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Success Mindset

YOU DESERVE TO GET WHAT YOU WANT

Today I noticed, in me, a new thing.

Perhaps it’s in you also, and so, I’ll write about it.

It’s not a good thing, or at least, not on the surface of it.

It’s not … FUN.

It’s certainly not light and freeing, to observe.

But what it is, I am sure, is healing.

And what I noticed, was this:

The deeper me, the wounded me, the child me, she doesn’t feel that she deserves to get what she wants.

I was given a journal prompt last night, by one of my mentors, after our Skype session which was conducted with him in the bath back in Australia, and me sitting outdoors at a beachside Bali restaurant, sparkling sundown lights and lovers romancing all around.

It’s so funny sometimes, when I observe my own life from the outside looking in. I suppose it’s quite … unusual. He’d messaged me before our call –

“I’m about to jump in the bath unless you find that hugely inappropriate”

I said, well – bath talks are always appropriate. There’s very little I find inappropriate.

– Good. We are of the same view. I figured that. Sometimes I feel like I’ve gone so far from conventional reality I just try to check in every now and then.

And I laughed – “yeah, for sure. I find myself often marveling at the random shit I do when I realise, ‘oh, that’s not normal … how funny’.

Anyway.

The session was powerful, of course. I’m sure I’ll write about exactly what this work is, at some point, when it’s time. It occurred to me this morning how, REALLY – the real mentoring work I’ve been drawn to now for 20+ years has always been that of SPIRITUAL and higher self growth. I’ve had some ‘biz strategy’ type mentors along the way, but THAT shit never stuck!

This work … the deep inner work … the understanding of the layers of the consciousness, ones own and ALL … that’s the work that’s always drawn me, and which I find myself magnetically unable to resist.

Small wonder that, more and more so, my own messaging turns to that of spiritual growth, for my own further growth AND for you.

As we finished our session, he asked me to say aloud –

“I deserve to get what I want!”

Wanna know something funny? My sub-conscious mind made a QUICK decision –

If I say it LOUDLY, and laugh as well, and show I’m not afraid to say that with people all around me, then it PROVES I IS OWNING MY SHIT!

I felt like I’d FULLY owned it. Yay me.

He wasn’t fooled though –

“Yeah … nah. I’m not feeling that. Say it again”

And I said it again, quieter –

“I deserve to get what I want”

The conviction was there … just. I could feel it by a thread.

Today, as prompted, I decided to journal on this idea, the idea of me being truly DESERVING. It’s funny, because I do feel ‘all over’ the knowledge and truth that everything we desire is AVAILABLE to us, and now … I fully know and believe that what we feel inside of us is real, and that we can create our EVERY inner dream.

But.
Apparently.
The deeper me, the wounded me, the child me, the scared me, doesn’t feel QUITE the same way about the whole ‘being deserving’ bit.

Can you relate?
How do you feel, about your own deservedness?

As I wrote it over and over again in my journal, my mind just SHRIEKED at me –

Liar!
Not true!
Nup! You don’t.
#sorrynotsorry

DO TOO, I shrieked back in defiance!

Actually, not really. Haha. What I did do, was I just felt into it.

Okay –
Cool.
Let me try that again.

I deserve to get what I want.
I deserve to get what I want.
I deserve to get what I want.
I am SAFE to get what I want.

Hmmm …

I could feel the feeling of the feeling of the POSSIBLE one day whisper that I might be able to sometime not too far away believe that I can believe this.

😉

I decided to let it simmer, for now.
Journaled a little on things I DO want, although I couldn’t really connect to it.
Eventually, left it, and went to do my workout.

I think this question was working away in my sub-conscious mind the whole night long, actually. I could barely sleep. I was tossing and turning. And SO many fucking pain memories were coming up, things I know I must write about more deeply, and yet am scared to.

Of the years of repression and suppression.
Of being told over and over again that I’m not allowed to speak … or to not speak … or to have needs … or even, to breathe!

Living in volatility.
Constant eggshells.
My worth, gradually, bit by bit, broken –
Faded –
And eventually –
Drifted –
Away.

It feels as though being here in Bali again is bringing up DEEP deep wounding and pain. Pain so deep I’ve not even allowed myself to feel it or fully acknowledge it, perhaps EVER.

And today what I notice is …

It wants to be heard.
It wants to be acknowledged.
It wants to be set free.

In releasing it thus, I know that I can CHOOSE to live into the deeper beliefs which ARE actually there, even if long covered over.

Around worthiness.
Around deservedness.
Around love.
And having, what we want.

The thing with pain and hurt, or failure, is that it’s not a bad thing.

It is a NECESSARY thing.

It’s through the ebbs and flows of life that we are prompted to grow.

Can you see this, in your life?

I know you can.

So, allow yourself to feel your pain.
Allow yourself to see your hurt.
Allow yourself to honour where you’ve fallen.

And from that place, allow that you CAN choose a new way.

Here’s how to make it simple, when you find it so hard, to let yourself DESERVE:

What does the beautiful child within you deserve?

And the answer of course is the whole world –

Opened to her.

It’s true for you too.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

>>> https://thekatrinaruthshow.com/rebelmillionaire/

The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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