MAYBE THE REASON YOU CAN’T GO BIGGER IS YOU DIDN’T YET GO DEEPER
If you step back from your ego, from your want, from the urgent ‘need’ to make more money, build a bigger following, be seen by EVERYONE, and NOW, do you really and truly feel you’re meant to be going bigger right now?
Maybe yes, maybe sure, maybe you’ve already become all that you need to be in order to rest certain in your foundation and explode your message to the world –
And certainly the journey of BECOMING is never done, and so I certainly don’t mean to imply that there is ever anything you need to DO in order to be enough to BE. We know and have been promised with absolute assuredness that we are already enough NOW, that there is no preparation needed in order to be who we always were!
– but at the same time,
And there is a season to sink deeper into BEING.
Are you meant to be going bigger right now?
Maybe yes but also maybe it’s time to hold your hand up to ego and fear and its relentless missive to command you to HURRY HURRY HURRY there’s no time to lose and if you’re not doing EVERYTHING and making THAT much money and being lauded by the WORLD then you’re not DOING it right.
Because maybe right now if you blew the fuck up,
You’d be blowing the wrong thing up.
And maybe right now, if you can’t seem to make headway, you’re stuck on a cycle of repeat, the God damn needle just keeps on scratching back to the same place, and every freakin’ DAY you’re try try trying again to pull ahead just a LITTLE, maybe, just MAYBE –
God is preparing you.
And that what is actually NEEDED – if you’d JUST put aside ego and want and FALSE need for a SECOND – is for you to be going deeper.
If you’re honest with yourself about it, a BIG part of the seemingly urgent need to be seen, be everywhere, be paid to the NEXT next level, is less about what is aligned and divined and ‘meant to be’, and more about fear.
Maybe RIGHT FREAKING NOW is the time for you to blow up and take over the whole damn thing! Maybe every cell in your body is shaking its head in disgust at the very idea that now might be a time to land, to sink, to fertilise, to grow, “you’re WRONG, Kat, that’s NOT for me!”.
(just a little of course, but hey hey … 0.01% off alignment results in an ALL THE WAY completely different outcome, so … there’s that …)
– and maybe,
Something within you knows that ACTUALLY it is NOT:
That you ‘have’ to be making XXX / k per month right now
With XXX followers on the platform du jour
And XXX badass peeps shouting you out, accepting you into the cool club, approving of you
With everything JUST so
And instead it’s as simple and as profound as this:
If you knew your needs were abundantly taken care of, and that YOU were abundantly taken care of, and that there was no need to FEAR lack to FEAR not having to FEAR not playing at whatever jolly level the Powers That Be are lauding as ‘the’ level, well –
Maybe that would actually be everything.
Because maybe what you’re really craving –
When you desperately long for, scrabble for, and sell your soul for (just a little!), the ‘next level’, and tell yourself that when you’re there you will FINALLY be enough, maybe what you REALLY need and want is as simple and as profound as a) knowing you are safe and that you’re needs are taken care of, and b) –
That you are TRULY FINALLY FULLY CERTAINLY saying yes to God and soul.
The thing you have to understand about making all the monies,
Being fully seen,
Is that it DOESN’T WORK IF YOU’RE NOT PLANTED DEEP.
Right now, you’re already planted DEEP baby.
The question is –
The NEXT question is –
What SHOULD you be planted in?
What is the foundation you’re avoiding laying down which the actual empire of your soul is to be built upon?
And are you prepared to hold up the stop sign to EVERYTHING you’re floundering around trying so desperately to build upon,
When what you’d build if it actually worked is the WRONG FREAKING LIFE.
Do you dare?
Are you brave enough?
Or will you keep flailing
Keep try try trying
Desperately to pull ahead just a little more, maybe a lot more, to PROVE your worthiness and FORCE your safety,
Knowing the entire time that you’re building a house of cards
And not even gold rimmed ones.
If you want the everything which you know is in store for you, there’s only one thing you need to do:
In order to drop fully into the now
And if you refuse to be all that you know you are divined to be in THIS moment?
How TF do you expect to be anything in the next?
Don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.