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YOU DON’T HAVE TO PLAY COY WITH GOD

I don’t know at what point you decided you have to be all coy and shy and Little House on the Prairie vibes with God, tiptoeing carefully around in a solemn and softly-spoken away –

“Is this okay God?”

“If you don’t mind – “

“Oh please Sir, can I have some more?”,

but, well –

you do not.
That is not a thing.
And never was.

At some point along the way, someone or something (LET’S JUST CALL IT INSTITUTIONALISED RELIGION SHALL WE?! Combined perhaps with a hefty dose of shame / fear / whatever from who / knows / doesn’t matter) taught us to be separated from God, and that there were hurdles that must be jumped in order to access Him –

That any asking which goes one is basically irreverent AF before it even leaves your mouth – how dare you CONSIDER it, you absolute WENCH! – and that if you do manage to be so disrespectful / needy / demanding, then you BETTER make sure you’re doing it in a way which is ONLY ABOUT ASKING FOR THE BARE MINIMUM, THE OBVIOUS, THE NOT TOO MUCH.

No?

Just me?

Maybe it IS just my story, that somewhere along the way I decided that to ask for more, to choose to NEED more, or certainly to be anything that could remotely be labeled as demanding, was absolutely unacceptable –

Made me appear weak, or ungrateful, or unfaithful –

And that I should only turn to God when shit got really fucking real, i.e. something scary or potentially scary was going down … somebody was sick or hurting … or when I got to a point of truly feeling unable to cope.

I was using God as a last resort, and even doing THAT sort of apologetically!

Do you know what’s funny, and a bit confusing?

I always believed ABSOLUTELY in God’s ability to perform miracles, move mountains, change things in the blink of an eye, in less! I have never ever ever, not even once in the entire 20 odd years I was, if not away from God, then certainly not actively WITH God, questioned His power.

NEVER.

I’ve always known God can do anything.

But yet, yes, somewhere along the way I decided it was only appropriate to ask for what was ABSOLUTELY LAST-MINUTE NECESSARY, LIFE OR DEATH, SURVIVAL RELATED FOR ME OR ANOTHER.

What is even MORE funny, and confusing, is that I do NOT mean I ever doubted for a second that I can be or do or have ANYTHING.

Don’t imagine that I’m implying I decided to settle for a life of little, or less. Uh … nooooooo. Have you met me?!

Since a young age it was crystal fucking clear to me:

I decided to be rich.
I decided that my message would impact millions.
I decided I would not live a normal life, playing by somebody else’s rules, that my days would be free, and for me.
I decided I would have my dream body.
And life!

(I wish I fucking thought to decide to have my dream relationship earlier on, but hey – better late than never )

When I say I decided these things, what I really mean is that they were shown to me and I said yes.

What’s weird is – I knew they were shown to me by GOD! But yet I still haven’t once considered it appropriate to ASK Him … never mind to demand. The nerve, imagine!

So,

I did it myself.

Well, let’s be clear – of course I didn’t fucking do it myself. Whether or not you ask Him, God is always there and yep, like it or not, HE HAS HIS HAND ON YOUR LIFE.

Maybe you’re feeling that call, or nudge, or push from Him right now. Maybe you’re trying to ignore it, it’s annoying you, the synchronicities are just getting irritating at this point, and you’re determined to keep believing it’s all bullshit.

GOOD LUCK WITH THAT.

Hehe.

So yeah –

God was never NOT in the picture.

It’s just that I didn’t actively really invite Him to be there (freakin’ pushy that He was then. Haha). And I CERTAINLY DIDN’T SUBMIT OR SURRENDER TO BEING GUIDED, SUPPORTED, HELPED, WITH EASE.

Just like a kid who hasn’t yet learned that it’s okay to be helped and you can even get there faster, I was determined to do it my way, and prove I could.

^^ maybe this is okay! Of course it’s okay, that it was part of my process, my learning, my growth. Just like it’s okay for a kid.

I’m not making any of my choices not okay.

But I sure didn’t make ’em easy, nor as HOLY SHIT BIG as I could have, had I have known to lean into Him sooner.

Imagine the support of He who created the entire cosmos were behind you and you were just all – “I’m good thanks”.

lololol

A BIG part of it, for me, and I wonder if you can relate (let me know if you can!), was and IS the thing around feeling weak.

I really really REALLY struggle to express to the masculine – in any form – NEED.

I’ve had to really practice even feeling comfortable asking my own FATHER (my earthly father I mean … the Godly one I’ve barely even practiced yet) for help with things. And my Dad has always been there for me, would always be there for me, I’ve never doubted that!

But I became that person who, when a man … any man … offered to help, I turned them down as quickly as possible. I’m talking about day to day little things, mostly, but of course it’s representative of ALL the big things.

“No no, don’t worry, I’ve got it!”

I didn’t want to be a bother.
Or high maintenance.
Or appear weak.

I wanted to show I was one of the guys.
That I could take care of myself.
That I wasn’t going to be a burden.
THAT I WASN’T GOING TO TAKE UP SPACE.
That I could and would do all things not only for myself, but I’d probably try to take over doing everything for everyone ELSE as well.

Really,

it was a way of slowly but surely becoming invisible

if I do it all/
take care of it all/
don’t be a bother or make a fuss/
and even sort things out for YOU/
never show needs/
or wants/
I won’t be hurt/
I won’t be rejected/
And I’ll be allowed to stay.

Ouch.

At its core, this mindset is set on a belief of “I shouldn’t even exist”.

Deep shit?

Sure, maybe.

Absolutely shiftable, in a heartbeat?

Of course.

On Sunday, in church, the preacher spoke about the fact that God wants us to be BOLD AND AUDACIOUS in what we ask of Him. Be loud! Demand! Jump up and down!

WHAT AN UNCOMFORTABLE CONCEPT, I thought.

But –

How curious.

I mean, it’s not like I hadn’t heard this before. I guess I just hadn’t taken it on board for me. DON’T WORRY ABOUT ME GOD, I GOT THIS! I’LL DO IT! I’LL DO YOUR JOB FOR YOU TOO IF YOU WANT!

On Monday, I was on the phone to my Mum, I had NOT mentioned the message from Sunday, and she said to me – “maybe you need to be more audacious in what you ask of Him. Be demanding! Insist!” –

or something to that effect.

She used the same word, audacious. And started quoting scripture about it, of course.

Ok okay, I got it!!

This morning I sat down, and I journaled –

“God, please show me your way for me, your will – “

Straight away it came through:

“You don’t have to play coy with God”.

Okay.

I got it.

Do you?

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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