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Selfish Driven Crazy Aggressive Me
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Selfish Driven Crazy Aggressive Me

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Does it ever weigh heavily on your mind, when you think about how different you are to the norm, how DIFFICULT you are, how demanding you are, how damn high your standards and expectations are, not just for business but for life, for YOU?

Sometimes I honestly wonder if I should just go live on an island or something. Fully isolated from the world, except obviously with an awesome wifi connection 🙂

I just don’t feel at times like I’m cut out for the real world … or it for me.

And the biggest ‘problem’ with realising that truth (and it is truth) is that it’s not like I WANT to be, anyway.

Obviously.

So I have this problem … I guess you could call it … in that pretty much everyday I, at some point feel like I have to fight to justify who I am.

Too obsessed with work

Too driven

Too demanding

Wants it all

Now

If not sooner

Doesn’t see why she shouldn’t have it!

Impatient

Demanding

Diva

Bitch

Selfish with her time, energy, with who she invests it in or on what

Easily fed up and frustrated with the boredom and smallness of the normal life

Oh, did I forget to say harsh critic?

Impatient

Aggressive

Ridiculous at times with ideas of what’s possible (okay ridiculous a lot)

Won’t stand for shit – confrontational

Simply cannot handle small talk

WILL not handle idleness, lack of drive, lack of passion, WHILING away life on whatever shit people while away life on

Seriously, I have to stop myself right now or I could really just keep going all day here. And maybe I’m too hard on myself, but honestly. Nah. I’m not. I am all those things, and more.

I want it all.

Now.

And I don’t see why the hell I shouldn’t have it!

And of course I could sit here and write out a counter-list of all my ‘real world nice’ qualities .. it’s not like I’m just a walking talking bitch all day long … I can be nice … fun .. relaxed even! I play with my kids … sometimes I even watch TV … SOMETIMES I even CLEAN MY HOUSE (okay only to make my way through it). I can be ‘normal’ on the surface … present myself nicely … show the world what it needs if the occasion demands it …

But I just can’t be normal at the core of me.

Whatever the hell normal is.

And like I said … why the hell would I WANT to be normal?

Just take a look around and see where life ends UP for normal people? Fucking scary is where! I should give my LIFE for a mortgage, for safety, for being ‘up’ on the news and world events, for a holiday ocne a year or something? For putting security over adventure, for putting ‘doing the right thing’ over being driven?

Fuck that.

I’m selfish.

I’m aggressive.

I demand too much.

I’m defintely crazy.

And it’s not even about whether I’m OKAY with that it’s about the reality that THIS IS WHO I AM.

Ask me to change it?

Might as well ask me to change my skin colour.

Pointless.

So I don’t even know why I’m writing this anyway. I don’t really have any advice here. I guess I could talk about how to ‘manage’ your time and your energy and how to ensure you be the wife / partner / mother / friend / whatever you need to be for the other people in your life.

On that note: when it comes to the people you choose to spend time with, choose ones who love you as you are and FOR it not in spite of it! Just an idea. It’ll make life easier for both of you.

Of course it’s not always that simple.

There are not many people like us.

This is why we need to find each other, join together, be recognised and told it’s OKAY to BE this person.

And honey if this is resonating with you and you’re screaming yes that IS me then know:

IT IS OKAY TO BE THIS PERSON.

Yes you ARE crazy.

Yes you ARE selfish.

Yes you ARE aggressive.

Yes you ARE a God damn selfish bitch.

AND IT. IS. OKAY.

Okay?

And if you’re reading this and wondering what the hell I’m on about or thinking about what an awful person I am then seriously – fuck off.

You don’t get it. And that’s fine, I’m not writing to you anyway; don’t want you to get it, not going to try and get you to get it. So go find someone to follow who you get! Unsubscribe button is down the bottom of all my emails, okay? It’s there for a reason.

But if you get it …

And you not only get it but the truth is you actually LIKE that you are this driven, this outlandish, this DIVA WARRIOR who wants it all and knows she can HAVE it all, well then let’s just come to terms with it okay?

Stop pretending!

Stop trying to conform!

STOP FIGHTING WHO YOU ARE.

Do what you need to do to show up and be human for the people, or in the situations where it is needed. But do what you need to do to SHOW UP AND BE YOU, most of all.

Of course you might not be as aggressive, as fast-paced, as confrontational as me about it. Your style of wanting it all might be a different pace altogether.

But either way-

The dreams you dream beneath it all are not futile.

They don’t have to be just dreams.

They were put in your head and on your heart for a reason.

We have one life here gorgeous!

Sometimes I tell myself I should back off – settle – do the right thing – do what’s expected – stop wanting so much – and then I just think about this:

Will I look back and be glad I backed off, settled, slowed down, followed what I SHOULD do?

It’s pretty much impossible to say yeah – I’ll be so glad I dimmed the light on my dreams and true desires.

So I get up.

I square up.

I remind myself that being this person is NOT easy, and it DOES come at a price. Sometimes the price is even your relationships! The great thing is you ALWAYS get to choose the price you pay, in any area.

So you might as well pay a price for what you really want.

Either way, you’ll pay.

Whichever road you take, there will be things to sacrifice, things to endure.

I’d rather endure the pain and torment of living true to me then the pain and torment of showing up the way I think the world – or anybody in it – wants me to be.

Most people die at 30 – or sooner – and then just walk around for however many more years.

But living – truly living – is fucking tough gorgeous. It is a big thing to ask of yourself, to truly live! It will tear you apart and eat you alive!

But ultimately, do you even have a choice?

If right now you’re settling … tellling yourself this is how it has to be for now … putting up … CONFORMING in any way or just delaying on your dreams and what you really want …

I just have one thing to say:

When you finally get the courage to actually live the life you KNOW you were born for, are you going to be so glad you prolonged and drew out that process?

Or do you think that maybe – just maybe – ripping the cord and leaping into the life your soul SCREAMS for might be more fucking incredible than you could ever imagine?

I don’t have your answer.

But I know I have mine.

One life gorgeous. ONE FUCKING LIFE.

IS IT WORTH WHAT YOU’RE GIVING IT FOR?

I’ll leave you with that.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/