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I STILL HIDE, AND WORRY ABOUT WHETHER I’M GOOD ENOUGH

I was journaling this morning on how I’d show up in 2018 if I fully believed in myself and my message, if I fully believed that I’m meant to be ‘mainstream famous’ and directly impact millions of people each week, like I always talk about.

It might surprise you to hear me say ‘if I fully believed in myself’; surely I already have rock-solid iron-clad Wonder Woman-esque self-belief and confidence of steel in order to have got to where I am?!

Well, for one, even if I thought that was true I’d definitely still ask myself questions like the above one … I continually ask myself questions I feel I know the answer to, such as ‘what would total alignment look like?’, or ‘what would I do today if I could do ANYTHING?’ … the answers are ALWAYS insightful.

But secondly, and perhaps more relevantly, sorry to burst the bubble of of me being fully evolved beyond human emotion, but yes, I do still doubt myself. I know that people think I am unstoppable in my inner game, or that I have some sort of other-worldly self-belief, as they tell me all the time.

Usually with a mild look of disappointment, shortly after meeting me and spending time with me for any short period.

“I thought you were TOTALLY confident … now that I know you I can see you’re just like other women”

Cue slight frown and unspoken accusatory energy that I have somehow betrayed or lied to them, that this is not what they signed up for, even for COFFEE, let alone anything else. They wanted superhuman! lol. But seriously – that is exactly what happens all the time, ESPECIALLY with men.

Sorry dudes.
Gonna have to let you know before we ever meet up.
I’m still insecure about ALLLLLL sorts of shit.

But yet I’ve still managed to create all this and be all that I am so far! I know! That’s something to think about, isn’t it … the power of choice, and of stepping IN to who you know you’re meant to be, rather than basing your business OR life actions on your own human as fuck dramatics.

Anywayyyyy –

As I journaled on this question, the ‘what would I do in 2018 if I FULLY believed in myself and my visioned fame / growth / impact’ one, I barely had to finish asking myself before the answer just FLEW out:

I’d stop hiding, and I’d let the world see me.

And I realised … not that I didn’t know this already, but I realised anew …

I still hide.
SO much.

Why?

Simple, I feel like maybe I’m not good enough.

Honestly, sometimes I’m still just that shy and scared little girl who had the ‘not cool’ clothes, the REALLY weird super healthy school lunch, who was ALWAYS picked last for sports, who was the ‘school square’, always top academically, and who would spend her play break hiding in the bushes, alone, with a book.

Seriously – I burrowed a tunnel into the bushes off the edge of the quadrangle, and that’s where I’d be. I mean … I had friends. But I still spent a lot of time hiding alone. And when I was with other people? I ALWAYS knew I wasn’t cool enough, good enough, doing it right, and I lived in constant fear of doing something EXTRA uncool whilst simultaneously longing to BE cool and to be accepted.

When I was about 17, I started to slowly but surely step into CHOOSING cool. I began to ‘act as if’. Just a little bit at first. By the time I was about 19 I was TOTALLY cool, and had even managed to become FRIENDS with the same cool kids I’d grown up since childhood wanting to be like | terrified of.

I had PROOF! I was good enough, finally …

Mostly since then, for people who meet me, it’s been a given that I am one of the cool ones.

Now, you see me online as this badass chick …

And I am who I say I am, who I show myself as, of course, it’s all true. But Kat the leader and online badass; that’s me stepping into what’s in me. That’s me CHOOSING how I show up. That’s me taking the God damn stage and doing the job I was destined to do, which is to inspire, empower and motivate you to press fucking play.

Continually – DAILY – I put my message and my calling ahead of my own bullshit or insecurity.

That’s how I created all this.

Same as how I ‘became cool’ from when I was 17.

Underneath the surface though??

That shy little girl is still there. Wondering –

Do people like me?
Am I cool enough?
Do guys like me?
Am I good enough?
Does my HAIR look good?
Am I wearing the right clothes?
What do the REALLY cool people think? They probably HATE me, or they’re LAUGHING at me!

I am fully aware of the bullshit of all of this … and I don’t think about it most days … in fact most of the time I AM in my power, AND I love what I wear!!

But yet there’s still that part of me which holds back on putting myself into really next level environments, and it’s the same freakin’ part of me which wanted to avoid going to the Grade 6 dance. Too scary. What if? Maybe don’t go!

Here’s the thing though.

I could sit here and write about how this year, I’m gonna stop hiding and go all in. Show myself to the world!

But the truth is …

That’s what I do every year anyway.

So, maybe this year I turn that dial up even higher, why not?! And I will. But really – how the heck do you think I got to HERE with all this shit I just shared lurking under the surface?

It’s simple:

I showed the fuck up the way I was told to (from within) in SPITE of my fears and insecurities.

Hence people always being shocked and taken aback when they meet me and notice them!

Now, for this year?

Just more of the same gorgeous.

I’ll show up.
I’ll do the damn thing.
I’ll make millions, again.
Impact millions, again, maybe even more directly this time.
And hell YES I’ll be seen in an even bigger way.

Everybody will think I’m the Queen of the Internet because I say I am and I act it. Whether or not that’s the whole story ACTUALLY DOESN’T MATTER, and that’s kind of the point.

I’ll still be whoever I am, the good, the bad, the badass, all of it, and ALLLLLL of it allowed and okay.

But either way?? I’ll do my damn job.

And you?

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

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Let’s talk about them. Breathe them in. ALLOW them in. And then dial them TF in.

Are you ready?

There are certain ways of being, of operating, of thinking, and perhaps most in particular of expecting which are currently dictating your outcomes in every area of life.

You are, quite literally, coded. Programmed. Running on a frequency of … X.

With X being, well – whatever you see around you most days. Whatever you experience. Feel. Know to be true. Receive and hold onto. Receive and do not hold on to. Or do not receive at all.

There are certain things in your life which right now you can click your fingers and command to replicate, on repeat, and they do.

And there are other things which SHOULD be in your life, which you yearn to have in your life, which sometimes you get a glimpse or a taste of or even an entire mouthful, and then they’re gone, into the night, maybe never to return again, shrouded in mystery and frustration but yet at the same time that deeper part of you knows –

it’s not supposed to be like this.

It shouldn’t be.

I don’t accept it!

And I WILL move past.

You look into the future you see inside of you and you know that it is ALL real, ALL available, ALL true, ALL there for the taking. A virtual sushi train of wondrous life options, every one of ’em just a choice you can pluck off as it rolls on by! Don’t see what you want, not exactly? All you gotta do is ASK, and it’ll be freshly made for you!

Your belief around the impossible is OFF THE CHARTS.

And it always has been.

Your PROOF, of CREATING and ALLOWING the impossible is also pretty darn off the charts, if you do say so yourself. Which you don’t have to, because others do it for you!

It’s ALWAYS been this way for you, you’ve ALWAYS been able to dance between realities and choose the one you wanna keep.

But yet –

it feels, so much of the time, as though you’re teetering.

Teetering on the edge of will I / won’t I let myself FULLY go and receive, create, allow, BE –

or will I fall back into normal, into rules, into worries, into shoulds, into the dreaded dreaded fear that it’ll somehow all just stop working and I’ll find out there was never anything special about me at all, never anything wondrous about what I could do, and that I just somehow … fluked things for a bit.

Sometimes you’re CERTAIN which way you’re going to topple.

And other times you’re terrified you have no idea at all, and if you did you wouldn’t want to know.

But what you do know is this:

When things are working.

When things are flowing to and through and from you in the precise ways they should be.

When things are OH so yes.

When it’s all just coming together, the different areas of your business your money your life and YOU just rolling PERFECTLY, like a beautiful and impossible to replicate orchestra, pure MAGIC –

it’s not because of what you did.

It is not because of how you planned, followed the plan, did it right.

It’s not a list you ticked off that made it that you got to then GET.

It’s not because you followed RULES for success.

Or really anything at all.

It’s because you were playing life on a certain frequency. You were tapped in, dialled in, LEANING all the way in to something you can’t even fully describe but you KNOW when you’re in it.

You were, not to be too corny or cliche about it but we’ll say it anyway ’cause it’s true – one with life itself. Dancing the most beautiful dance of BEING FULLY YOU with the wind beneath your wings nothing other than God and truth and the very fabric of the universe, what else could it be?!

Put simply:

you had those Success Frequencies switched on to high AF, and you were using ’em.

Want to know how to do that more, in fact any time you choose, in fact with complete calm understanding of what it is you ARE doing and how to tap in and BE in that energy, that place, that receiving, at will?

It’s always been available.

It’s ALWAYS been right there for the taking.

EVERYTHING you’ve suspected this whole time is true.

And now?
We’re gonna get you understanding it (every last bit).

Living it (as naturally as breathing).

And UTILISING it to let life unwind to the places you’ve been waiting to be (the way it’s meant for you).

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