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Live Your Passion

Fucked Up, and Loving It

I reckon I must ask myself at least once a day what the fuck is wrong with me.

Sometimes it’s a quick passing head shake or eye roll at myself, almost like I can’t quite believe my own stubborn foolhardiness and have to at least try and laugh about it, but other times it’s a serious finger-wagging stern-headmistress-expression kind of a wonderment, in which I really do have to question:

Do I act this stupid on PURPOSE, or do I just like testing the universe / God / money / my own patience / any man, dog, woman or child who encounters me?

Please tell me I’m not alone in thinking I might actually be seriously fucked up …

With the silly things I do in business even though I know SO much better (comparisonitis and bright shiny object syndrome, I’m looking at you!) …

With the way I at times scoff sugar down like my life depends upon it … which well it might did I not have food a-plenty on the table any time I want it … and despite the fact that it makes me feel like crap!

With the way I almost DELIBERATELY seem to get exasperated at my kids when they’re just being, well, okay, evil little cute monsters sent to try the patience of a saint, but still, I GUESS, kids …

With the way I take every single simple thing that’s working for me, nod my head sagely and proudly at the magic I’ve created, then proceed to very thoroughly, very carefully, very absolutely, add as much detail as humanly possible to it so that I can once again struggle my ass off to get through the day never mind actually BREATHE.

Please tell me I’m not alone here!

I mean seriously … don’t you just have to LAUGH SLASH CRY SLASH SCREAM at the ridiculousness that is the way you behave at times, after EVERYTHING you’ve learned and know?!

I know I do.

I look at the way I take the simplest most straightforward things and turn them into puzzles that Einstein himself wouldn’t be able to solve.

The way I push myself to do massive ridiculous endless lists of stuff that I don’t even really care about yet at some point deemed important and am too stubborn to let go of.

The way I YETAFUCKINGGAIN give in to fear, resistance, ‘what if’, and the terror of maybe nobody liking me in my business and so I show up out of alignment, pretending, wearing a mask, trying just that LITTLE bit too hard or even a lot, or I simply don’t show up at all.

The way I so passionately preach to my clients and then go out and do precisely the opposite thing, because y’know, it’s my life and I’ll fuck with it if I want to no matter how much better I know, and I guess because also, y’know –

I’m human.

Fucking humans.

One of my entrepreneur friends and I have this thing we’ve started, which I based on an episode of Seinfeld (guilty! love it! know the entire freaking show off by heart!) in which Jerry and George are having a discussion about how awful people are.

“People!” says George.

“They’re the WORST”, says Jerry.

For some reason I found – and still find – this to be the most hilarious and profound piece of television of all time and wherever possible I try and work it into a conversation.

“Fucking people”, my friend PM’d me the other night after a dinner out with, well, PEOPLE.

“They’re the WORST”, I wrote back.

“Fucking HUMAN PEOPLE”, she replied.

“I know!”, said I.

It was hilarious.

You had to be there.

Where was I?

Oh – fucking human.

I guess I have to admit it.

{{{Sigh}}}

I am.

You too?

Gosh, sorry to hear that.

Fuck that shit.

So anyway, since we’re all in this together and all, and since you’ve been stung with the same fucking human BS as me, here’s the thing.

The REALITY.

About being so fucked up. (In case you were wondering if you are? Yes – you are. Get over it, move on, etc).

It’s actually a kinda of a GOOD thing.

Hear me out here …

I don’t know about you, but here’s what I’ve realised is AWESOME about how fucked up I am:

* If I weren’t so fucked up I wouldn’t BE this person in the first place. I wouldn’t have walked out of every single freaking job I ever took, often within a matter of weeks, wondering for YEARS why the heck I couldn’t stick to something but ultimately creating an incredible kickass business and life on my terms.

* And speaking of walking out of things, if I weren’t so fucked up I wouldn’t have quit 4 (or was it 5?!) University Degrees midway through, never mind the fact that even when I DID attend class I was giving facials for $50 out of the back room of the University Health Food Store, NOT actually GOING to class. And if I hadn’t have constantly quit degrees, trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life? I’d very likely be a fat alcoholic binge-eating lawyer right now. Plus with loads of money, yay. This way I get the money without the fat binge-eating alcoholic part. AND I get to argue with people anyway.

* If I wasn’t so fucked up I very probably would have stayed in the wrong marriage way back at the ripe old age of 25, instead of fucking THAT up, and who the fuck knows where I’d be right now?! Not here I guess!

* If I wasn’t so fucked up I wouldn’t have reinvented the wheel over – and over – and OVER – again, starting up new business, new ideas, relaunching my Goddamn website every 0.63 seconds, etc etc ad INFINITUM … which would have meant that I GUESS I’d still be “Australia’s Female Fitness Queen!” … which was, you know, COOL (if a bit wanky) but it sure as shit wasn’t the work I’m CALLED to do which is what I NOW get to do!

* If I wasn’t so fucked up I wouldn’t have battled bulimia for 10 years (which was NOT fun) but you know what, I’m glad I DID battle it because actually what it was about was being out of alignment, not living according to my values or what I really believed in, and once I realised that I not only quit bulimia but also freaking well CREATED THE LIFE I WANTED! So, thank God for THAT big red flag.

* If I wasn’t so fucked I wouldn’t have failed SO many times with the various offers and programs and products I’ve put out there, so many times I couldn’t now remember them all if I tried (you should see the domain name graveyard!), so many times that I NOW FUCKING KNOW WHAT WORKS. And how to SPEAK to people. And how to SELL. Not that it now works everytime. Ha! God no. But still – I know some shit. It’s good shit. It’s shit that works, and better still? Launching all that shit really taught me what the shit is I actually want to do. Which is, quite frankly, the shit 🙂

* If I wasn’t so fucked up I would have thought I could do it all myself (yay me!), would have stayed the course as a rather successful personal trainer (sweet, but NOT my destiny work), would NOT have invested over 300k working with the worlds’ best mentors in a number of different areas in order to try and fix the fucked-up-ed-ness and would therefore have NOT learned all sorts of awesome cool stuff, met all sorts of awesome cool people, created this awesome laptop life 7-figure biz!

* If I wasn’t so fucked up I wouldn’t have, further to that, landed myself in over 100k of debt, nearly gone bankrupt, thought I hit rock bottom, BATTLED to try and get out and ultimately realised that the only way? Was to STOP trying to force success and do shit I didn’t really want to do, for people I didn’t really like, and in a way I didn’t really believe in! Which is to say, again, I wouldn’t be here!

* If I wasn’t so fucked up I wouldn’t have shared the real me, all of me, the good, the bad, the CRAY CRAY, the SO damn ugly (and weird!), the mega vulnerable, transparent and at times God-awful side of me, with my community and Tribe, and I WOULDN’T FUCKING WELL HAVE MY COMMUNITY AND TRIBE. Or, probably, you. And that’d be sad. Reminder … people follow you because you are you! And you are REAL! Which brings me to this …

And THIS is what matters most, because hey – it’s not all about me:

If I wasn’t so fucked up you probably would really NOT be here.

Because the reason I have built this incredible community –

The reason I have been so damn blessed to make the money and the difference I’ve made –

The reason I’m literally able to just show up every day, open my mouth and heart and blurt out whatever comes out and KNOW it is helping people and by heck I get to call that WORK –

The reason people actually want to LISTEN to that stuff, and it MEANS something to them, and it HELPS them –

The reason people then want to buy my stuff … keep working with me … figure out their OWN shit and fucked-up-ed-ness through how they’re inspired or empowered by what I have to say –

Well the reason, plain and simple, is that honey I AM FUCKING FUCKED UP, and SO TOO ARE YOU! Yes I’ve achieved some cool stuff and I have empowering lessons to pass on to you but the reason you would even want to CONSIDER listening to what I have to say is you know that I get it. That I’ve BEEN there. That I’ve fought the fights, both inside and out, got through to the other side but that hell YEAH I still fuck it all up now and then.

Just like you.

Just like ALL of us.

Which is to say –

Fucking humans.

But hey, if you can’t beat ’em, join ’em, right?!

And right now I want you to join me.

I want you to join me in saying HELL YEAH Kat, I’m fucked up – and I’m fucking okay with it.

HELL YEAH Kat, I don’t have it all figured out yet – and I’m okay with it.

HELL YEAH Kat, I have no freaking clue WHAT I’m doing half the time, and frankly I’m worried at some point I’m going to be called out on not even being a real adult, but you know what?

I have a message to share.

I have shit to say.

I have VALUE to offer.

And by God do I have some great stories of fucked-up-ed-ness that maybe, just maybe, can help someone.

Because, you know –

Fucking humans relate to fucking humans.

And us fucked up ones? Well we need to stick together.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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