I just found 3 tiny pages of journal writing, each page not even as big as your phone screen, that I think I wrote back in about 2005. I’ve been clearing out my messy AF study, which is going to be converted into a studio / filming space plus actually USED as a study (imagine!) rather than a dumping ground for earlier life paraphernalia and boxes of random crap. This morning I sat down with my daughter to sort through all my old jewellery, unearthing a few pieces of family treasure along the way, and seeing what Alyssa wanted to keep for herself. And there, tucked away with an old wedding band, were... Read More >>

Today is a day to allow through the new To wipe the slate clean, and become a fresh you To realise and remember that no, there was never anything you need to do, beyond simply deciding A higher level of decision A higher level of commitment A higher level, the HIGHEST level, of ‘I no longer fuck with my doubts, or the voice of fear’ And if that were true, and it were done, and just how it is - Well, then, what next? What lightness would you suddenly feel, as you let go of everything you’ve been carrying around, so heavy, so weighty, so relentless, so never-ending? All of the SHIT you’ve told yourself you HAVE to bear the load... Read More >>

For months now I've had this story that I 'can't' seem to get up before 630am anymore, I'll set my alarm for 5, or 530, or even 6, and without fail, every damn time, I snooze my way through until precisely 6.37am, at which point God apparently deems it right and just that Katrina Ruth's eyes may open and the natural world may be graced with her presence. "I literally CAN'T!", I've said to friends (even as my higher self rolls her eyes at me and reminds me that this is DEFINITELY a story). "It's not like I'm CONSCIOUSLY hitting snooze; even when I put the phone on the other side... Read More >>

When you feel like there is so much to do, and so much you need or want to be on top of, and it's all just so overwhelming, God wants to remind you to draw closer to Him. You cannot simultaneously be in overwhelm, panic, anxiety, or carrying the weight of all you've not yet done and feeling bad about it, while also being connected to God and soul. The two simply can't co-exist, so when you feel it all building up, or you look down the barrel of your day or week and it's just UGH, you can't even bear to take that first step due to the weight of all... Read More >>

Sometimes I am so bored with my daily blog posts, this long ass stream of consciousness which I unleash onto the Internet each day, and I find a part of me questioning what the hell I'm actually doing, and WHY. Does anybody really still want to hear all this shit? Do I MYSELF really want to still hear and see all of this shit? It's so SAME SAME, I've been doing it for years now, and probably everybody is SO over it! Most likely they are sitting at home rolling their eyes at the idea that I think I am STILL relevant, "when is she going to realise how predictable she's... Read More >>

Let's talk about the part of you which has no energy or drive to do any of it. That sinking little bit inside of you which, when you sit down at the computer to do your work, TRULY and absolutely seems to feel that no. I can't. Your energy is low, your willpower non-existent, you've got NO snap, no crackle, baby? You've got no pop. And so you drift onto Facebook ... float back over to your email ... look at your task list and sigh. Why does everything feel so BLEUGH? There's not a single thing on there you can even CONSIDER even-ing with! You jump on over to Instagram, maybe the meaning... Read More >>

Do you know what really gets my goat, has me rolling my eyes so far back in my head you'd fear I might lose 'em, but has also at times had me bound in fear, running scared, and acting like a pretty low-vibe pussy version of myself? Ugh, it's disgusting to even think about! But also, SO important, and such a powerful lesson, if you just step back and observe. Observe? Well, you don't need to observe me, although clearly I don't mind if you do, but really it's on each of us to stop, pause, retreat perhaps, for just a moment, get out of the emotion of the damn thing, and ask... Read More >>

You get to live a life which inspires the fuck out of you just with what it is, the very essence and nature of just every bit of it lighting up your soul and exciting you so.damn.hard. Have you forgotten that you were meant for something more, that it's supposed to be flow, that there lies within you a place where certainty of being on path is absolute? When the person is right - When the other people in your space are right - When the messaging is right - When the empire you're creating is right - When the you who you're being is right - When the way you're doing life down to the smallest... Read More >>