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DESTINY AT YOUR FINGERTIPS

Sooner or later, you will have to give in to the yearning within you, and admit that no matter how much you achieve or how far you go or what high heights you reach, NONE of it is going to fill that need.

That hole, that ache, that void, that place where only one thing can ever go, and the one thing of course is YOU BEING WHO YOU ARE MEANT TO BE.

You can live your entire life

(If you like!)

Roaming the world

(If you like!)

Seeing it all, doing it all, having it all and even BECOMING the damn thang but if you don’t give your life for THAT thing?

It doesn’t matter.

Not even a little bit.

No, not at all.

And you will continue to search!

You will continue to roam!

You will continue to seek!

You will continue to long for a place where you feel HOME, and so you will work SO hard, do SO much, endure ALL the pain and hardship and struggle and push and you will really EXCEL –

Beyond where most dare or even care to dream!

And it STILL
Won’t be enough.

The world will look at you and marvel at how you’re the best, you’re amazing, ‘just look at her’, WOW!

And you’ll smile
Incline your head gracefully
Give a graceful moue of the shoulders
As you turn away
Hair floating so beautifully behind you
As though you too agree that you really are QUITE amazing, and oh –

Somebody has to be!

But what they don’t see, what they won’t see, what even YOU refuse to allow yourself to see, is how the moment, the very MOMENT the cameras are off –

The people have stopped gushing –

And you have stopped smiling and laughing and saying ‘oh, you’re so kind!’ –

Your face sets into immediate
Deep
Unshakeable
Undeniable
Sorrow
Heartache
HARDNESS, too

A certain bitterness carried by a certain type of woman, you KNOW of that which I speak

She’s done so much
She is so much
Just LOOK at how she shines

She’s beautiful
And so accomplished!
An inspiration
To be sure

She floats and she flys and she sparkles and she shines, and when we catch a glimpse of her in her brilliance we ALL want to be like her!

But not so far beneath the surface (and you can feel this, if you’re honest) –

She exists in the DEPTHS OF DESPAIR

She is so broken
So tired
So lost
So empty
And so
fucking
scared

Is THIS all there is?

Is THIS what is supposed to fill me, lift me, save me, and allow me to breathe?

Because GOD –

DEAR GOD –

I’ve done it all! I’ve made it! I DID what they said to do and I am the BEST, I’m ALWAYS the best, just LOOK at all I’ve done and created and allowed and become, I DID it, I fucking DID it, and why

WHY God

Do I still feel like this?

Why am I still floating FREE like this, unable to tether, unable to ground, unable to even BREATHE most of the time?

As I smile smile smile for my adoring fans

And flick flick flick my perfect perfect hair

And laugh girlishly on my little videos with just the right amount of filter

And show the world

How successful

I am

And how successful

They could be

If they just

Did like me

And the whole time, the WHOLE time, the WHOLE entire fucking time, no matter HOW far I run, HOW high I climb, HOW aggressively I push, and create, and BECOME –

It’s still not enough.

And not even close.

And she thinks back to a time,

When she felt certain
When she felt excited
When she KNEW

When she was connected to destiny, to purpose, to the muse, to her heart

It was long ago,
It was yesterday

It was no time,
And every time

And it’s just RIGHT there, she can feel it, she could reach out and grasp it, except that when she does,

It’s gone

A flicker
A gasp
A whisper
A sigh

And maybe it was never there at all

And so she turns
Lost,
Screaming,
Desperate,
Wondering
And smiles BRILLIANTLY for the world, because SHE is the SUCCESSFUL one

Oh yes,

I know of these things.

Will I tell you?

Will I remind you?

What you already know and yet need to hear again,

And again,

And again,

And AGAIN?

YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO WALK AWAY.

YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO LEAP.

YOU ARE GOING TO HAVE TO STOP BEING SO BLOODY CAUTIOUS.

Oh, you think it’s UNREASONABLE, that becoming all you were born to be should require you to drop so FULLY into the void?

You think there should be some kind of more realistic way to transition from the WRONG life to the SOUL one?

You think I don’t understand,

Just what it would cost you,

And how you can’t afford to,

Walk away?

OH!

I UNDERSTAND.

And I WILL tell you what you already know,

And what we came to speak of today.

Nothing.

But NOTHING.

NOT A SINGLE THING.

No matter how great.
How amazing!
How admired!
How adored.
And NO VERSION OF YOU WHICH YOU SCULPT YOURSELF INTO, either.

Will be enough.
Will fill the hole.
Will allow you to actually SLEEP.
BREATHE.
Or LIVE.

Not a little bit.
NOT AT FUCKING ALL.

NO-
THING.

Except?

The one thing.
The same thing.
It’s always been.
Your thing.
You KNOW the thing.

Isn’t it time to stop running?

Isn’t it time to stop accomplishing everything ELSE?

Isn’t it time to stop working so damn hard to prove you’re enough, have done enough, are the best?

You were born enough.

You’ve always HAD enough.

And you will always BE enough.

For the thing it’s meant to be about for you.

But being enough,
Knowing enough,
And having it right there, available to you, destiny, at your fingertips – !

It means nothing
Unless you do the damn thing

So walk away my darling
And stop lying
As you grin grin grin
While you give your life
To everything the world thinks SO amazing and wow!
And then cry cry cry
As you move relentlessly forward on your way to die
Because you never cared about any of it
Not a little
No, not at all

But hey – !

You looked GREAT on Instagram.

 

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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