THE TOO MUCH GIRL, GOD VERSION
Sometimes I think I am too preachy.
Am I that person you go to lunch with and are silently wondering when on earth she is going to stop talking / ranting / excitedly carrying on about all her latest revelations?
Am I so high on my own internal supply that I can’t read the room and everybody is just waiting for me to go to the bathroom so they can shake their heads at how I hogged the conversation, how insistent I was that something NEEDED to be said?
In all honesty I think all of the above has absolutely been true at times.
Like most of my clients and friends, I’ve always been the too much woman. Even when I was a shy little girl who kept to herself I was still the too much girl on the inside! And she’d pop out from time to time too!
I just SEE things, you know?
I see things which I think should be different.
I see things which don’t make sense to me.
These days I see a lot of things which, in the Christian world, surprise me; even take me aback.
Why AREN’T we more upfront about what it really means to be saved?
Why DON’T people who might come to church 10x in a row know by now what they’re even being saved from?
Why do we shy away from conversations about tithing?
Why does half the internet think that having God in their life means they inserted the word God into their New Age vocab, and kept manifesting, queen, while doing whatever they want and being demonised as all get out yet spewing love and light language on the Facebooks and still have NO clue whatsoever of the actual freedom and supernatural equipping which life in God means and so therefore are seeking it every other place because all in all the idea of God still equals religion in most people’s minds, and with it often religious trauma!
It’s a real problem.
Not one I know the answer to, aside from to keep on saying what God leads me to say, writing what He leads me to write, putting my butt in the chair or my feet on the stage He puts me on, however much sense that makes or doesn’t make in MY mind, and simply saying “Lord, here I am. Use me for your purposes today”.
Here is what I do know though:
God calls you for things which are UNMISTAKABLY for you, and one way you know that?
You can’t stop talking about it.
You can’t stop thinking about it.
You try to put the thing down and it just rolls on back to you as though it were part of you because guess what – it IS!
This is as equally true if we’re talking business ideas and what you actually SHOULD create or walk forward with, as opposed to what you decided you should, as what it is with where or how you’re graced in ministry to talk about, as what it is with whether or not you should actually be bold or crazy (same same!) as to say something in *that* situation!
My friend who I had lunch with today (at which I ranted and raved on all the things, #obvs) said something which really just hit me in a new way.
I was talking about how scaled back, PRUNED, really, my business is now as compared with before.
It’s funny we have this idea that scaled back means BAD.
Lord I thank you for revealing your self and your truth to me again and again and for working a new thing THROUGH me, as you prune prune prune and continue to prune the dead, the not of you, the done, the no more which I was holding on to! Lord even in this moment I say break what needs breaking, take what needs taking, shake what can be shaken and wake in me all that you would have me see and all that is OF you! Let all that I do and am be to and through and of and for you and your glory Lord! In Jesus Mighty Name I pray, Amen!
Anyway. Just a lil prayer sidetrack there.
My friend said – “I guess it was what you were graced for in that season”. Having the big business.
And I thought, wow, yes.
I heard John Bevere speak earlier this year on the fact that the things which God supernaturally equips us for or is calling us to in THIS moment, these are things where there is a GRACING.
I mean … that is literally what supernaturally equipped means! It’s also what we are talking about when we say ‘Holy Spirit led’.
But for some reason the wording of being graced for a thing just works through every part of me.
The truth is that some of us are graced to say things which are not supposed to be said in places people wouldn’t dare to say them yet God said YES, and NOW.
Wanna know what He also says?
I am with you. Fear not. I am with you. I go before and beside and all around you, and my favour protects you like a shield. I bless your path as you walk forward, and I order your steps! I will NEVER leave or forsake you.
I don’t know how this hits you today.
I don’t know if it’s for you.
And if it is, I don’t even know in what way!
Perhaps there’s something you need to step up boldly and say.
Perhaps it’s closing a door because God is opening a new one, and now YOU don’t gotta be the one who sustains it.
Perhaps it’s a new creative project, a new course, or book, or show.
Perhaps it’s a conversation.
Perhaps it’s taking a deep breath and making a suggestion where God is showing you that there is something for you to bring.
Perhaps it’s simply admitting that there are things you’ve been pushing uphill and trying to make work which you flat out are not graced to do right now, or at all, or just in that way.
And instead leaning in to where there is a clear gracing, if only you’d listen. Where flow led by Him IS. Ya know?
I don’t know.
But I do know this.
He is calling you.
And His ways are beyond yours.
So stop trying to figure out or assess things,
and just start saying yes.
Now don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.
Kat
PS
Gorgeous.
Is it time you joined me in The Secret Garden?
Is God calling you?
Is He working on or at or in or all the way around and through you, and now it’s time to just FULLY surrender?
The Secret Garden is my membership, and the place to be in my space ongoing. It’s where I teach Holy Spirit led, where we drop in to prayer, to prophecy, to deliverance, to whatever He shows.
Where I stop thinking about what KAT thinks, and I simply say yes.
In this morning’s training, I simply said yes, and there was a LOOSING which occurred, as He led me in prayer and teaching in a way beyond the best of the best of ANYTHING I could conceive of.
He has anointed this space.
I am humbled and blessed daily by it.
There is a space for you, regardless of where you are or are not in your journey with God right now.
And we’d love to see you in.
Find your place,
and your people,
at www.thekatrinaruthshow.com/thesecretgarden
Oh, and?
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PPS
I love you and I’m praying for you! For real.
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