okay and actually you’re even HAPPY, no really!

And a lot of the time …

You NEARLY believe it, you believe it on a surface level at least, but your soul? Your soul fucking knows.

And it yearns.

For more.

So much more.

For love.

So much love.

For truth.

So much truth.

And you get better –

And better –

At pushing it down.

At locking it away.

At building a protective.

Fucking.

Armour.

To keep the world out?

No.

To keep you IN.

Safe.

Where you can’t be touched anymore.

And if you can’t be touched, if your heart isn’t open, if you lock away your soul and throw away the key then you can’t be HURT anymore, you can’t be BROKEN anymore, you can’t lie shaking on the floor anymore desperately wondering how it ended up like this and is this how life IS?

And you’ll become stronger.

Tougher.

Tough as fucking nails.

A warrior.

Of power.

A tower.

Of resilience.

An expert.

At showing up.

Shutting up.

And also?

Putting the fuck up.

And if you’re like ME, like US, one of those who are BORN TO WIN AND FLY you will learn to LEVERAGE it to your advantage and you’ll perhaps even build an entire fucking empire off the back of it … an empire you would have built anyway, for sure … but with so much hardness?

Maybe not.

And then one day …

Eventually …

Suddenly …

Or not at all becaused haven’t you always deep down KNOWN you would NOT allow your life to play out this way you will wake up and realise it’s time to walk

The FUCK

Away

But yet when you finally FINALLY fucking realise this, what you think you can do it just like that?! I hope so … I pray so … I emplore you to just DO so … but what most of us do is we try to cut through

A tree trunk

With a plastic knife

Because we’re still SO fucking scared

Of what might happen

Of what will be said

Of whether we even know our own MIND

Maybe we ARE fucking crazy!

So we cry. And we torment. And we relentlessly still YEARN. And we are FROZEN. And we don’t know what to do or how to do it or whether it will ALL BE OKAY and please TELL me it will all be okay.

And if this is you I want to tell you I need to tell you I have to tell you O.

M.

G.

You do NOT realise the life you could be living.

FREEDOM is out there.

It’s NOT supposed to fucking BE like that! And you KNOW this! And it’s time to ACTUALLY start fucking knowing and LIVING it!

And when you do, when, you walk away when you finally get brave enough to breathe, in however much shallow tight fear still at first, but then you will do you will wake up one day and wonder how the FUCK

There was ever even a QUESTION

How the FUCK

You managed to convince yourself for so long

How the FUCK

You listened to SO much freaking bullshit from your scared sad soul

And also –

By the way –

How the FUCK you still managed to pull off everything you did!

And you’ll also realise just how MUCH

You’re going to be able to unleash release live be and also?

Finally

Fucking

BREATHE

Oh my GOD baby do you KNOW what it’s going to feel like to be able to breathe?

So I want to tell you.

If you’re frozen.

And you’re scared.

And you see the light but you question if it’s real, at all, or certainly for you.

And you’re actually TERRIFIED.

And you don’t know what to do or how to start but you just know you MUST.

I want to tell you.

What you feel inside is REAL.

Walk into the fucking LIGHT baby.

It was ALWAYS THERE WAITING FOR YOU and when you finally do you’re going to wonder why the fuck

You waited so long.

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