GOD I NEED YOU AND I NO LONGER DESIRE TO DO IT WITHOUT YOU

At some point you are going to have to give in to being who you really came here to be.

At some point you are going to have to snap those pretty little eyes open, admit they’ve been blinded, covered, deceived, deluded to a point of distraction and destruction beyond what you have possibly admitted or thought could ever happen to YOU,

and come before the Lord Most High confessing:

GOD I NEED YOU AND I NO LONGER DESIRE TO DO IT WITHOUT YOU.

I’m not talking about that oh-so-popular in these here questionably hallowed internet halls thing where you now start to fling the word God around in your conversation, interchanging HIM with the things He CREATED, like the Universe or ‘power’ or ‘source’ or ‘knowing’.

I’m not talking about God as your comfort blankie, ‘now that I say God and that I am hearing from Him I can surface-level feel better about myself aka delude myself further into being safe, fine, spiritually WELL or at ALL on track either in this realm or beyond, when in actual fact I am continuing to do precisely what MY will way and thoughts determine’.

No.

And believe me –
I KNOW.

But no. I’m talking about the bit where you actually reach a line in the sand sort of a moment.

An enough is enough point.

A point of realising and finally being willing to admit:

GOD I NEED YOU.
SEND REVIVAL LORD.
AND SEND IT RIGHT HERE, IN THIS HUMAN RIGHT HERE.
WAKE ME.
SHAKE ME.
BREAK WHATEVER NEEDS BREAKING OFF OF ME.
AND USE ME LORD,
FOR YOUR PURPOSES,
EVERY LAST PART OF ME.
I AM READY.
I AM WILLING.
EVERYTHING I HAVE I LAY DOWN BEFORE ME, NOW SHOW ME PLEASE WHAT ELSE, BECAUSE AT THIS POINT?

I don’t see what else I can do.
If not live fully for you.

When you get to this point, it is NOT necessarily easy, and it certainly FEELS as though it is not simple although in truth,
it is.

And really what it comes down to,
is this:

I just can’t keep going the way I am going.
Yes I am scared.
Yes I know it will obviously cost me many things which *I* created or built. Am committed or addicted to, or simply don’t WANNA give up.
And yes.

I am giving in anyway.
To who it was I was always meant to be.
Destiny,
fulfilled,
rightly
(as only it can be)
in Him.

For me this moment was exactly what I wrote above. A simple ‘and now I am done’ point. A ‘then I finally got there’ point of acknowledging that I DID know the whole time I was running from God, and I DID know the whole time that at some point I would fully submit to Him, and I DID know the whole time that every breath of my being was meant for Him,

and specifically –
this. My work.
My message.
This.

But truly,
every every every EVERY part of me.

Now here is the thing which they don’t necessarily tell you in whichever school of life or even the Lord you’ve been in –

When you become set on fire for the Lord, but truly, you will be SHOCKED to the core, and in horror and awe at what the life you THOUGHT was ‘not so bad’ was actually costing you.

I hope you break and break and break as much as I did, and indeed continue to.
I pray that every part of you which is not RIGHT, according to the design of the CREATOR, is broken off you.
I hope you shake at the true power He places in you, and reveals to you.
I hope your eyes become KINGDOM EYES.
Your prayers His voice.
Your breath HIS breath.
And your ears,
tuned only to His way.

I pray this costs you EVERYTHING which was never OF Him.
As you finally experience the beyond explanation freedom of walking IN Him.

Today, if this is speaking to you, I urge you, simply,

pray this prayer –

SET ME ON FIRE FOR YOU LORD.
LET ME BREATH BE A BATTLE CRY,
MY LUNGS FILLED WITH YOU,
AND MY PRAYERS FOR MY LIFE AND THIS EARTH,
BE YOUR VOICE.

Break me.
Wake me.
Shake me.
And MAKE me,
of you.

LORD IN HEAVEN, this is your child, _______, calling out to you. I am asking you to answer me. And to show me great and mighty things of which I do not yet know.

I surrender my way.
And I say I am yours.

In Jesus Name,
Amen.
Amen.
And Amen.

And then?

JUST WATCH WHAT HE DOES.

Now don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat

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