When you transcend to the next level there is no coming back from that place, you can never return, the old life is done, and now you gotta admit it, and also, oh, by the way –
Deal with your shit accordingly. Which can be a little bit of a bitch, can’t it now, and perhaps something we need to talk about? Perhaps even the EXACT reason why you’ve blocked that next level, pretended to yourself and the world that it’s not even a real THING, that next level place, person, business, you, that actually you already have or are the next level now, thank you very much, and LET ME PROVE TO YOU ALL THE REASONS WHY.
Wanna know how I know you’re full of shit, and kidding yourself?
Your list of reasons why baybeeee.
The fact that you keep trying to explain and prove yourself.
The very POSSIBILITY that it would even OCCUR to you to have to THINK about the damn situation, in your head or to your nearest and dearest, your counsel, the ones who, if we’re honest about it, are not gonna be at ALL surprised when you eventually stand up straight and own what is real, and announce (as though you think this is news) –
That actually you were kidding yourself.
Lying to yourself.
And playing SO very small.
And don’t you just think the whole thing would be so much EASIER, if you’d just admit it all to yourself right now?
That there is not even a tiny little part of you which thinks that the areas in which you are ACCEPTING, or trying to ‘make enough’, well, are.
And you know this.
And, well –
So why do you delude yourself in the way that you do, let’s go there, no?
I think the answer is this:
When you unleash your creative genius but TRULY –
When you meet someone who actually makes you go WOAH, fascinates you and holds your attention in a way that is SO next level it makes the other levels feel like they came out of a cardboard box (whatever that means) –
Or when you simply get tired of your own bullshit, and start showing up as the you who truly does not give a fuck, which is to say she gives SUCH a fuck finally about purpose, about alignment, about truth, that she simply STOPS TRYING TO BE ANYTHING EXCEPT FOR ALL OF HER –
The game is now changed, forever.
You just destroyed the old. Or God did it for you, whichever.
And now you are in limbo land, where you’ve had a taste of the new, and of how it SHOULD get to be, and, well –
Can’t return from that!
Now freaking WAY am I ever going to accept less than THAT now that I know it’s for real.
But oh, SHIIIITTTTTTTTT –
So then you go into thinking and worrying and what if-ing and you know what? That’s so BORING of you. So very NORMAL of you. So much conditioned FEAR coming from you, and also, by the way?
That is not necessary.
Because here is the thing about tasting the next level –
You were just shown the damn REALITY you’ve been avoiding.
What, you think God, life, soul, is TEASING you with this shit? Like – ‘here’s a little piece of it to taunt you but that’s all you get, now mush mush and go back to the old, to what you’ve been SETTLING for?’
That’s not how it works.
It wasn’t a TEASE, it was an invite.
A doorway opening.
What, you think life has been holding itself at arms length from YOU? No girl. YOU have been holding yourself at arms length from IT.
So if we’re being real about it (and of course we most certainly ARE), then the question is not ‘do I dare cut my ties from anything that is NOT on this level’, ‘do I walk away from the shit where I’ve been COMPLETELY bullshitting myself’, ‘do I now lay myself on the line to say that from this moment forward I ONLY play life like this, or better’, the question is, the QUESTION is, the question is –
There is no motherfucking question!
You’re either honest with yourself and you will now RUTHLESSLY and RELENTLESSLY and with FULL CASUAL FUCKING CERTAINTY run into the life which YOU have been hiding from, or, well, I dunno? You’ll continue to hem and haw and appraise and analyse and explain and ask and wonder?
How very Newtonian of you.
There’s nothing else to say here, this is it and the entire story.
Either you’re going to be honest with yourself about all that you crave and dream of and you’re going to DECIDE it’s available, thus making space energetically for it to show up for you, and then when it does you’re going to ADMIT THERE IS NO COMING BACK FROM THIS, or?
Not in THIS space.
Good luck, you’re gonna need it.
But for those who know? There’s nothing more you need to know, and also nothing you can un-know.
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