WHEN I DON’T FEEL GOOD ENOUGH
You’re not alone in not feeling good enough, some of the time and maybe a lot.
This morning I woke up early; a 430am start after a 1am finish, preparing to jet off once again to the US for a full 3 weeks of AWESOMENESS. I’ll be giving keynotes … running my own 3-day event … attending an awesome entrepreneur and creative getaway up on Powder Mountain … spending intensive time with clients … and no doubt posting on Facebook and otherwise social media-ing a lot of it, with added energy and rara on top!
The business I’ve created is one I am MASSIVELY proud of.
The fact that I have this incredible following of people who WANT to hear from me is freaking cool, and also: I know it’s what I was born for.
I KNOW my message is powerful.
I KNOW I can help people.
Yet at the same time, sometimes, I get this voice:
“Who the HELL do you think you are?”
“You’re making yourself look like a FOOL!”
“Oh my God! Just SHUT UP FOR A FEW HOURS, nobody cares or wants to hear all that stuff from you!”
As I got out of bed this morning I had this feeling of DISCOMFORT relevant to how much I post on social media.
I was thinking about some of the posts I did late last night, posting about how I was preparing my food for my flight today and how I planned to hack jet lag again, and I just felt like –
People probably just think I’m drawing attention to myself.
I AM just drawing attention to myself!
Why would anyone care, and I probably look like an overly excited DESPERATE LOSER.
That’s what my 4am brain had to say today!!
I pushed it aside, got up, started doing a bodyweight workout, thought about livestreaming it as I thought it was possibly inspiring and also helpful, but ’cause of the not good enough sh!t (and also, full disclosure, I was wearing boxers and nothing from the waist up whle doing the workout and couldn’t be bothered getting dressed!), I chose NOT to turn on the cam and livestream.
A lot of the time, when I have something to say, I choose not to.
I don’t do the livestream.
I don’t make the video.
I don’t write the post.
I don’t send the extra email.
I don’t make the offer.
I know that might be hard to believe considering how much content I DO produce, but honestly?
Same as anyone, I hold myself back at times.
I listen to the voices inside my head and sometimes they are freaking NASTY little bitches and they make me feel worried, or sad, or bad, or just plain old like I’m back in school not being cool enough and trying too hard.
Do you ever feel that way?
Like you’re trying SO DAMN HARD and everyone just thinks you’re an IDIOT?
Like you’re so self-important, when really you have NOTHNG of interest to say and nobody gives a damn?
Like you’re DELUDED to even consider building a business, let alone a personal brand and one based on what YOU have to say?
I FEEL THAT WAY.
Not every day.
Not even every week.
But sometimes, yes.
And sometimes, it drags on.
Do you want to know what I do, when I feel that way?
Well, sometimes I resist.
And DON’T say the thing.
I get the frick over it.
I have a coffee, I grit my teeth, I square my shoulders and I get back to WORK.
I write this BLOG, even, rather than keep it to myself.
Because I have a MESSAGE.
I am a LEADER.
I was born with a PURPOSE.
And I’ll be damned if I’ll let a little – or a lot! – of self-doubt sway me from living into it.
I’M NOT THAT SELF-INDULGENT.
And nor should you be.
It’s really not ABOUT you, don’t you see?
You have a message, you have a calling, you WERE born for a purpose AND YOU KNOW IT.
So get over your whingy-moany “I’m not good enough and maybe people don’t LIKE me” bullsh!t, and start showing up DAILY and doing the work you came here to do.
YOUR TRIBE NEEDS YOU.
And you deserve to live a life on purpose.
Life is Now. Press Play.
I kinda sorta did something REALLY not ideal! I made a mistake 😞
I then found about that mistake a day or so ago, when one of my amazing clients let me know!
I then fixed it of course, but since then something has been nigglin’ away at me telling me that maybe the mistake was a SIGN and a DIRECTION and I shoulda fixed it the other way!!
What am I talking about? My Easter Extravaganza Instant Manifestation Bundle, which is supposed to close TODAY in just a few hours, and contains 4 of my BEST money and manifestation courses, over 85% off!
As we do, we threw this thing together last minute like usual (aka KAT style) – and somehow managed to put THE WRONG PRICE on the sales page!!! ♀️
– Correct price on order form, when you actually click the buttons.
– Incorrect price on sales page. Doh.
The one on the SALES page was lower, about 25-30% lower than the already reduced 85% off! I think what happened is we copy and pasted off an old previous bundle sales page and so the old price just carried over.
Anyway, a few people pointed it out and obviously we honoured the mistaken lower price while fixing the page for future peeps.
BUTTT … I just felt ugh about it, y’know? Even though the lower price was a mistake! And even though the actual price was literally already 85% off for this offer!
It wouldn’t stop bugging me.
So, long story short, I’m changing it!
My Easter Extravaganza Bundle is now over NINETY PERCENT reduced … for anyone who already bought and paid full we will honour the lower price for you as well of course (watch out for an email later today!) and for everyone who has NOT yet, the price has now been adjusted on the sales page, DOWN!
And, because of the muck around and confusion, I’m extending my bundle sale for one more day into Easter Tuesday 🐣
Jump on now and grab four of my best Money and Manifestation courses now at 90% off, next 24 hours ONLY!!! 💥
Literally just as I finished writing this my brother walked in to my room with my (fixed!) phone. OF COURSE. Everything always works out in my favour. Just like I told ya. And just in time to snap a quick pic for this blog.
Get it! One more day! Lessssgooooo, now 90% off! https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/katrina-ruths-easter-bundle/ —> this price is CRAZY! Extra crazy!!
I wrote half of that with my eyes closed while having makeup done. #ninjaAF