YOUR DESPERATE LONGING IS NOT BAD

I want you to know that your at times desperate desire, obsession which you can’t seem to shake, fixation which consumes you, LONGING for things to change already NOW …

it’s not a bad thing.

Contrary to what those oh-so-woke constructs of how to receive might tell you …

DESPERATE LONGING IS NOT BAD.

The desires of your heart have been given to you for a reason. Spoiler: the reason is – because they’re your dreams to dream, and available for you NOW!)

And a DESPERATE desire, one which is always there, always beating a drum inside of you, never NOT present, yes even in your moments of MOST carried away flow it’s still right.there.with.you –

maybe,
just maybe,
the level of energy, intent, and unadulterated yearning, you are feeding it with,
is the thing which ends up being the reason it came to life.

I’m not talking about being DISTRACTED away from where your focus should be right now. I’m not talking about being consumed by something such that it drives you repeatedly OFF path, and you find yourself day in and day out not giving your days for what they were given to you for.

I’m talking about you,
PURPOSEFULLY living the day you should be living each day,
taking the ‘one next right step’ action you are shown,
choosing your outcomes from HIGHEST truth,
surrendering on repeat,
ATTENDING to what you should be attending to,

and yet all the while –

Obsessively playing this thing over in your mind.

I want it. It’s mine. God send it. Show me. Tell me. Now!

ALL THE WHILE HANDING IT OVER ON REPEAT, AND KNOWING IT WILL COME WHEN IT’S TIME.

But make no mistake –
SURRENDER,
is not a passive game.
TRUST,
is not without longing.
ASKING,
is not meant to be mediocre, and “only if you feel like it God!”

When I was at the lowest of the low with money,
OH so far from being able to even consistently afford the groceries I wanted,
I LONGED. I YEARNED. I had a DESPERATE desire to break through. I knew I was born to make millions. I knew that the money was a reflection of who I am meant to BE, and the work I am meant to put out into the world!

I DESPERATELY and RELENTLESSLY focused on it. Did the inner work. Took ALL the actions I was shown to take. And meanwhile just lived my damn life, ever choosing, ever DEMANDING, ever aligning, ever handing it over.

The story I now tell is – I broke through beyond my wildest imaginings because I did.not.deviate. from focus. I was fixated. NOT to the detriment of what I was meant to be doing, or who I was meant to be being.

Don’t get it wrong. These things do not go hand in hand.
My fixation was a focus given by God. By soul. By truth.
I leant into it.
And then I did the fucking work I was shown to do.

When is it time for you to stop apologising for the DESPERATE energy around today?

And what is it time to unapologetically own?

YOUR DESPERATE DESIRE IS NEEDED.
You’re passionate ask is REQUIRED.
Your refusal to back down is a MUST.

Now GO GET YOUR LIFE.