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Purpose

IGNORING THE ABSENCE OF DESIRE

Before I understood about life, or after I understood about some parts of life but not yet others, or when I was right in the mofo vortex of LEARNING about life, or maybe it was a million years ago, but probably just yesterday,

something happened.

I gave up parts of me, not quite the core of me, but still a decent chunk of me, to someone who was never going to be my person,

Not in a million years,

Not even if I squeezed my eyes ever so tight and ignored EVERY OBVIOUS AS FUCK REASON why this was literally the biggest mis-match in the history of time, but yet also (and such is life, no?) so perfect in so many ways and indeed, no matter which way I want to play or twist it, exactly and precisely and only what I had called in.

It’s funny. Don’t you think? How obvious these things are in retrospect. And we wonder –

How on EARTH did I not see that? Why did I overLOOK that? What crazy part of my tiny little (in that moment!) mind thought it was an intelligent freakin’ life choice to pretend that THAT could be okay, or, more relevantly, aligned, for me.

With perhaps the biggest thing of all, the smack you in the face and make you wanna roll your eyes thing of all, being the total.fucking.abscence of desire.

Oh, sure, there was DESIRE –

Desire to be seen.
Desire for connection.
Desire for energetic exchange.
Desire for something deeper, powerful, fuck yes, more?

OF COURSE.

Desire for that particular person, for their soul, for who they are in how they show up right now as a human, desire for nothing in particular, really, because actually desire is never about having a particular characteristic in place, or no, it’s ONLY something that either IS, or no, and baby –

It was not.

Not even once, not even a little bit!

And yet, there I went, back in that moment a hundred thousand years back or perhaps it was just last week, I don’t know, it doesn’t matter, you get the point of the story –

Digging myself ever further into a connection that I thought maybe could, or should, unfold to SOMETHING, because, well, because, well –

>>> Insert blank space, hashtag eye roll, hashtag interesting life choice, hashtag fear mind <<<

And it reminds me, you know? It reminds me so much of earlier times in my business.

Where absolutely no fucking part of me wanted to do it THAT way. Not a single little BIT of it spoke to me about doing it that way. Literally nothing in my heart leaped for joy, no cell in my body was expanded, not a single full body fuck yes was experienced, and precisely NIL angels came down from heaven to sing and signal that this was the way, and yet I TRIED TO DO IT ANYWAY.

Because because because, well –

Because people I respected or thought I should said so.
Because everybody else was doing it that way! (hashtag coronavirus hashtag toilet paper hashtag fear mind hashtag sheep)
Because it seems liked something I thought could, or should, unfold to SOMETHING, because, well, because, well –

>>> INSERT BLANK SPACE <<<

Because nobody ever told me yet that I could unapologetically back myself, go all the way the fuck in on being me, do ONLY my purpose work, and do it from soul, my way, and SCREW the motherfucking system!

Nobody told me?

I didn’t yet realise this was something I had to tell myself 

As a result of this, I spent several years trying to follow the system of being a good little marketer, good little sales person online, good little brand buildin’ stepfordpreneur, and slowly slowly my soul started to wither,

And die,

And meanwhile – ! I absolutely was NOT attracting only soulmate clients, I absolutely was NOT doing only the work I was called to do, in only the way that felt right for me, and I absolutely was NOT letting all of who I really am be seen!

As a result of THAT, I absolutely was not creating the business,

The life,

Or the me,

That I came here for.

Look, I don’t regret a second of it! I learned what I needed to learn, and eventually what I learned was this:

I GET TO BE ALL OF ME, PERIOD, THE END, AND NOT ONLY IS THAT ALLOWED AND OKAY, BUT IT IS EXACTLY WHAT DRAWS MY IDEAL PEEPS TO ME AND RESULTS IN THAT I’VE NOW BUILT AN 8-FIGURE+ BUSINESS, ON MY TERMS, WHERE EVERY DAY I GET TO JUST WAKE UP AND DO MY SOUL WORK AND PLAY AND DANCE AND TWIRL WITH GOD AND LIFE.

Or, y’know – something like that 

So yeah, I don’t regret any of it.

But boy oh boy am I glad I finally moved past the stage of thinking I needed to give even a SECOND of me to something that didn’t light up ALL of me, because somehow saying yes to “fuck, maybe”, and hoping it would unfold into “fuck yes!” was a thing.

Lemme tell you:

Fuck, maybe never turns to FUCK YES, and ignoring the absence of desire?? Not so smart. In fact very very not fucking smart.

Do I shake my head at myself now in wonder that I gave up bits of my soul my mind my energy my time to a person who I felt no core desire for, no internal fuck yes, no “I can’t not” instinctive need to be close to this person, which, let’s face it, is a thing which is either there or NO?

No.

I mean, well, yes. Sure. Of course I shake my head, in wonder, that I really am that bloody masterful at creating a story of what could be, and then buying in to the story! I’m a genius at it, actually! Someone should give me an award.

But shake my head that I was an idiot or a fool, for not seeing something that now seems obvious about that connection of yesteryear, which I now get to use an example of EXACTLY WHAT I CLAIM THE DIFFERENT OF?

Nah. Not so much.

After all, I chose it. I choose everything that comes in to my life, and to believe otherwise would be to believe against my own innate ability to create whatever I CHOOSE.

So yeah, no. That’s not a thing.

But here is what is:

Right now, there is something in your life which your soul wants to say yes to. Every cell in your body is screaming YES! Maybe it’s a person, and it makes no sense, but your energy is undoubtedly saying yes to their energy. Maybe it’s a business idea or shift, and it seems reckless, but something within you does not GIVE a fuck.

And yet there you are –

Giving a fuck, because somebody or something told you “that’s not how it works”.

Well –

IT IS HOW IT FUCKING WORKS!

Desire will show you the way, it’s that simple, and it REALLY would behoove you to stop tryna pretend otherwise.

By the same token –

The absence of desire is right now jumpin’ up and down in your face somewhere and telling you, hey – ! THAT IS NOT THE WAY. That is not the thing. That is not how you’re meant to play this shit. Walk away!

And you?

Well, maybe you still have lessons to learn in this area. And that’s okay.

But maybe, like I did, too many times to remember is the truth of the matter, maybe, just maybe, it’s time to lift your head up –

Boobs out!

And say “THANK YOU FOR THE LESSONS, BUT NO THANK YOU, I’M GOOD NOW”, and then??

Baby, what else?

GO GET YOUR LIFE.

Because after all, no matter which way you play it and how you choose to learn through your current experiences, one thing we know for sure is this:

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

✨✨¬†Success Frequencies.

Let’s talk about them. Breathe them in. ALLOW them in. And then dial them TF in.

Are you ready?

There are certain ways of being, of operating, of thinking, and perhaps most in particular of expecting which are currently dictating your outcomes in every area of life.

You are, quite literally, coded. Programmed. Running on a frequency of … X.

With X being, well – whatever you see around you most days. Whatever you experience. Feel. Know to be true. Receive and hold onto. Receive and do not hold on to. Or do not receive at all.

There are certain things in your life which right now you can click your fingers and command to replicate, on repeat, and they do.

And there are other things which SHOULD be in your life, which you yearn to have in your life, which sometimes you get a glimpse or a taste of or even an entire mouthful, and then they’re gone, into the night, maybe never to return again, shrouded in mystery and frustration but yet at the same time that deeper part of you knows –

it’s not supposed to be like this.

It shouldn’t be.

I don’t accept it!

And I WILL move past.

You look into the future you see inside of you and you know that it is ALL real, ALL available, ALL true, ALL there for the taking. A virtual sushi train of wondrous life options, every one of ’em just a choice you can pluck off as it rolls on by! Don’t see what you want, not exactly? All you gotta do is ASK, and it’ll be freshly made for you!

Your belief around the impossible is OFF THE CHARTS.

And it always has been.

Your PROOF, of CREATING and ALLOWING the impossible is also pretty darn off the charts, if you do say so yourself. Which you don’t have to, because others do it for you!

It’s ALWAYS been this way for you, you’ve ALWAYS been able to dance between realities and choose the one you wanna keep.

But yet –

it feels, so much of the time, as though you’re teetering.

Teetering on the edge of will I / won’t I let myself FULLY go and receive, create, allow, BE –

or will I fall back into normal, into rules, into worries, into shoulds, into the dreaded dreaded fear that it’ll somehow all just stop working and I’ll find out there was never anything special about me at all, never anything wondrous about what I could do, and that I just somehow … fluked things for a bit.

Sometimes you’re CERTAIN which way you’re going to topple.

And other times you’re terrified you have no idea at all, and if you did you wouldn’t want to know.

But what you do know is this:

When things are working.

When things are flowing to and through and from you in the precise ways they should be.

When things are OH so yes.

When it’s all just coming together, the different areas of your business your money your life and YOU just rolling PERFECTLY, like a beautiful and impossible to replicate orchestra, pure MAGIC –

it’s not because of what you did.

It is not because of how you planned, followed the plan, did it right.

It’s not a list you ticked off that made it that you got to then GET.

It’s not because you followed RULES for success.

Or really anything at all.

It’s because you were playing life on a certain frequency. You were tapped in, dialled in, LEANING all the way in to something you can’t even fully describe but you KNOW when you’re in it.

You were, not to be too corny or cliche about it but we’ll say it anyway ’cause it’s true – one with life itself. Dancing the most beautiful dance of BEING FULLY YOU with the wind beneath your wings nothing other than God and truth and the very fabric of the universe, what else could it be?!

Put simply:

you had those Success Frequencies switched on to high AF, and you were using ’em.

Want to know how to do that more, in fact any time you choose, in fact with complete calm understanding of what it is you ARE doing and how to tap in and BE in that energy, that place, that receiving, at will?

It’s always been available.

It’s ALWAYS been right there for the taking.

EVERYTHING you’ve suspected this whole time is true.

And now?
We’re gonna get you understanding it (every last bit).

Living it (as naturally as breathing).

And UTILISING it to let life unwind to the places you’ve been waiting to be (the way it’s meant for you).

Ready?

Success Frequencies with Katrina Ruth, beginning February 1st.

12 audio deep dive trainings.

12 homework worksheets designed to break you open, wake and shake you into the place your inner self is already meant to be playing in, and lead you to specific steps YOU get to take in order to see drastic life elevation … aka RESULTS, the ones you want and are waiting on … in every area of your life.

24 days in total to revolutionise your life, how you see yourself, and how the world shows up for you in return.

This?

Changes everything.

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Here’s what it comes down to:

You’ve always known that the work is about so much more than the work. AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS. There’s not a single extra second you will one day be relieved you waited to go all in on that.

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