REACH IN AND GRAB THEM BY THE SOUL
I’m having one of those days where I feel a little disconnected, a little disjointed, a little sad, a little flat and down, and above all of that a little fucking IRRITATED at not being automatically just in the flow zone where I know exactly what to say, how to say it, how to show UP!
Do you ever feel that way? Like, as much as you want to acknowledge and if need be even process some not great energy the most annoying part of it is that it’s just a freaking DISTRACTION from doing your thang?!
I alternate between super grumpy, when I’m not ‘on’, or being super nice to myself about it, honouring my need, perhaps, to switch off, walk away, go within, etcetera. Right now I’m feeling like – fuck THAT. I spend plenty of time going within and doing my INNER shit, right now I just want to feel RARING TO FUCKING GO; is that too much to ask?!
I’m about to get my period … either that or I’m accidentally pregnant, which would be just fabulous … and I’m getting SUPER analytical about just how sore my boobs are right now and whether they’re USUALLY sore at all before my period, and if so then how much?? Apparently I go through a minor panic around this every month. According to my BF who sent me laughing-face emojis with a comment that YOU SAY THIS EVERY MONTH when I sent her a freak out ‘maybe I’m pregnant’ message. I found this slightly disrespectfully jocular of her, to laugh at me, whilst also being obviously relieved to hear it.
Yep. Add that to the drawer of things I probably shouldn’t write in blog posts!! But you know what – whatEVER. We’re all going through the same shit here, the being human stuff, in some way shape or form … no need to be coy about it, NOR to shame on ourselves about it.
So anyway – maybe that’s why the grumpy mood. The period thing. Let’s manifest my PERIOD in the next day or two, yes! Okay, done and #DONE.
Or maybe it’s just, I don’t know – sometime you wake up on the wrong side of your superhero bed and you just don’t FEEL like doing life today. But then you also don’t feel like NOT doing life.
You don’t wanna be on.
You don’t wanna be off.
You don’t wanna do ANYTHING, in particular!
You just wanna FEEEELLLLLLLL good, so you can be that You 2.0 badass now!
Yep … you know!! I know.
And here is what I think about, when I have a day like this, or at least here is what I’m thinking right now:
THANK YOU, firstly.
Thank you body, thank you mind, thank you spirit, thank you soul. For the opportunity to HAVE to press pause. For the mirror held up in front of my face. For the CONFRONFUCKINGTTATION I’m feeling oozing out of my every pore right now. For the irrational irritation I feel at every person who has so far today dared to breathe near me.
For the reminder of how GREAT I normally do feel.
Thank you for the deep knowledge, underneath it all, that no matter what I DO in fact still get to choose my inner state.
Thank you for the ‘wish it would shut up sometimes’ voice inside of my head reminding me right now that despite it all?
I can still show up.
I can still be me.
I can take aligned action.
And that this too, shall pass.
Oh, and that when it does or even perhaps before or even perhaps right NOW, I’ll receive whatever I was MEANT to fucking receive from this little detox, or big uplevel, or just plain and simple day of BLAH.
There’s always a lesson.
The times we feel in struggle or stuck or fear or HOLY FUCKING SHIT WHAT IF are the times for the GREATEST growth opportunity. Side note: please don’t message me to check if I’m pregnant or to inquire as to my sexual conduct etc. I will tell the world if that bit is true. I’m quite sure it’s not, because of, well, what I wrote earlier. And also just FYI my team read my messages before me, and yes, I’m happy with my contraceptive choices. lol … I know I don’t need to say this but I also know that anytime I REMOTELY reveal anything personal like this 25 people see it as an unasked for possible business / coach Kat opportunity. Anyway:
Lessons and growth opps aside, what a POWERFUL chance all of this is to remind myself of the underlying beliefs I hold to be true, about business, about life, about me, about ALL of it.
Like my belief that everything is ALWAYS perfect and just as it’s meant to be … that I always make the right choice … that I’m always on the perfect aligned pathway … that I am infinitely taken care of by God and my Self … that everything happens FOR me … that the better it gets, the better it really does get!
And so on.
And so forth.
In fact just in writing this out I’m now thinking how DAMN grateful I am to HAVE the chance to be reminded of the stuff I preach and teach each day and DO IN FACT LIVE BY AND BELIEVE!
Thank God for days when you don’t know which way your head is on, and you feel like disconnected garbage!! Haha. I’m feeling better already.
But here’s the thing, about what I just wrote on ‘I can still show up, I can still be me, I can still take aligned action, and this too, shall pass’:
You know, yesterday on a second session client call, one of my soul tribe (one of you!) confessed to me that she just doesn’t know how she can possibly do it all, do as much as I do.
Of course it’s not about doing what I do, or keeping up with me, but I got what she was saying. It seems so vast and never-ending when you’re at the start of your entrepreneur journey, or you just want to actively LEAP to the next level, or even, well, actually, ha, it always seems so vast and never-ending. Just so you know! That never goes away, there is ALWAYS more to do, always more you could do or feel you’d love to do.
And here is how I’ve done it.
Here is how I’ve taken a little built-in-a-box by myself website I set up with black background and garish neon colours in 2006 … “kickasslifetraining.com” … funny that! … and then my first ever blog which kicked off in 2007 … “Life is Now. Press Play”, I started writing at the end of every post, and I wish I could fully remember where THAT came from … and then my first ‘official’ blog which I started in 2008 – “Body Incredible: Nutrition, Fat Loss and Motivation” … which I launched because I thought it might help my business at the time as a personal trainer; help me get more clients and maybe some corporate gigs – which it did – and besides, I kind of thought maybe I wasn’t going to BE a personal trainer forever and I DID like writing a lot … here is how I’ve taken all of that and somehow created:
– A multiple 7-figure empire which 3-4x’s in revenue each year.
– A SO soul aligned and perfect soulmate client base and online tribe you wouldn’t believe it if you weren’t part of it.
– In excess of several hundred low right through to high end products, programs, membership sites and mentoring / coaching offers over the past 11 years
– A business and a life where all I do each day is wake up and be ME, and I now get to fully make money doing what I love and being who I AM, besides which living my dream life and actively having MY version of ‘it all’
Yes, here is how I DO so much and how I DID it all –
In whatever state I am.
And let whatever comes out of me, come out.
How is my RANDOM BIZARRE way of doing biz possibly able to make me the money it does, how is what I’m writing about today, for example, remotely relevant to what I’m then going to offer you to BUY?
How is it NOT.
The whole freaking thing is just me –
Living my life.
And letting you in.
And oh, as to how to do that whole ‘attract in your cult fans who never wanna stop following or buying from you thing’?
You just reach in.
And grab ’em by the soul.
Best way to do that?
Show them yours.
Don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.