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Purpose

I SUCK AT FOLLOWING THROUGH

Today I am very much feeling the pull of NOT honouring my commitments, of walking away from what is planned, what I ‘should’ do, and what I said I would.

It’s a funny thing, don’t you think?

How, even after all these years and all this work (OH, how we do the work!), we still have such deep conditioning around SHOULD.

I remember being in my mid-twenties, walking to the gym where I was a personal trainer every morning at 5am, and listening as I did so to Tony Robbins – my mentor and guide since I was 11 years old, actually! – passionately exclaiming that I was ‘shoulding all over the place!’.

I know he was saying it just for me 

And yet still to this day, there’s that AWKWARDNESS and squirminess I feel when I bow out on something I said yes to.

Like just now, for instance, sending a message to say “I’m not going to come today. (to the retreat which I’m here in Ibiza attending). I’m strongly feeling the desire to drop into some solo soul nourishment, just writing, messaging, a massage, walking in to the Old Town again, and so I’m going to follow that soul guidance”.

Squirm!

And yet, at the same time – ahhhhhhhh. BREATH. And certainty, that this is what I was meant to do today.

Turn away.
And in doing so, make space to drop deeper in.

The mind wants to tell you that failing to follow through on something you said you would do is bad! Wrong! Lazy! Unprofessional! Impolite, perhaps! And, worst of all, a SIGN THAT YOU’RE NOT GONNA MAKE IT.

Well, I think it’s fair to say I’ve ‘made it’ quite nicely in my business and in my life. I’m certainly never done – OH, how the work continues! – but I did the thing of creating a multi-million dollar PURPOSE driven empire, where I get to wake up each day, just be me, follow the flow of the day, and do it ALL on my terms, all while honouring ALL the areas of my life which I value.

Wanna know I made that happen??

You already know 

It was – and is – by following the damn flow.

In the past, I would have said I’m a ‘non-finisher’.

Nearly EVERY thing I have committed to along the way, I’ve walked away from! Business, and personal! I am FABULOUS at walking away from things before they’re done, before I said I would.

Back when I had jobs, when I was about 19 or 20 or so, I was infamous for going on my lunch break and then never returning! Even the fact that my irresponsible exit resulted in me not getting a final week salary, I would just walk, and never once look back.

My freedom mattered more to me.

The amount of seminars, and learning experiences I’ve walked out on, too! Oh boy, I remember when I went to Landmark. A friend had RAVED about it, and so I signed up. Within 10 minutes of being in the room I KNEW it wasn’t for me. Sorry NOT sorry, but I was already SO far beyond the work they were doing there, in terms of my own inner work. And this over a decade ago!

I stuck it out for a few hours, and then – as with SO many things in my life which I’ve early exited on – I just COULDN’T.

I had to escape.

Well, they were having none of it! They made me do an EXIT interview. They literally sat me down and grilled me on every area of my life, looking for somewhere I wasn’t content.

“How about your mother? Your father? Daddy issues? Stress? Happiness? General malaise?”

Stubbornly, I insisted that everything was perfect and needed no work, but actually I remember thinking – huh. I really DO have none of these issues. I’d just spent a heavy year or two walking away from my entire life (first marriage, job, life savings, everything except my cat, basically!) and re-creating the whole damn thing, and I was truly on path.

Finally they let me out, and I walked down the block to the Arts Centre in Melbourne, and went to the Museum. I felt SO FREAKING FREE!

MOST educational events I have been to I have walked out of by lunch on the first day.

Of course there have been exceptions, and in fact the work that I am doing here this week, in this 7-day Body Awakening retreat is NEXT LEVEL. I am LOVING it. There’s nothing I desire to walk away from. It’s been an INCREDIBLE experience, not just to drop stories and attachment around food (it’s raw vegan) but also with the DEEP healing work we’ve been doing in the quantum, on the chakral systems, with sex and love trauma, DNA recoding and frequency work, family lineage work, bathing in magnetic seas, and much more!

It’s one of the best things I have ever invested in.

So why am I breaking my commitment, and not attending today?

It’s simple:

My commitment is first and foremost to my soul. So in actual fact, what I’m doing is staying TRUE to my highest values.

For all that I’ve always been that person walk walk walking away, repeatedly FAILING to finish SO many things in my life, squirming and avoiding and feeling like I ‘should’ do something and then inevitably giving in and bailing anyway, somehow –

Some way –

I’ve built all this.

I think that’s a pretty strong testimonial for following soul, don’t you?!

This morning I journaled on dropping deeper into my message, my writing, my soul work. On how I HATE that ‘hurtling’ feeling I sometimes get, where I’m putting out content and doing my thing but yet not quite DEEPLY connecting … rushing too much to do so, or coming at things from a place of scarcity or ‘should’ … and how CRITICAL it is to me to make space to let the message out, however it must COME out.

It takes great courage, to be an artist.

It takes GREATER courage still, to be an artist who is disciplined enough to say no to anything which is taking AWAY from that art, when it is always, and only, the art, and the following of soul which matters most.

I used to think that failing to follow through was a flaw.

Now I understand that in actual fact? It might just be the most powerful discipline I’ve ever cultivated.

And I wonder –

Do you, today, feel you can be brave enough to choose soul? To choose purpose? To choose passion? To choose flow?

The higher commitment is to soul, and to highest self, remember this.

And as you do so, take a moment, and take note –

Think about your business, for example, and what it is you put out into the world.

Are you MEANT to be doing what you’re doing right now? Hurtling and flailing and pushing and TRYING to get people to hear you, trying to get people to buy something that you would NOT talk about all day and night if you weren’t getting paid for it?

What is it you can’t shut up about? Sell and stand for THAT!

It’s ALWAYS been the thing it’s always been!

And if that doesn’t relate, for business, then know this:

In life, it’s always been the thing it’s always been.

What you want, is what you’ve ALWAYS wanted.

And your soul has known, the entire time, what it needs.

This week, as we come into Halloween, the time when the veil is thinnest and we have powerful access to our intuitive powers, beyond even the norm, powerful access to the other realms, and spaces, and places, I urge you –

Drop deeper into your truth.

The closer you live to it, the more everything is revealed.

Flows.

And is known.

Just as it’s always been.

You can continue to live for should, and make yourself a pretty nice life.

Or you can live for soul, and create the world you dream of.

📷– Ibiza Old Town, view from the castle which I walked up to yesterday

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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