QUITTING THE ‘MAYBE GOD MEANS I SHOULD’ LIFE.

This is the life I choose.

This is the life I choose.

This is the life I choose.

I choose the you-led life Lord, the only you life Lord, the life in which my will and way lay down on repeat before you Lord.

I choose the life in which I say on repeat,

your will be done,
your Kingdom come,
in my mind,
my heart,
my business,
my household,
my relationships,
my finances,
my LIFE.

Your way your way your way YAHWEH.

This is the life I choose.

The life in which I see possibility,

lights shining brightly,

all of the very many things I could do,

all of the very many things I could argue perhaps even are of you,

and I say no.

And no.

And no.

And instead I say I will wait.

And wait.

And wait.

Upon you Lord.

In the place where You have given me a promise and a call and yet I see NOTHING at all still,

I will wait.

In the place where my mind conjures ideas, possibility, and a sudden soul-fired spark of ‘ooh! maybe God meant – !’

And then I make plans and plans and oh my – ! Such plans.

I will pause.

I will repent.

I will surrender anew.

Give it all once more to you.

And say have your WAY Lord.

Let my ideas and wants and ALL of me fall to the ground,

if it’s not OF thee.

And let me wait for that certain,

certain,

knowing.

The knowing I have in hope in you which is ASSURED,

that your promises your word and your work finished IN me,

will come to pass.

In your timing.

SUDDENLY –

you will do it.

And so here I am once more Lord.

Laying it all down once more Lord.

Saying once more Lord it’s not just that I don’t want anything other than YOUR will and way,

it’s also inherently IN that that I don’t want these things brought to fruition any WAY other than your way.

Let me be clear when I say, and let my words hit their target with life IN them,

I don’t want the ‘maybe God meant I should’ outcome of my own strength or will or desire.

I don’t want to take what you’ve shown me, get frustrated or impatient or restless or concerned even that I am not doing enough in the pregnancy of what you’ve given me coming to life,

and then decide to make it happen.

“Maybe God meant I should – !”

I throw those words to the ground in Jesus Name right now.

I come against them having any dominion or way in my life.

I say LET WHAT IS NOT OF YOU IN ME BE EXPOSED LORD.

And let it burn NOW,

as the death it is.

And I say with FULL certainty in my spirit,

BLESS THE LORD OH MY SOUL

AND ALL THAT IS WITHIN ME BLESS HIS HOLY NAME

FLESH,

BE QUIET.

I come into agreement with YOUR plans for me Lord,

and yours alone.

So yes I will wait again Lord.

Be patient again Lord.

Surrender it all again Lord.

Be in the not knowing again Lord.

Give you it ALL again Lord.

Step forward on water again Lord.

Refuse to look DOWN again Lord.

Keep my eyes fixed on YOU again Lord.

Because I know I have my ALL in you Lord.

And because of this,

and because YOU finish what you started in me Lord,

I will feel your peace again Lord.

And I thank you that I do.

The peace which surpasses all understanding and which is inexplicably,

always,

there,

in the place where I once again let go of all that makes sense or should be made to make sense or could be made to make a very many many cents!

Because I’m in you.

Because here is what I know Lord.

In the not knowing.

And the waiting.

And the wanting.

And the eventual stillness of my soul as it finally once again realises NOT TODAY SATAN.

I know that you are good.

I know your word still applies and is still alive to this day, even IN me.

And most of all I know that there is not a thing brought to fruition by my own volition which I desire more than I desire you.

SO BLESS THE LORD OH MY SOUL.

And all that is in me bless His Holy Name.

Lord Take what needs taking.
Break what needs breaking.
Shake what CAN be shaken.
And wake within me,
your fresh Spirit of revelation today

As I DECREE once more over my life

none of me and all of you Lord

Your way
Your way
Your way

In the Name of YAHWEH

Amen

Now don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat

PS.

Sometimes I don’t know what to say or write or speak or sell or even how to be.

Sometimes I wonder if there is to be ANYTHING left of me.

ALWAYS I find once more,

it’s Him IN me which I want,

and only Him.

Right now I am in the waiting,

I feel a stirring,

God is bringing me

something new

(I sense it may be a lot …)

I am in a season of completion

The old is being closed

The new not yet seen

Yet I feel it

In a literal physical sense I am about to hand over my dear and much loved and much invested into of me AND finances warehouse

Praise God I gave it to Him because ALL that I am is in and through and to and of Him

I anointed it

Blessed it to whoever it’s for

(not knowing if that is me!)

And said “it’s your warehouse Lord, do what you will with it. It’s a Kingdom warehouse!”

Some months passed, and it did not sell. (I listed it in April).

And so I decided –

MAYBE GOD MEANT – !

I got excited
Made plans
Saw new visions
Oh the places we could go!
The events, the masterminds, the THINGS

MAYBE GOD MEANT IT’S NOT MEANT TO SELL!

I told my agent – I’ve decided not to sell it. I don’t want to look back in 6 months and realise I just let it go when I don’t ‘have’ to.

It sold the next day.

The same morning I said that to my agent God brought me a knowing –

the buyer is coming.

It will sell this week.

I was CERTAIN,

I would not sell.

I did not have to!

And now that I had given it to God, he had *obviously* made it clear by it not selling for months, that I should keep it!

Clearly He wanted me to > insert lots of plans <

But God.

I found out AFTER I knew this is the buyer and that I would sell it to Him that he is/ they are Christian.

IT’S A KINGDOM WAREHOUSE AND I RELEASED IT MONTHS AGO TO THE LORD.

This is not about a property sale for me.

You understand.

This is a walking out of a thing that Kat built.

Some months ago I was praying in the warehouse, right after I listed it for sale, I was blessing it to the Lord and whoever it is for, anointing and praying, and God said, as I looked at my beautiful two storey high graffiti wall and mural, covered in Kingdom things –

“These walls contain you.

Where I am taking you there will be no containment”.

And then He said –

(and this bit was for all of us)

– “you build yourself pretty little prisons,

and then you are stuck in them”.

This was very very clear.

And very very WOAH.

And yet,

months passed and it did not sell and so I decided –

“maybe God meant!”

Listen to me –

it’s not a bad thing to make plans
have desires
or even think
“maybe God meant”

The PROBLEM
is if we do not IN that surrender our all to Him

I am grateful that through all of it He led me repeatedly to say BUT YOUR WAY GOD.

In the midst of plans and visions anew – all of which it now seems are for their own separate purposes, and not at all about that space –

I kept giving it to God.

YOU do what you want.

YOUR WAY YOUR WAY YOUR WAY YAHWEH

I don’t know what else I would ever want to do …

My flesh may want what it wants

But Lord I ONLY WANT AND CHOOSE YOU

It is not your job to decipher what is going to happen or should or could

It is just your job to repeatedly give all that you are and will be to Him

HE will reveal which things were of you
or are

HOW GOOD IS GOD?!

Stay surrendered
Stay waiting
Stay repenting
Stay BELIEVING

His plans are better
His ways are higher

I tried to contain myself back in a prison I built, and forgot He had even said that! Actually I just pushed it down a bit, “maybe He changed His mind!”.

Through His love and mercy He brought me through ANYWAY!

This is not about a warehouse.

And it’s not about whatever the ‘thing’ is for you.

It’s about are you willing to trust again

Believe again

Give it ALL again

And wait to SEE again

What is only of HIM again

Knowing it’s better than you

This is my call to action for you today.

I don’t know the next thing yet!

I have an idea, but it could be a Kat idea and so even though it’s ready to share with you,

I will wait.

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