QUIT BEING EMBARRASSED ABOUT WANTING ALL THAT YOU WANT – YOUR SOUL DESIRES CAN LITERALLY NEVER BE WRONG OR BAD!

I have this thing with one of my besties, who I rarely get to see in person, where we audio each other every day, and basically give our ‘story’ of the day.

The story is a rundown of eeeeeevvvvvvverrrrythang that has been going on that day. Thoughts, downloads, ponderings, and also all possible juicy tidbits about all possible juicy things.

I’m sure you can imagine 😉

Typically we’ll ramble on to each other for anywhere from 8-20 or so minutes (sometimes multiple times per day, each!), and then finish it off with ‘so that’s my story for today!’ It’s quite an addictive little habit, but what it is also is, unwittingly, is an addition to the deep daily inner work which we both each do.

The process of unloading all your thoughts and updates to another person who you FULLY trust, who you can fully be yourself with and hide NOTHING, as you know there is literally zero judgement, is incredibly powerful. It’s akin to another form of journaling, diving in to your own shit, and, of course, in doing so – NOTICING.

Noticing little things, just in talking them over, in listening to your own out-loud rambles, which you may have otherwise not pulled yourself up on.

Take this morning –

My friend had asked me about a guy I dated a while back, and whether I thought there might be a chance of me wanting to see him again. If perhaps the reasons why it had been a no for me to continue were still there … or enough of a real reason, I guess.

The fact that she asked that just highlighted for me that actually in this case I HADN’T really told her the whole story as to why it wasn’t a fit for me. I’d given a few reasons which were definitely real and true, but when she repeated them back to me even I could see how flaky they sounded. Like, really? Was that really why I had stopped seeing him? It was a bit reminiscent of that Seinfeld episode where Jerry can never get a girlfriend ’cause he always finds one thing to highlight about where which he just can’t move past … big hands / close talker / etc. Haha.

Wanna know the truth?

I hadn’t actually thought about this before, I guess it was a sub-conscious ‘hiding’ that I’d done in not telling her the full story, but when I went to reply this morning and tuned in on it, it whacked me straight in the face –

I didn’t really want to say what the actual main reason was, because I felt like it made me seem a bit of a bitch, or kind of like ‘who the hell do I think I am?’ And so I found myself nearly about to actually LIE … well, edit the truth I guess, is a fairer description, (lol, same same?), and downplay what I was going to say.

I nearly said something like “well … the truth is, even though I probably shouldn’t say this and maybe I need to get over myself or am being harsh or a bitch, I just don’t think he’s playing on the same level as me”.

And then I stopped.

ACTUALLY –

No, I don’t need to get over myself.

No, I’m not being harsh.

No, I’m not being a bitch, either!

The truth is I DON’T think he was playing remotely on the same level as me, and what’s more there IS more –

I require a man to be playing at LEAST on the same level as me.

In multiple ways and areas.

In terms of who he IS, how he shows up, and also, yes, what he has created and allowed in to his life.

In fact ideally he would be playing on a level that challenges ME.

And it suddenly became clear to me that if I in ANY way think this is ‘not ok’ to say to even one of my closest friends, then how on EARTH am I going to call it in?

Because really, I don’t have to tell ya –

It’s an energy thing, isn’t it?

I’m either in the energy of THIS IS WHAT I GET TO HAVE AND JUST HOW IT IS AND I AM ABSOLUTELY CLEAR, THERE IS ZERO ROOM FOR CONFUSION, MY BOUNDARIES AND REQUIREMENTS ARE SET IN STONE AND THUS –

Can be delivered in the aligned time and way, since I put my order in damn clearly!

Or,

Well –

No!

You know?

If I hesitate –
If I hold back –
If I squirm and kinda say what I want but then APOLOGISE for it, or label it as maybe ‘too much’ –

Guess what I’m gonna get?

NADA

Well, nothing except a kinda sorta maybe somewhat version of what I really want.

You can’t get what you really want if what you repeatedly ask for and focus on is a kinda sorta maybe somewhat ‘I hope this is okay but prolly I shouldn’t ask for all that’ version of it!

That makes no sense 🙂

And it got me to thinking –

Where are YOU doing that same thing, in your life, hmmm?

Where are you being flaky or half-assed about asking for what you really want?

Where are you making your soul desires wrong or bad?

Where are you APOLOGISING for what you’re being shown from within is yours, and meant to be?

Wake up!!

YOUR SOUL DESIRES CAN LITERALLY NEVER BE WRONG OR BAD!

And if you’re being shown something from within, that.means.it’s.for.you!

You don’t need to get all EMOTIONAL about it, wavering back and forth on whether or not it’s appropriate! It’s not UP to you to decide whether or not it’s allowed, the fact that you were shown it is what shows you that it IS allowed!

It’s that freakin’ simple.

Black and white baby, so stop greying it up all over the place!

The getting of the things in life is very very simple.

1) You see them inside of you.
2) This is how you know they’re divined, meant to be.
3) (This works easier when you have a daily practice of connecting to soul).
4) You ACCEPT that they are YOURS because you’re not GIVEN a dream that is not yours to dream.
5) You accept also that they are not only yours, but available NOW, as you’re only ever shown things that ALREADY EXIST AND ARE AVAILABLE.
6) You say yes. Yes I will. Yes I commit. Yes, send it to me. YES, I will be the person who would naturally receive that, have that, become that.
7) You go be the damn person (repeat this daily)
😎 You also trust in the process, and surrender the outcome, knowing it’s always possible that there is something even better, and more aligned, which you’ve not yet seen or been shown (repeat this daily too)
9) You continue to claim it as done (yep, daily)
10) You go about the business of living your aligned life, and saying yes to what your soul shows you each next moment is for

I really don’t know why you’re trying to complicate it 🙂

It’s all just a very straightforward matter of observing what’s in your soul,

And boldly saying yes to it, no matter how ‘too much’ it is,

Then living in the now.

The reason you don’t get what you want is you continue to adjust, filter, downplay, apologise for, make more ‘acceptable’ what you’re seeing.

And I guess all I came here to say today?

Stop freakin’ doing that.

It’s stoopid.

And also kinda martyr-ish, in the boring and annoying way.

Claim what you came here to do.
Claim who you freakin’ are.
Claim what you get to have.

AND THEN GO FUCKING GET IT.

Don’t forget – !

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat

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