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Purpose

THE WHOLE WORLD CAN FUCK RIGHT OFF

I’m grumpy as FUCK this morning gorgeous.

I want the whole world to fuck right off, and take their noise with them.

And for the love of God don’t TALK to me when I’m writing!

Sigh …

Do you ever notice that just when you’re patting yourself on the back for being SUPREMELY woke and at least SOMEWHAT enlightened, you then rebound back into being unconscious as all get out, and not very subtle about it either?!

Or is that just me?

Mind you, I guess I’ve grown more than I’m perhaps giving myself credit for, because I do always know, FULLY, that when I feel like this, it’s allllllllll me. And it’s also ON me, to tune in to what’s really going on, and what I actually need.

This morning I journaled … for a change … lol … and here is what came out, and also THROUGH:

“Everybody should just fuck off, and leave me alone
the whole world is annoying me

what do I want and need then?
I want to be left alone today. I want to do my own thing. (it’s my 3rd photo shoot day in a row, and I’m entering into petulant foot-stamping about it, even though when I’m IN it I have the best time ever)

ok, what do I really need?
I need to write and release first
and feel I have organised and cleared my mind
ok.
sorted

what else?
i need to write and release something
what is it?
i feel angry and annoyed
i am angry at people not liking me (haha, that sounds silly when I write it)
i want sex, I want to have epic sex and be carried away. haven’t had sex for 100 years
okay, gonna (XXXX no need to share that right now!)
i want full release release release of my writing
the narcissicm book
the orgasm book
energetically clearing shit
i want to write something amazing now
i want a rest / nap time – book massage

what else?
i want everybody on Facebook to fuck right off
lol
not really
but they’re annoying me
but it’s clearly NOT about them then, is it?
no.

so, what am I not giving myself
space
to unleash and create
that’s all

is there anything else you need to say or know or do?
I think I just need to write. and there the answers will be shown to me.

what am I to write about?

grr. the whole world can fuck right off”

Enter, me starting this blog post.

It’s funny, I had at least 3 killer downloads already this morning of what I wanted to blog about today.

For example, I wanted to write about how I struggle to own my hotness and sexiness, because of what other women might say about me, or, in some cases DO say about me … I get told the things … and the things are hurtful … and it’s really getting to me lately, hence my comment in my journaling above about feeling angry when people don’t like me … I’m nice! I want them to know that!

So yeah. I definitely feel a post coming through on that topic, because I KNOW it’s not just ME surpressing, in some way, my light, for fear of being pulled down or else separated from other women.

That post has been itching it’s way out for a while, and I thought today was the day where I would unleash it with POWER!

Instead, grumpy Kat got out of bed this morning. Who asked HER?! I could barely even move in Bikram class, my energy was blocked … annoyed … stiff … resentful.

Damn straight it showed in the body.

And now here we are.

And once again I find myself having one of ‘those’ days where I don’t QUITE feel able to let something truly KILLER out of me. Where all of the ideas of pieces I know matter DEEPLY are right there in the front of my mind, but I’m conscious that if I were to try and bring them to life when they are not COMING to life, something meant for power and truth would instead fall flat, and die.

There’s a rule I have, around messaging, and showing up –

Show up as who you are.
Share the actual message that’s coming out today.
Be with what IS.

I’ve found that this serves me well. The amount of posts I put out there which to me are pretty ‘meh’ (like this one), would rank in the dozens, maybe the hundreds.

And it’s funny … one of the main things people ask me, is how I create so much content and show up so damn CONSISTENTLY.

“I don’t know what to write or say every day Kat! I don’t have continual ideas like you!”

Well –

Ideas flow is a practice. James Altucher taught me, exercise the ideas muscle daily! And, I did it, for years. Still do, by default.

But also –

REALLY.

The only reason I can show up so damn consistently is that I TRULY put my message and my art ahead of my own bullshit.

I let the message be the message.

And I let that fucker OUT, however it comes out!

The good.
The bad.
The ugly.
The random.
The EMBARRASSING.
The epic.

You’ve seen me do this! I don’t know if you think that what I write each day is me trying to write good content, but it’s not.

I am grateful for the content which feels like flow and super flow.
I LOVE when my work speaks to you.
I am in awe and thankfulness that simply sharing my truth each day like this, no editing, no filter, no ‘thinking’, has allowed me to build a multi-million dollar online empire where every day I get to wake up and JUST BE ME.

But don’t you see?

The only way I can wake up every day and ‘just be me’, and make money and an impact like this, is because I DO IN FACT WAKE UP EACH DAY AND JUST BE ME!

Whoever I am.
However it is.
Whatever is coming through, for that day.

And then I share it to the world, and to you.

MANY times I want to run and hide from my message for the day. I feel self-conscious to say it. Vulnerable. Or just silly!

But, a long time ago I committed to my art.

I made a promise, in 2008, when I launched my first ‘real blog’, 2 years after I started blogging in a more rambly way –

“No matter what, I will NEVER stop and I will be CONSISTENT.”

I can remember saying that to myself like it was yesterday. I don’t know who or what it was inside of me which was conscious enough to understand that if I just made this simple commitment, everything else would flow.

And really –

Just look around –

Everything since then has just FLOWED.

Of course it has flowed with blood and sweat and tears and turmoil, much of the time!!

But such is the path of flow.

That shit ain’t all rainbows and marshmallow-offering unicorns baby!

Flow can be HARD sometimes.
Flow can HURT.
Flow can be MESSY.
It can toss you ALL over the place.

Just like the ocean, at times, wants to cradle you, in ITS flow.
And at other times wages war on you like it wants to SHRED you to pieces and then TOSS you into the highest heavens.

Either way –
That’s the flow of the water for that day.

When it comes to your message, your truth, your calling, and what it is you are to share with the world, as a leader, an artist, a healer, YOU –

The same principle applies.

The flow of the day and of you, will be whatever it is.

Either way –
That’s the flow for that day.

Are you going to run, hide, wait, hold back, press pause, when it doesn’t feel light and happy and free?

Where would you actually BE in your life, had you not experienced the ebbs and flows which have brought you to THIS place?!

It’s litererally not possible – 
To experience spiritual growth – 
Without pain – 
Without struggle – 
Without REBIRTH – 
Without failure – 
Without periods of STUCKNESS, and frustration.

So –

Why run from the things which are GIFTED to you to teach you, or to serve you, or to direct you?

This morning in yoga, I thought about this one girl, who says mean things about me behind the scenes.

I felt annoyed that she keeps coming in to my mind each day; I can’t seem to let it go!

I felt sad.
Hurt.
And frustrated that I keep holding on to it.

I may still reach out to her, and speak to her about it.

But what I realised, and if I do that it will be because I tune in to it and find it’s the aligned higher purpose action to TAKE; what I realised, is this –

If I’m thinking about it so much, it’s for my benefit.
It’s for my growth.

Where am I saying things behind the scenes, or where have I? That’s something to ask!

Or even, where am I thinking them?

There have definitely been times when I’ve bitched behind the scenes about people, of course!

So now, I get to be confronted with the reality that we ALL have all sides within us.

Thank you …

I also thought about this, and realised that this might be the GREATEST gift relevant to this particular worry –

Huh.
I realised that worrying about people FALLING OUT OF LOVE WITH ME and then not liking me continues to restrict, on an energetic and unconscious level, how I show up.

There is a part of me which feels hopelessness, like … what’s the point, if in the end people will leave and even speak AGAINST me, when I show up so powerfully?!

And then I thought of the women I know, and speak with, often, who have followed me for years.

Who were there when I did things I later regretted, and apologised for.

Who have seen me fall.

Seen me act from anger.

Seen me through at least 15 hair changes, and a few name changes too!

And WHO ARE STILL HERE.

Because what they have seen MOST of all, is my value and my truth, and with it, they’ve seen what’s in them.

And I realised –

Well.

The right ones will always stay. Always see you. And grow WITH you.

What a powerful realisation! What gratitude to then be had, from this ‘annoying’ situation where I have been continually fucking thinking about this one chick who bitches about me!

So interesting …

How EVERYTHING serves us.

Of course.

So. I thought I was going to write about that, but instead it turned out I had to write about being a grumpy little narky so and so this morning, and let THAT out.

But then again –
In the end –
As it ALWAYS does – !

Whatever had to come out, came out.

Which brings me to you.

And there are many things I desire to say to you, always. So many things!

But right now, I’m actually going to say nothing at all.

And instead leave you with this –

“If you can hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint’, then by all means paint, and that voice will be silenced”

– Vincent van Gogh

Okay, well I’m gonna add one lil thing to what old VInce had to say:

I’m going to insert it right into the middle:

If you can hear a voice within you say ‘you cannot paint’, then by all means paint, TODAY AND EVERY DAY, no matter what and JUST with what comes out of you, and that voice will be silenced.

Please –

Share your thoughts in the comments.

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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