Purpose

THE EVIDENCE IS THE LONGING OF YOUR SOUL

It’s okay to admit the deepest desires of your heart, take a deep breath, and decide, ‘you know what?’

– now I get to just choose this.

It’s okay to want what you want,

be clear and bold enough with yourself to accept that yes that IS what you want,

finally be done with all the ‘what ifs’ and ‘what abouts’,

and just decide –

And now I get to have this.

It’s okay that you took this long to get here,

had no idea how or if you ever could or would,

promised yourself a million times before this,

and in the end took THIS freakin’ long.

It’s okay to BE WHERE YOU ARE NOW, AND JUST OWN:

This is how it is. Who I am. What I want. And what I now choose.

It’s okay to be WHO,

and WHAT,

you are.

What is not okay? Is to sit here right now,

nod your head because you know who you are, and what you want,

and then decide CONSCIOUSLY-

I can’t choose that.

And I know. Oh BELIEVE me, I know. What it’s like to rob yourself of your truth. Betray yourself over and over again. Wrestle endlessly with the fact that it IS fucking hard, to cast off a long-held identity, and choose one you’re being shown but yet have ABSOLUTELY NO EVIDENCE TO PROVE YOU CAN HAVE IT.

But I also know this:

The evidence is the longing of your soul.

The proof is that continual call you have inside of you.

And the identity it’s now time for?

Is the one it’s now motherfucking time for. Which is all there is to say about that.

So you have no freakin’ clue how you’re gonna get there, or who you’re gonna find yourself to truly be?