ART. MAGIC. FLOW. YES.
Sometimes, when you sit down, make space to create, feel proud of yourself in advance for DOING the damn thing, you’ll become frozen with overwhelm and the immense pressure of all that you long to be.
Have you ever felt that way?
As though you’re disconnected … suspended … you can FEEL the power inside of you and you’re almost breathless at its vastness, it seems as though if you could REALLY look at it and see it you’d have to turn away, so bright and blinding would it be … but then, at the same time, somehow …
you have nothing
nothing presents itself to you
nothing exists, not just IN you, but perhaps ANYWHERE
And you feel frustrated. Annoyed. I don’t like this feeling, you think to yourself! I want to feel IN THE FUCKING ZONE, why can’t I feel in the zone?
These are the times, when you choose to sit in them instead of RUN from them, which, I believe, make you truly an artist.
It would be so easy to turn away, busy yourself, DO something, or simply, leave.
Telling yourself, well – the muse didn’t show up for me today. Or not even telling yourself anything but instead just DISTRACTING with Things Which Are Not Art.
It’s easy to be the person with a calling, the one who is BORN for it, who does NOT do it because, well, they weren’t inspired. Were not clear. Were not READY.
ANYBODY can be that person, and most are.
And so it is, and so it ENDS.
What’s not so easy is to lean INTO the discomfort of today, whatever that may be. To feel overwhelmed … or frozen … or angsty … or as though anything you would or COULD create would be boring … lame … pointless.
And to say to yourself –
I’ll sit here anyway.
I’ll create from this place anyway.
Because I am the VESSEL, and my job is to let whatever is inside of me OUT, not to judge or critique it or decide whether or not it’s ‘good enough’.
This is what it means, to be an artist.
And even –
It’s not show up or create or unleash when the stars are aligned and a download from God himself is fired into your soul.
It’s show up, create, unleash, PERIOD.
No matter what.
And here is what else –
You may sit here.
Start to write or allow something.
Feel how jerky and fumbly and awkward it is.
HATE that it’s not ‘flow’.
And then, all of a sudden, your fingers might start to work with ease … the art tumbling from you like you DESIRE it to … or NOT, but either way:
And that’s the whole point.
The whole point is that it’s ALWAYS perfect and it’s always exactly what it SHOULD be.
NONE of these things are things you can plan for or determine or write a ‘how’ for in advance.
EACH of these things are things you will only receive and be immersed into when you show up for them, daily, without expectation.
Every day I show up for my writing.
MANY days I have no idea what to say.
EACH day I know I must write regardless, because to not do so is to starve my SOUL.
SOME of the days the flow the magic the YES descends upon me.
Either way, unconditionally, I am committed to my art, my message, my truth, my service.
If you removed all expectation of what should be or what you need present in order to do what you need to do, you could just DO the damn work every day, and allow it to BE whatever it IS.
No ‘this is good’ but ‘that’s not’.
And the thing is … if you desire to in some way be KNOWN for your art … simply, well, this –
Do you imagine that that will happen at some point because you waited?
Or because you showed up regardless?
Stop putting conditions on your purpose work.
I promise you –
You can do it now, just as you are.
You are enough now, just as you are.
The WORK is enough now, just as it is.
DO the damn thing now, however it comes out.
Do this, and one day, I PROMISE you –
You’ll look up and see you built a motherfucking empire.
That’s all I did.
That’s all I ever did.
And all I continue to do.
Just show the fuck up.
Don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.