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Success Mindset

NOT QUITE THAT, NOT QUITE THIS, THIS IS HOW I SHOW UP FOR MY ART WHEN THE MUSE IS BEING AN ASSHOLE

What do I want to write and what do I want to say today, what is it I desire to SHARE with the world?

What do I want to write and what do I want to say today, what is it I desire to SHARE with the world?

– I ask myself, in my writing app, after completing my journaling for the morning and knowing, now is the time to write.

Sometimes the message is pouring out of me before I can even make it to the laptop, or some device, where I can let it out.

Other days my mind feels blank, and empty, either in flatness or just in nothingness and calm, like today.

But still I find – I want to write. I know I must write. I feel the NEED to write, my body my mind my soul ALL of me – hungry for that release, and that deep connection, to soul.

I sit
I sip my coffee
I gaze out over the other patrons at the coffee shop
My zombie eyes probably freaking somebody out, somewhere, but I don’t see them because where I’m looking, is inside

Seeking the magic
Seeking the flow
Seeking a hit, really, of my drug of choice

But nope – nothing! Outrageous … annoying … I WANT TO WRITE and God damn it, I’ve made space to write! I will NOT go do my Christmas shopping till I’ve written; no I WON’T!

So, I ask –

What do I want to write and what do I want to say today, what is it I desire to SHARE with the world?

My fingers start to move of their own accord, and I find myself typing –

I am rich
I am famous
I choose my reality
I can create whatever is inside of me
I can literally turn my thoughts to reality
I have everything I need

In my mind, I shake my head in mock despair at this little download.

“Yes, yes Kat!”, my mind says, it’s eyes rolling (my mind has eyes, of course!) …

“That’s all very well, but you already DID your journaling, you’re not supposed to be sitting here writing more affirmations for yourSELF … what do you have for the PEOPLE?!”

I contemplate doing a piece on affirming and locking in new beliefs and then living into them and creating YOUR reality, but nah …

It feels boring
Stale
I’ve said that shit a million times; you already KNOW it!

A title comes to me –

WHEN THE MUSE HASN’T VISITED YOU, SHOW UP ANYWAY

I could write about that …

I stare blankly into space again

When I do this when my kids are around, which happens sometimes if an idea is trying to wriggle its way out and I must still my every muscle every cell every fibre of my being and even my BREATH –

My daughter will SHRIEK at me –

“Mummy!! Where are you?! You’ve gone away again!”

And she clicks her fingers in my face, which she knows drives me crazy, and gives me the sort of look of loved mixed with despair that a parent might give an errant child.

“Sorry honey … I was just … traveling”

I do that.
You too?
Yes.
Thought so 🙂

Reminder –

You can create whatever is inside of you …
Those places you’re traveling to are real, and you get to learn something there; maybe even bring it back.

But today, no … I tune in to that title, about showing up anyway, when the muse doesn’t visit, and I think, hmmm –

Well.
I don’t actually believe that as an absolute.
I don’t think you have to write every day speak every day journal every day with NO exception.
99.99% of the time YES, show the fuck up, be IN the space for your dreams, and the muse or whatever else is required will visit you when you DO.
99.99% of the time I do what I do regardless of whether I FEEL like it.
Because I think I should force myself? No.
Because I act FROM the outcome, not towards it.
But sometimes, fuck ALL of it, and I do nothing, and know that THAT is what flow looked like for today, so no, I don’t align, actually, to writing a post saying you should ALWAYS show up anyway.

So, hmmm, no –
It’s not quite that …
And it’s not quite this …

WHAT SHOULD I WRITE?

I laugh at myself because I know that the more I try to demand a message to come through, the more wily it will become and it will run run RUN from me, and also – like an asshole – LAUGH at me.

Bastards.

So then, I know exactly what to do when it’s a day like this.

I lean INTO it.

You want to hide from me, muse? You want to dance away from me, message? You want to give me nothing GRAND and BOLD and POWERFUL to share with the world, soul?

That’s okay.
I’m good enough I do enough I have great hair and God damn it people LIKE me, so I’ll just BE OKAY WITH THE NOTHING.

Can’t get me that way! 😉

And so I start to write.

Not quite that.
Not quite this.
This is how I show up when the muse is hiding from me.

I write, literally, what I’m feeling.
I give myself permission, as I have so many times before, to LET THE MESSAGE BE THE MESSAGE, and to remind myself, as I’ve reminded myself so many times before, and as I continually remind my clients –

Ours is not to CRITIQUE or even EDIT the damn thing.

Ours is to let it out.

Not to question whether it’s good enough or fancy enough or interesting enough or WORTHY enough to come out –

But just to let it out.

And perhaps, in doing so, perhaps in leaning in to the nothing, a spark will come, and the flow will take over, and the muse will appear and with MUCH flair grab you by the waist and dance away with you and it will be rainbows and fucking unicorns EVERYWHERE, and WELL DONE YOU for showing up and letting the magic APPEAR – !

(Which is slightly how I feel
just in these last few paragraphs
now)

Or –

CRASH!

Perhaps not.

Perhaps you will write a piece.
A piece about nothing.
And you will feel –
Not very much.
But still you will exhale that little bit deeper –
Because you did what you can’t NOT, but yet still, so often, manage TO not.

And perhaps one day –
In many moons, or not so many at all –
You’ll look back.
And people will ask you, how did you do it, I’m not clear yet, and I don’t know what to say most of the time, and I question myself constantly, and I don’t even really know what my PURPOSE is, I have all of this stuff inside of me but I just don’t know how to let it out and so I CAN’T write … speak … create … you know?!

And you’ll turn to them
And smile
And tell them

Of how, all you did, to get to here, was just show up
Every day
Just as you were for that day
And just as the message was for that day
And somewhere, someway, over days and days and days of letting the message BE the message, and of committing to the art rather than to your own bullshit –

You found clarity.
You found purpose.
You found meaning.
You found flow.
And built a following.
You created an empire.
You made millions of dollars.
And impacted millions of people.

And all you had to do, ALL you had to do, was NOTHING at all and also BE nothing at all and there was NEVER anything to prove or to ‘rock the world with’, but ALL you had to do, regardless of clarity or know-how, or ANY of it, was simply –

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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