Purpose

Your problem is you aren’t intense enough

Your problem is you aren’t intense enough.

You think that the answer is to slow down, make sure you take enough space between tasks or thoughts or breaths, be cautious, one little step at a time, but actually –

You the kind of woman that needs to wake up and live.

You spent all that time pushing TOO hard, for the wrong stuff, and selling yourself out on sleep or you time or fun or LIFE, because hey – it was the vibe you needed back then, or thought you did, and you SWORE-

You’d get past this bit.
You’d find a way to make it slow.
Calm.
Plenty of time to pause.
Breathe.
and be.

The fruits of your labours would pay off, just wait! And you’d spend your days merrily dancing through the snow and wind and field and doing all the flowy floaty stuff.

How fey!

But then you got here, you DID it, you did the damn thing, and boy oh boy, so much to be proud of, and even if you DIDN’T yet quite get there, you still got somewhere far enough along to recognise that IT IS OKAY TO GO SLOW, TO TAKE YOUR TIME, TO HAVE PLENTY OF TIME IN BETWEEN DOING THE THINGS AND THAT IN ACTUAL FACT THERE ARE NO THINGS YOU HAVE TO DO,

so yeah –

You did that.
Been doing that.
Working towards ever more of that.
The flow and ease life, yay!

Only thing is –

It’s kinda mofo boring. Is the truth of the matter. I mean, sure, it’s GREAT. And yes, of COURSE you want even greater receiving with even greater ease.

But at the same time –

it’s boring.
Or, maybe you’re not bored, hmm, maybe that’s not it at all.

Maybe you’re just tired. Yeah. How can you be bored, you’ve got too much still to worry about or think about or at least figure TF out, you’re definitely not bored!

You’re probably doing too MUCH still, and need to figure out how to balance it all better. Have some naps. Yeah!

Nah girl, nah.

The problem is you’re not intense enough.

You’re not vibing with LIFE.

You’re not in the whirling twirling fuck yes dance of the thing!

It’s like saying you wanna be on the field,
KNOWING that’s where you’re meant to be,
in the HEAT of it,
but yet somehow trying to find a way to just kinda … do a few drills now and then, with a nap in between.

THAT’S NOT WHAT PLAYING THE DAMN GAME LOOKS LIKE.

Not for YOU.
Not your game.

And while you absolutely can and should get to have alllll the naps and flowy floaty chill time,

or whatever it is your soul actually desires,

and indeed that is MORE than available for you,

NO IT’S NOT THE THING YOU’RE MISSING RIGHT NOW AND WHY YOU JUST NEVER REALLY PROPERLY FEEL ON.

That thing is you.
It’s only you.
It CAN only be you.
The MISSING LINK IS YOU.

YOU,

doing the damn job of being all of you.

Being IN the thing,
SHOWING UP FOR THE ENERGY AND VIBE AND FUCK YESERY YOU WISH YOU HAD.

Not the one you think you can afford to right now.

>> ENERGY | CREATIVITY | MAGIC | FUCK YESERY FLOWS FROM YOU THROWING YOURSELF REPEATEDLY OFF THE DAMN CLIFF, INTO THE DAMN THING, ALL THE WAY UP IN THAT VOID. NOT FROM YOU WAITING FOR IT TO HAPPEN UPON YOU. <<<

You know?

So instead of being SCARED of being more of you,

what if you just decided that you already have what it takes to handle that,

thrive on it,

and indeed LIVE by it.

I mean really –

who TF else were you actually planning to keep on trying to be?