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I Can't Handle
Success Mindset

I Can’t Handle

32016126_mI can’t handle the way my husband doesn’t get how important my writing is. Finally, it’s my time to work, time for me to sit with my coffee and my thoughts and to create.

“I’ll just have a quick coffee with you!”, he says.

My reaction is one of pure and unfettered horror. Go AWAY! I want to scream. I don’t, but my body language shows it, and he is angry, and hurt, and in fact furious at how RUDE I am, what a bitch I am, it’s just 5 minutes!

Except it’s not.

Not 5 ‘time’ minutes (it never is) but also not 5 minutes of impact.

He’ll never get it, that I need to be left alone, that ‘one little thing’ is one HUGE mother-fucking thing that ruins my entire creative flow. Yes. I am a diva. I need things the WAY I NEED THEM, if I am to create as I want to. I realise it’s a choice, but it’s a choice I stand by and also fully believe necessary.

He thinks I’ll never get it, of course.

And so we move on anyway, and try to remember for next time, but because we are both so sure we’re right; it’s the same thing again the next time. Why won’t he leave me alone to WORK?!

I can’t handle the way the writing demon torments me every. single. day. Even if I just conquered it the day before, if I pushed up the toughest of tough hills, if I faced resistance in the eye and WON, it’s back again the next day, just as evil and awful and difficult to deal with as ever.

The same freaking battle to fight, day after day.

Do the work, or don’t.

I can’t handle the NEVER-ENDINGNESS of it all! And yet I do, day after day, back I go for more; almost as though I love the whole thing!

I can’t handle the uncertainty.

Are my ideas any good?

Will my product sell?

Is anyone even listening?

Will this blog get any comments or likes or shares, or will it be another 20 minutes of my life spent, for nothing, imagining I’m a writer.

I want to know exactly what I need to do and exactly how to do it and I want to know exactly how it’s going to work! I can’t handle anything less!

But yet I do.

Because I have no choice.

And so every day, again, I choose uncertainty, and action in spite of it.

I can’t handle the ups and downs of it all! A good month might be followed by a better one, a better one still, and then a plummet and bam! The pressure’s on; the hustle is on, the game is back on and once again I’m running scared, and I don’t even know why!

I just want things to be stable; I can’t handle all of this all over the place stuff with money and with time and with what’s working!

But yet I do.

Because that’s the way it is.

I can’t handle the fickleness of the world out there. I’m loved, I’m hated, I’m nothing, I’m nobody, I’m famous! Maybe it’s not quite so dramatic, but as surely as you’ll have people who love you there’ll be others who despite you, and mince no words in letting you know.

I can’t handle it, it’s awful, it’s too much!

But I handle it anyway, and I move on my way.

I can’t handle the WAITING. When will I reach my dreams? When will I get to do exactly what I WANT to do? When is it all going to just. work. out?!

I need to know! I thought I’d be there from by now! Sometimes I think I am there, and then suddenly, once more, I’m not.

I can’t handle it, it’s EXHAUSTING!

But yet here I am, still here, still putting one foot in front of the other, still believing in that one day dream that’s always slightly out of reach and always will be, by pure virtue of the fact that as soon as you get there, you already set a new dream; a new goal, and your gaze is forward, ever forward.

I can’t handle any of it, really, if I’m honest. Why do I have to push so hard? Why does it never end? Why can’t it just work?! Why on earth do I keep going, when it’s so much to bear?

The answer, of course, is simple:

Because as much as I can’t handle all of this and it times sucks the very soul out of me it’s also my greatest joy and fulfilment. And what I really couldn’t handle, and also wouldn’t?

Is to choose a life dictated by what I can’t handle.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

PS

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I so deeply believe and know that women (and men!) like us – we just CAN’T do it in the normal way. We’re never going to fit in the Internet Marketer box. We don’t want to fit in the box! And even if we could fit in the damn box we’d blow that shit up! It’d be messy AF … and often IS.

It’s just not going to get us the results we want, because for those who are so soul-led, like you, like me, and have that whole crrrrrraazzzzzy creator thang going on (with a hefty dose of chaos!)

We gotta do it a different way.

BUT.

Being that person, the crazy creator soul-led one, can all too commonly result in work, yep, the actual ASSKICKIN’ work that needs to be done for YOUR empire to be created to, well –

Not get done.

The crazy ones have a tendency, from time to time, to get so caught up in ‘I gotta FEEL it’, that they don’t necessarily ground, plant, DECIDE, and make shit happen.

You may have noticed 😉

Maybe because there’s fear there of having to conform! And knowing from experience or just ’cause you KNOW, that you’re not going to, you won’t follow their rules, and so why even try.

Yet at the same time you know:

I have to lay myself on the line.

It’s time to back myself, but FULLY.

I gotta dig my damn heels in and DO the darn thing now!

This? This is what Rich Hot Empire, and the work I do with you as a private client in this 6 week time together, is all about. It’s a time to really get into the structure and strategy in a DIFFERENT kind of way. To go behind the scenes of how I’ve done it, to build a multiple 7-fig per year biz which breaks all the rules, lets me be me, and yet is also highly structured … without at all feeling that way!

It’s a pretty cool thing, to realise you figured out how to unleash ALL your madness, but fully, and NEVER compromise on what feels fuck yes and fly for you, and yet know you got your biz shiz sorted!

Guess what??

You get to have that too.

In Rich Hot Empire I take you fully behind the scenes of how I do this thing, and I help you to craft and also implement and FULLY action all the ins and outs YOU need to grow your soulmate tribe, and activate low right through to high end income streams, so you too can create the empire you dream of, FULLY ON YOUR TERMS.

You do this in a mastermind with my other private 1:1 clients, and you get to keep all content, all BTS of my biz, all templates, ‘how we dos’ (all based on being the crazy creator type), you name it, it’s all right there for you for life, showing you exactly what to set up, and how! I’ll give you a detailed rundown of that 6 weeks when you message me.

AND! Alongside the mastermind you’re simultaneously doing 6 weeks 1:1 with me. All in. You and me. Completely tailored. Daily conversation flow. Alignment and asskickery to infinity, baby.

We dig ALL the way in to your belief stuff, mindset stuff, energetic alignment and ability to receive, everything INTERNAL that is stopping you from already being where you know you should and could, and what to do about it.

Rich Hot Empire gets such incredible results for people because it marries these two areas together. Full alignment to that next level identity you KNOW is waiting for you –

And full asskickery to do what you know you gotta do, with me right there by your side showing you how to do that, how to find the exact way that feels good and works for YOU.

Ready to dig those damn heels in sister, but for real this time??

Message me for the full overview. Do it now. You don’t need another fucking person who will NEVER think like you telling you how to do shit you’d rather fork your own eyeballs than do. Even if it’s your own fear mind haha. You need someone who has done it for real from crazy. From madness. From flow. From SOUL. And can show you how to go all in on yours.

It’s motherfreakin’ time.