YOU ARE ALWAYS SUPPORTED, ALWAYS LOVED, ALWAYS TAKEN CARE OF, AND YOU GET.TO.CHOOSE YOUR OUTCOMES
Yesterday I received an opportunity to take ownership of my life, and how I get to be supported and taken care of, in a next level way which I am certain will help me to grow and uplevel like a MOTHERFUCKER.
Of coursed on the surface of it … the things which at their CORE are most brought to serve you, can look or feel like something awful, upsetting, or scary.
A few months ago … and then a few before that … this same opportunity – or the POSSIBILITY of it – was presented to me, and I freaked the fuck out and did EVERYTHING I could do to try and force it away, to take CONTROL, to ensure that I got to keep having things the way I thought they had to be.
I didn’t want things to change! I didn’t know how I’d be able to handle that! It was DEFINITELY going to have a really negative impact on my life, and just fucking INCONVENIENT, and so I KNEW –
I had to do everything possible to resist.
Sometimes when you decide to ‘create your reality’, what you’re actually doing is allowing fear to keep its noose tightly wrapped around your neck, rather than actually acting from FLOW.
And here is the thing about flow:
It DOES in fact FEEL like flow.
It doesn’t feel like trying to keep things at bay.
It doesn’t feel like frantically pushing or pulling in order to not have to enter into discomfort.
It does NOT mean resisting growth … yes, even the PAINFUL growth!
And most of all? It doesn’t feel like having to make choices from fear, or from compromise or from some sort of idea that the only way to be HAPPY or to have things your WAY is to have certain things in place, and every person or element around you doing exactly what YOU think they need to be doing in order for you to be IN that flow.
In fact, as soon as you start attaching your own internal outcomes (flow, happiness, peace, joy, etc) to certain things that must be ‘just so’ in order for you to create them, you LOSE THE ENTIRE FUCKING GAME.
The game of flow? Yes, but ultimately also, this way, the game of life.
So as much as it’s totally GREAT to have things, practices, routines, support, stuff, etc, around you, that you desire and CHOOSE, there also gets to be an awareness that there is NOTHING you actually NEED, from the anybody else or any THING else, in order to be fully supported –
Fully taken care of –
And fully in your power and in CHOICE.
So what was it that happened, which has allowed me to tune in and receive this message, this download, this next level growth?
I found out yesterday that I get to now parent alone.
My kids Dad … who currently lives 5 minutes walk from me, and we share care back and forth day to day … gets to now make an aligned choice for him, to move back to our hometown of Melbourne, and start his new business there.
When our marriage was ending … a several year long thing, really, although officially only last year … when I was stepping more and more into admitting what was the higher purpose aligned choice for me … when things were shifting and changing and scary and perfect all at once and the day to day PRACTICALLY speaking as well as emotionally speaking was just a complete shit-show, I RAILED AGAINST THIS IDEA.
NO WAY, I said.
That won’t work! It can’t! And how could you POSSIBLY want to leave the kids anyway?!
And I did whatever I COULD to not.let.it.happen.
HOW WOULD I COPE, without that support?
And I look back now, and I get to notice with interest how in FEAR I was. How I was holding on SO tightly, scared of loss or lack. What scarcity! How fascinating. And also, now –
How much I have grown.
Oh, so much older and wiser now; just a few short months later 
And what I see is this –
I ALWAYS get to choose.
I ALWAYS get to choose.
I ALWAYS get to choose.
Choice and creating your reality doesn’t mean that you have to FORCE the world around you to conform though. Choice is about the INNER game … it’s about ‘what are the emotions’ I wish to embody? What do I get to choose to FEEL.
And what I choose is this:
I am supported, fully.
Life gets to be easy, and fun.
I am always taken care of.
Everything happens FOR me, not to me.
I am constantly given the chance to grow!
I get to learn all the time.
I am loved.
Everything always works out perfectly for me.
I always make the right decision.
I AM TAKEN CARE OF, and I have ALL the resources I need available to me at all times.
Don’t you think?
Yes.
And so here is where you get to take what you need from this:
Where are you holding on to a construct, an idea, that things need to be a certain way in order for you to be able to have the world around you work the way you think it MUST?
Where are you trying to FORCE things because you’re scared you can’t have the outcome you want if you don’t?
Where could you just let GO, gorgeous, and let flow SHOW you the way?
And how can you NOW get to decide what you can have inside of you – peace, love, support, joy, fulfilment, more – just based on the fact that EVERYTHING you need is inside of you.
Now.
And always.
When things happen in your life that initially feel SCARY and you resist them out of fear of what it will mean or how it will rock your boat (lol!), then what is REALLY going on is a massive opportunity for growth.
You get to learn.
You get to tune in.
You get to grow.
And baby?
You ALWAYS get to fucking receive.
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