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I STILL SO OFTEN FIND MYSELF NOT FEELING GOOD ENOUGH FOR WHAT’S INSIDE OF ME…

I still so often find myself thinking or feeling that maybe I’m not good enough for what my soul desires, what I long for, what I see inside of me and WANT.

Do you?

Silly question; I know you do.

In particular with the things I want MOST, the things which, when I look at them in my soul are VIBRANT in colour, BRIMMING with life and light, seem almost like they have their own heartbeat, blood running through them, connecting to the blood in my veins, saying YES –

I am part of you.

I am PART of you.

I was always meant to BE, part of you, TAKE me and MAKE me,

Yours.

I think … I have learned, I should say … that the things which most take our breath away, when we imagine what it would BE like, to have that as part of our experience, as ‘done’, the things which leave us feeling almost a little shaky at just the idea of it; imagine – !

Could life really be that good?

For ME?

– these are the things which are most actually meant to BE ours.

The shit you feel like would be COOL, nice, even ‘great’ – really –

WHATEVER.

Do it, don’t do it, be it, don’t be it, have it, don’t have it; you KNOW it doesn’t actually really matter one way or the other, and so because it doesn’t MATTER –

You construct your life of it.

It’s safer, to build a life of ‘nearly your dreams’.

Because after all, in order to LIVE your true dreams, you must first CONFESS THAT YOU DESIRE THEM TO BE YOURS.

You must say YES, I want this. I believe this is how it’s meant to be. Like THIS, and you lay it out clearly.

After the confession?

You gotta DECIDE. I DECIDE, and it’s DONE; so there! (A daily practice, by the way, this deciding thang)

And then?

Well, then.

You gotta CHOOSE to believe.

I believe I can have it and it’s done and it’s MINE, even though my mind simultaneously is freaking the fuck OUT!

What I just outlined? It’s basic manifestation. You MUST do this, to bring what’s in you to life, but precisely BECAUSE it requires ‘confessing your desires’ like this is why mostly people do NOT.

Because,

After all,

That’s fucking scary!

And you think –

“What if I what if I WHAT if I admitted to myself that I WANT this, and then I DECIDED, and then I said I BELIEVE, and then it didn’t.fucking.happen!”

It would be like a rejection from GOD HIMSELF, from the UNIVERSE or something, and the WHOLE WORLD WOULD KNOW I’M NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR COOL ENOUGH AND MY HAIR ISN’T SHINY ENOUGH!

And so,

You instead,

Choose something less than.

Something which doesn’t matter SO much.

But sure –

It’s cool.
It’s nice.
You have become ‘successful’, lauded, even, and people think highly of you.

You did it; you’re living the dream! Just –

Not actually your God damn dream.

And so it goes and so it goes and so you LET it fucking go, and are you SERIOUS? When ALL you have to do, and you KNOW this, is to be COURAGEOUS enough to boldly claim the true shit which is inside of you, the stuff you LONG for, the stuff which fills your heart, your soul, and indeed IS your soul, the stuff you know –

Actually –

In your heart of hearts –

When you put aside the fear –

When you quit the ‘I’m not good enough’ game –

When you step away from your own DRAMA and STORY –

You KNOW –

Is available.

For you.

NOW.

YOU KNOW THIS.

YES, you might walk around worrying that you’re not good enough, you haven’t proven yourself yet, you didn’t do enough, how could it be like that for YOU, and what would people THINK, and what if you didn’t live INTO it, and blah di blah di SO much fucking blah – !

I KNOW THIS BECAUSE I STILL DO IT.

Like I said.

But underneath that –

ISN’T IT TRUE –

That ACTUALLY –

You KNOW.

You DO believe.

You have ABSOLUTE fucking certainty.

YOU HAVE ALWAYS KNOWN.

That what you feel inside of you is real, that what you see inside of you is DONE, and that ALL you gotta do is put aside the story and say YES to it, lay CLAIM to it, be brave enough to DECIDE.

The ‘I’m not good enough’ story is clouding you.

It’s like a poison spreading through your veins.

And YOU ARE LETTING IT.

Well, today, here is what you’re going to do –

This is how I do it; it’s how I’ve always done it, it’s the only WAY to do it –

You feel and notice and SEE the STORY.

You let yourself freak the fuck out for a minute, if you like! Enjoy!

And then?

YOU GOD DAMN DO THE THING, BE THE THING, ASK FOR THE THING, LAY CLAIM TO THE THING ANYWAY.

Don’t look at those who are ahead of you and LIE to yourself that they have greater self-belief.

What they HAVE, is greater courage to say yes to what’s inside of them in the face of fear.

Which does indeed BUILD self-belief, but it’s still where it starts and ends.

I feel the voice of doom and gloom rising.

And I CHOOSE to drown it out with the voice of BUT I’M GOING TO FUCKING GO FOR IT ANYWAY.

Because through it all –

Always –

And forever –

When I have said yes to my soul.

Life says yes to me.

Amen.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat

PS

EMPRESS.

EMPRESS.

EMPRESS has returned.

This
Will
SHOCK 
You

If?
You dare.

EMPRESS: Claim Your Rightful Place, NOW.

4 Weeks 1:1 With Katrina Ruth, For Women Unapologetically Born for More.

This is what is missing:

You –

You’re a Queen, a leader, a badass, we KNOW this, you were born for it and it shines out of every pore of you, but more than that, you’re a motherfucking EMPRESS, gorgeous, you’ve ALWAYS known this, and let’s get real now:

(it might sting a little)

This whole LITTLE game you’re playing, of “I’m a COACH, and I teach this, or that, or the other thing, join my program, sign up for my stuff, I’ll teach you HOW, and show you the process and how I can HELP you?”

Well –

It was never going to cut it, WAS it now?

Nope!

THIS IS NOT NEW INFORMATION FOR YOU.

You look around –

At all the things –

You tell yourself you have to do each day –

The way you think you gotta show up, sell, prove your worth, get people to want to LEARN from you, and therefore pay you, and what you don’t SEE is that the reason you were always meant to be PAID –

Damn highly, I might add!

– is for people to be in your presence.

To soak up the ENERGY and the ESSENCE of you.

To be lifted up and elevated to where THEY need to be, and into the action which automatically just goes with it, because of the way that YOU show up and shine.

This has nothing to do with what you teach.

It’s NOT a fucking strategy.

And you can break down the components of it all you like, but REALLY it’s a vibration thang.

You’ve either got it.

Or you don’t.

And you, well you have always HAD it, haven’t you? You’ve always been that person who shines so.fucking.bright, who sees the world in a particular way in which others do NOT, who has lived their LIFE in a certain way in which others do not, who has quite literally TRAINED for this shit.

Since you were a young girl –

Since as far back as you can remember –

No need to pretend otherwise – !

You KNEW you were born for more.

You looked around …

As though in a daze …

Not quite understanding what everybody else was ON about, or why they cared so much …

And just kinda sorta ALWAYS fucking realising –

Well.

This is not where I am going to be ANYWAY.

These are not my people …

This is not my path …

This is not the world I will OPERATE in!

It’s as though your soul knew, since before time even began, that you came from different stock.

You were born into the wrong world, you had to spend time there for perhaps learning, or growth, or just the gathering of PATIENCE, but it was always clear that one day?

just as with an orphan –
who dreams she is really born of royalty –

Your real life would come for you.

What you didn’t realise, what you were perhaps never told (and why would you be, because who would TELL you back then, or even KNOW?), what you must now take OWNERSHIP of, is that the life you’ve been waiting for this whole time, and the you who you’ve always known you must step into, it was NEVER GOING TO COME FOR YOU AT ALL.

It was always that YOU had to step up for IT.

And now here we are –
You show up online –
Every day ‘doing the do’
Valiantly seeking to demonstrate why YOU are better coach, or even, the best – !

When actually you are NOT A FUCKING COACH AT ALL, and quite frankly the whole thing faintly SICKENS you, because when all is said and done and IF you dare to admit it –

You’re just so much more than that.
That’s all.
It’s always been the way.
That’s all.
You just didn’t know you had to own it.
Is all.

And now, well NOW –

You wonder why you struggle to break that next income level
You wonder why so many of the things you set out to do exhaust you, and you either don’t DO them (and continually beat up on yourself for it), or you do them and you RESENT EVERY FUCKING SECOND OF IT
You wonder what is WRONG with you
Why you can’t just get your shit DONE
Why you don’t seem to think or FEEL like the other coaches
And why it doesn’t feel like FLOW yet when wasn’t the whole damn POINT supposed to that you just get to wake up each day – 
Follow your heart – 
Create your art – 
Do what you can’t NOT?!

And you know –

Yes actually.
IT MOTHERFUCKING WAS.

So why does it feel so NOT that yet, why is it that even when you’re CLAIMING flow and ease the truth is there’s this constant fucking NIGGLE there, this missing piece, this emptiness, this frustration, this WON’T YOU ALL JUST FUCK OFF AND LEAVE ME ALONE energy?!

Isn’t it obvious?
Don’t you see?
Haven’t you ALWAYS FUCKING KNOWN?

You’re not a coach.
You’re not an ‘online business owner’.
You’re not even ACTUALLY an entrepreneur, not if there’s a full stop after it, anyhow.

You can do all these things.
Be all these things.
And indeed always WILL, howEVER –

What you are, who you are, how it’s always BEEN, and why the whole damn thing is NOT in fact flowing as you know it should and COULD, is because you?

Are an EMPRESS baby.

Born for more.
Born for exceptional.
Born for EXTRAORDINARY.
And not of this world.

And you tell yourself –

How outrageous it is, to think so HIGHLY of you, to expect so much, to feel that REALLY if the world were at rights with itself YOU WOULD BE IN CHARGE, to know that you know that you know that people REALLY need to shut the fuck up and LISTEN to you, and that actually you should ALWAYS and ONLY get to do what you want –

Have what you want –

With the click of your fingers, and the blink of your eyes, and TOTALLY as you imagined it, and that while we’re on it people SHOULD pay just to be in your presence –

You tell yourself it’s TOO MUCH AND CRAZY –

But in actual fact
you know
and you’ve always known
she says –
with a shrug of her shoulders, and a ‘what do you want me to do about it’ look –
this is just how it IS …

Which I suppose begs the question –

When in actual fact do you imagine you might like to start owning the fact that THIS IS JUST HOW IT IS?

Question:

How about right fucking now?

EMPRESS

Claim Your Rightful Place, NOW.

4 Weeks 1:1 with Katrina Ruth, for Women UNAPOLOGETICALLY Born for More

Empress ENERGY AND VIBRATION
Empress EXPECTATIONS AND DEMANDS
Empress ENVIRONMENT, EVERY BIT OF IT
Empress EMPIRE, THE WHOLE SHEBANG
Empress MOTHERFUCKING EVERYTHING – THE WAY IT WAS ALWAYS SUPPOSED TO BE

It’s time to stop playing so coy –
Pretending you want for so little –
And telling yourself a STORY –
That you’re here to build a business online, make some money, be one of the fucking PACK, when the only truth is ALWAYS –

You were born to run the world.

EMPRESS initiation has begun –
Your rightful place is waiting –
This is 1:1 with me the likes of which has NEVER been done before, or even, heard of
It will take your breath away
It will shake you to your core
It will cause you to question EVERYTHING you’re doing right now
And it will show you
UNAPOLOGETICALLY
Why you feel SO DAMN EMPTY INSIDE
When you’re supposedly DOING everything you’re meant to be doing

How can you feel
what you’re mean to feel
and what it was always supposed to BE about
when you haven’t even actually begun
on the life you really came here to build

There is a reason you feel like so much is missing, and here is what it is –

The thing you’ve been missing?
Is being the real fucking you.

EMPRESS gorgeous.
Me and you.
CLAIMING your rightful place, and everything which goes with it.
When?

LIFE IS NOW.

Message me to learn how to get in, and for all that this is about.

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