AND THEN.YOU.DID.

What is it that you just don’t see, about who you are and who you get to be?

Why is it that it just hasn’t grown, the way you thought it would by now, the way it really should by now?

What are you still not QUITE putting your finger on, around that really BIG money flow, and the soulmate clients who just say fuck yes? Why does it still feel like you’re in a mode of being at the ‘top’ but still SO aware you’ve not quite broken the surface?

Swimming just below the custard skin of life …

Do you really want to know?

Let’s talk about it then. Because actually it is obvious. And nothing you don’t already know. Just maybe – you’ve been trying to convince yourself there has to be something more to it than this, more detailed, more fancy. When the reality is there is never anything fancy, or complicated, to success. It’s just decision, choice, faith, and then – do the damn thing you know you’re meant to be doing.

So yeah …

LET’S talk about it.

About the fact that –

You don’t do the work. Not the actual work. The work you’re meant to be doing, you know. The all in stuff. THE thing. Whatever that thing is. You just repeatedly – dance around it. Avoid it. Think about it. Promise yourself you’ll get to it. And then – do every other mofo thing except it.

So, yeah. There’s that.

What else?

You run old patterns. You moved on long ago from the struggle story, the not there yet story. But you play it at full bass like it’s your favourite tune and you want the WHOLE world to know. Over and over again, coding in, and in, and deeper STILL in, the CHOICE of –

not being quite there

head WAY under water

fighting just to stay afloat.

So, yeah. There’s that.

What else?

You perpetuate mediocrity. Don’t get your knickers in a knot. You know you do! Sure, your version of mediocrity is head and shoulders and 7 million light years ahead of nearly everybody … but that really has nothing to do with anything because you straight up KNOW –

you’re better, greater, faster, MORE than this and you’re just not choosing it.

Meh. Maybe you don’t wanna, maybe you’re never gunna?

Prove me wrong.

Because here is what it comes down to –

when you look back, and you saw all you did, and you account for how long you waited, and you’re asked why you didn’t do it sooner, the ONLY possible answer you can give?

Because I didn’t.

So look around. If you like. At all you’re not doing. If you like. At all you could have been. If you like. At all you say you will still be. If you like. But admit –

you can’t keep getting up every day and saying you will, if repeatedly –

you just don’t.