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Purpose

I SUCK AT FOLLOWING THROUGH

Today I am very much feeling the pull of NOT honouring my commitments, of walking away from what is planned, what I ‘should’ do, and what I said I would.

It’s a funny thing, don’t you think?

How, even after all these years and all this work (OH, how we do the work!), we still have such deep conditioning around SHOULD.

I remember being in my mid-twenties, walking to the gym where I was a personal trainer every morning at 5am, and listening as I did so to Tony Robbins – my mentor and guide since I was 11 years old, actually! – passionately exclaiming that I was ‘shoulding all over the place!’.

I know he was saying it just for me 

And yet still to this day, there’s that AWKWARDNESS and squirminess I feel when I bow out on something I said yes to.

Like just now, for instance, sending a message to say “I’m not going to come today. (to the retreat which I’m here in Ibiza attending). I’m strongly feeling the desire to drop into some solo soul nourishment, just writing, messaging, a massage, walking in to the Old Town again, and so I’m going to follow that soul guidance”.

Squirm!

And yet, at the same time – ahhhhhhhh. BREATH. And certainty, that this is what I was meant to do today.

Turn away.
And in doing so, make space to drop deeper in.

The mind wants to tell you that failing to follow through on something you said you would do is bad! Wrong! Lazy! Unprofessional! Impolite, perhaps! And, worst of all, a SIGN THAT YOU’RE NOT GONNA MAKE IT.

Well, I think it’s fair to say I’ve ‘made it’ quite nicely in my business and in my life. I’m certainly never done – OH, how the work continues! – but I did the thing of creating a multi-million dollar PURPOSE driven empire, where I get to wake up each day, just be me, follow the flow of the day, and do it ALL on my terms, all while honouring ALL the areas of my life which I value.

Wanna know I made that happen??

You already know 

It was – and is – by following the damn flow.

In the past, I would have said I’m a ‘non-finisher’.

Nearly EVERY thing I have committed to along the way, I’ve walked away from! Business, and personal! I am FABULOUS at walking away from things before they’re done, before I said I would.

Back when I had jobs, when I was about 19 or 20 or so, I was infamous for going on my lunch break and then never returning! Even the fact that my irresponsible exit resulted in me not getting a final week salary, I would just walk, and never once look back.

My freedom mattered more to me.

The amount of seminars, and learning experiences I’ve walked out on, too! Oh boy, I remember when I went to Landmark. A friend had RAVED about it, and so I signed up. Within 10 minutes of being in the room I KNEW it wasn’t for me. Sorry NOT sorry, but I was already SO far beyond the work they were doing there, in terms of my own inner work. And this over a decade ago!

I stuck it out for a few hours, and then – as with SO many things in my life which I’ve early exited on – I just COULDN’T.

I had to escape.

Well, they were having none of it! They made me do an EXIT interview. They literally sat me down and grilled me on every area of my life, looking for somewhere I wasn’t content.

“How about your mother? Your father? Daddy issues? Stress? Happiness? General malaise?”

Stubbornly, I insisted that everything was perfect and needed no work, but actually I remember thinking – huh. I really DO have none of these issues. I’d just spent a heavy year or two walking away from my entire life (first marriage, job, life savings, everything except my cat, basically!) and re-creating the whole damn thing, and I was truly on path.

Finally they let me out, and I walked down the block to the Arts Centre in Melbourne, and went to the Museum. I felt SO FREAKING FREE!

MOST educational events I have been to I have walked out of by lunch on the first day.

Of course there have been exceptions, and in fact the work that I am doing here this week, in this 7-day Body Awakening retreat is NEXT LEVEL. I am LOVING it. There’s nothing I desire to walk away from. It’s been an INCREDIBLE experience, not just to drop stories and attachment around food (it’s raw vegan) but also with the DEEP healing work we’ve been doing in the quantum, on the chakral systems, with sex and love trauma, DNA recoding and frequency work, family lineage work, bathing in magnetic seas, and much more!

It’s one of the best things I have ever invested in.

So why am I breaking my commitment, and not attending today?

It’s simple:

My commitment is first and foremost to my soul. So in actual fact, what I’m doing is staying TRUE to my highest values.

For all that I’ve always been that person walk walk walking away, repeatedly FAILING to finish SO many things in my life, squirming and avoiding and feeling like I ‘should’ do something and then inevitably giving in and bailing anyway, somehow –

Some way –

I’ve built all this.

I think that’s a pretty strong testimonial for following soul, don’t you?!

This morning I journaled on dropping deeper into my message, my writing, my soul work. On how I HATE that ‘hurtling’ feeling I sometimes get, where I’m putting out content and doing my thing but yet not quite DEEPLY connecting … rushing too much to do so, or coming at things from a place of scarcity or ‘should’ … and how CRITICAL it is to me to make space to let the message out, however it must COME out.

It takes great courage, to be an artist.

It takes GREATER courage still, to be an artist who is disciplined enough to say no to anything which is taking AWAY from that art, when it is always, and only, the art, and the following of soul which matters most.

I used to think that failing to follow through was a flaw.

Now I understand that in actual fact? It might just be the most powerful discipline I’ve ever cultivated.

And I wonder –

Do you, today, feel you can be brave enough to choose soul? To choose purpose? To choose passion? To choose flow?

The higher commitment is to soul, and to highest self, remember this.

And as you do so, take a moment, and take note –

Think about your business, for example, and what it is you put out into the world.

Are you MEANT to be doing what you’re doing right now? Hurtling and flailing and pushing and TRYING to get people to hear you, trying to get people to buy something that you would NOT talk about all day and night if you weren’t getting paid for it?

What is it you can’t shut up about? Sell and stand for THAT!

It’s ALWAYS been the thing it’s always been!

And if that doesn’t relate, for business, then know this:

In life, it’s always been the thing it’s always been.

What you want, is what you’ve ALWAYS wanted.

And your soul has known, the entire time, what it needs.

This week, as we come into Halloween, the time when the veil is thinnest and we have powerful access to our intuitve powers, beyond even the norm, powerful access to the other realms, and spaces, and places, I urge you –

Drop deeper into your truth.

The closer you live to it, the more everything is revealed.

Flows.

And is known.

Just as it’s always been.

You can continue to live for should, and make yourself a pretty nice life.

Or you can live for soul, and create the world you dream of.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat

PS

Healed begins tomorrow gorgeous, will you join me?

It’s the most powerful work that has ever been shown to me …

Relationship Healing
Money Story Healing
Self-Worth Healing
Healing From Shame, Blame, Guilt, and the Idea You Must Pay Penance
“I Am” Healing
Healing From Sabotage, and So-Called Bad Behaviour
Body Shame, and Mis-treatment Healing
Disregard of Purpose, and Frittering Away Your Life or Living the Wrong Life Healing
Spiritual Healing, Energetic and Other-Worldly / Other Realm, Ignoring of Magic Healing
Being Another Person Healing, Living For Another Person Healing, False Responsibility Healing
Parenting Healing, Childhood Healing, Family Healing
Grieving Soul Healing, and the Placing of Ego Ahead of Higher Self
Healing from the Idea of Needing Healing

And so much more.

www.thekatrinaruthshow.com/healed – Release the Old. Become What You Always Were.

📷– Ibiza Old Town, view from the castle which I walked up to yesterday

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