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Purpose

FOLLOW THE YEARN

I was thinking, this morning, it’s a thing I like to do from time to time, of what it is I REALLY want to do.
It wasn’t changed in years, actually, and perhaps not ever.
I used to tell mentors (many of whom at the time helpfully guided me in the end DEEPER to soul by telling me my desires were not gonna work, didn’t make sense, were not ‘enough’), that ALL I wanted to do?
Was write, and speak, and inspire and educate and motivate and empower people to live according to their values, know their dreams were real, press play, and be who they came here to be! Specifically? Badass 1% within the 1% within the 1% types.
I must have written this sort of sentence, or earlier or later versions of it, hundreds of times. Nearly daily I would write it out in my journal.
It felt like a yearning.
A longing.
A NEED.
A pull.
An ‘if I don’t do this I will DIE’ sort of thing, although I didn’t allow myself to acknowledge its import at the time.
I didn’t realise that what FELT like EVERYTHING to me, was in fact –
Everything.
And enough.
I believed the bullshit! That what was coming through me wasn’t tangible enough, result-based enough, fascinating enough, stand out-ish enough, JUST enough.
You know?
And so I spent years trying to look for exactly what I needed to add, improve on, figure out, in order to BE enough to present myself and my wares to the world.
Have you ever felt that way?
If not, then get TF outta here you weird ass robot person. Or, stand up and teach. Haha.
Anyway, I DEFINITELY felt this way. And, I bought in to anybody else VALIDATING me feeling that way. Which is to say, I effectively called people in to reflect my own insecurities back to me.
It’s a fabulous way of eventually getting to breaking point, losing your shit, tearing shit UP, and then going all in on BEING YOU NO MATTER WHAT.
I recommend it highly. 5 star! Haha.
And so yes, eventually though, I did.
I let go of EVERYTHING I thought I needed to add, or figure out, or ‘make better’, or fancy up, and I just.started.doing.me.
Writing.
Speaking.
Letting out what was in me, no matter how rambly or nonsensical or inappropriate it was.
And, bit by bit, but NOT because I worked TOWARDS, rather, because I threw my hands up and said ‘fuck it’, and just started to let what was in me out, educating, empowering, bringing back to soul, and all-round kickin’ the ass of the 1% within the 1% within the 1%.
The way it was always meant to be.
The thing is,
It didn’t happen as a result of me working towards it happening.
It didn’t happen because I made a plan, had the plan approved by anybody or even my own self, and then followed the plan.
It didn’t happen because I rolled out a strategy.
It didn’t happen because I followed how tos on sales and marketing, even ones I more aligned with.
All of THAT stuff happened as a SIDE effect, in the end, of me.just.being.me.
NO OUTCOME IN MIND.
Except for the outcome of FINALLY knowing, that when I would lay my head down that night, I would be able to hand on my heart say I DID THE JOB OF BEING ME.
Do you feel that way?
Honestly, now.
Do you hand on your heart KNOW, when you go to bed at night, that you did what you came here to do, let what was in you out, did your soul work, your art, or simply your random and often seemingly stark raving mad messiness of being YOU,
regardless of whether or not it ‘got’ you anything?
Just a little.”
Hmm?
Which is it.
There’s no in between here. It’s black or white, yes or no, Christian or non-Christian, pregnant or not. Certain things are EITHER OR and you can’t sorta maybe kinda it.
So quit trying.
The thing you’ll have to understand, if you’re going to get to LIVE like this though, this version of you who is being who they were brought to this world to be, is you HAVE to hand over your outcomes.
Be willing to do it, as I taught a few days ago in one of my courses, for the love of NOTHING.
What would you do if it were all for … nothing?!
If it were just because you can’t NOT.
I’ll be willing to wager you’d need to right now delete delete delete most EVERYTHING, or at the very least the WAY you are doing certain things, as even the most aligned and dropped in and OH so spiritually wise amongst us do tend to err on the side of being human AF now and again, and there is nothing wrong with THAT,
but there’s certainly some discernment to be had, and always, a deeper remembrance of YOU to drop in to.
The work will never be done, and thank fuck for that! So stop trying to complete it!
And while you’re at it, stop trying to make your art, your purpose work, your SOUL, the blood pumping in your veins, the very beat of your HEART,
dance like a shiny pretty monkey puppet on strings.
A penny here, a penny there, PRODUCE for me!
No no.
That’s not why we do what we do.
When we do what we do.
But here is what else –
You ABSOFUCKINGLUTELY can build your business, and indeed your life, such that you get to receive and allow through the OUTCOMES you want,
money, acclaim, recognition, being of service, impact, a hot ass and the everything else of your dreams while you’re at it – !
It’s not either / or on THIS.
And there’s no profundity in choosing to not have.
Choose it, don’t choose it, whatever. It IS whatever though.
Know that.
As obviously everything your soul ACTUALLY craves, needs, breathes for, comes from in and through you. The End.
If you ARE gonna choose it though, then understand that it is simply that. A CHOICE. It’s not ‘make my soul work perform for me’. Make it pay me. Etc. It is CHOOSE the outcome of BEING (highly) paid, plus whatever else you want to choose.
Tether that in. Decide it. Order placed!
And then GET BACK TO THE TASK AT HAND, WHATEVER THAT MAY BE.
For me?
Write the things, say the things, unleash the things.
However they come out!
And bit by bit, along that journey, notice where I like to direct those things. A course here, a class there, a certification perhaps over yonder.
I can form whatever I like with this clay, and then I can smash it down and form the next thing. It doesn’t matter.
What does matter is that I continue to produce the clay in the first place.
And then?
Do whatever TF I feel with it day by day. Knowing and
TRUSTING that my every need and also my every choice will, if it’s God will which it certainly often seems to be, show up for me, money + fancy things + fun and fine life + love + all of it, as a FOLLOW on to this. And, because I asked, expected, surrendered, yes all of that.
But may God Himself strike me down if I sit down and attempt to fill a mold in order to fill a mold and produce a particular type of structure or piece, when that’s not where my clay wanted to go that day.
And may I once again receive the comeuppance of realising that the things I longed for when I wasn’t being me will again dance away from me when I forget to JUST be.
Do you get it?

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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