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Purpose

WAITING TO BE REAL

When I am expending all that I know I am meant to as a writer I feel like I can breathe, I feel as though I can bare to give attention or energy to other people and things, I feel as though I can actually be HUMAN,

or at least a little.

When I am NOT expending all that wants to come out, a horrible situation which I somehow allow to go for days and days and days, a horrible situation which I have even allowed YEARS of my life to largely pass in, I feel like I’m floating through time and space,

I am not CAPABLE of being present with others or what’s around me,

I can pretend

do a reasonably decent job

paste a smile on my face, tilt my head just so, and easily convince others I am a normal person, a sane person, a nice person, see, watch me smile and laugh and offer to help!

Sometimes I ALMOST convince myself.

But through it all, really what I’m feeling is this –

I CAN’T BREATHE I CAN’T BREATHE I CAN’T BREATHE.

And –

I’M NOT HERE I’M NOT HERE I’M NOT HERE! Why does nobody see that I’m not HERE, and I don’t WANT to be here! Why do they all keep acting as though I’m here and as though I have ANY sort of space or interest for ANYTHING!

I’ve lived my life in that sort of dream state FOR so much of my life, with in between bits of being disciplined to the job of doing ONLY what I know I can’t not, and letting my message out no MATTER what, and somewhere through it all I managed to summon up enough discipline to build and then code into my identity the continued success of a very well to do online coaching business.

But the truth is that going all in on ME, on being who I’m meant to be, on doing the writing work which truly IS, just IS, the only thing that lets me feel I can breathe, getting to THAT point?

Well, firstly, is about so much more than simply that I built a business founded on my writing, my daily messages and rants and rambles.

And, secondly, well, secondly is kind of the same as firstly. In that it’s about realising you CAN’T DO WHAT YOU’RE MEANT TO DO FOR AN OUTCOME.

It doesn’t work that way.

And until you get to where you’re truly doing whatever ‘it’ is for you consistently BECAUSE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE, and because it truly is the ONLY thing which allows you to feel as though you can feel breathe, are fully grounded, are fully alive,

then whichever ‘outcomes’ you achieve really won’t matter.

And will in fact only serve to keep you even further from your purpose work, and from getting to live every day with the knowledge that you’re being true to who you’re meant to be in this world!

It gets better, clearer:

The reality of how you will actually make the money you know is there for you … build the businesses you see yourself building … create the relationships, you and life you want, is that anything ACTUALLY worth having (and yeah, it’s definitely all available for you!) will come FROM a place of you doing what you are meant to do because it’s what you are meant to do.

And doing it IN that way, as well.

Meaning –

don’t mess with the natural desired flow of your art.

Which brings us back to – don’t do it for an outcome! Don’t try to bend and twist and conform your soul work into something that will LEAD somewhere.

It doesn’t work that way.

It doesn’t work that way.

It doesn’t work that way!

Instead, this is how it works:

DECIDE you will get the outcomes you want, thank you God, surrender and hand them over in the same moment you decide, knowing and choosing and trusting that it’s always ‘this or something better’ (thank you God!), and then TRUST that because you planted those outcomes in,

put your order in,

shoved the darn seed into the ground,

of COURSE they will show up, because a) they’re yours to have (you wouldn’t see ’em inside of you if not!), and b) that’s how life works!

The CATCH, of course, being simple:

Do your job.

What, you expect life to serve up everything that is there for you if you don’t do your job?! It definitely doesn’t work THAT way.

As an artist, a messenger, a magic-maker, one who is called into and beyond and back from the supernatural, you more than EVER need to understand that just like anyone else on this earth, if you don’t do your job you don’t get paid.

“But Kat! You LITERALLY JUST SAID don’t do things for outcomes! Make some sense woman!”

Yeah, okay, I hear ya.

Take a breath.

Step back.

And see what I’m saying.

Don’t do things FOR or TOWARDS outcomes. Don’t ‘work towards’. Don’t make deals with God or life, ‘if I do this, I get to have that!’. Opt out of the tit for tat paradigm. Heck, opt out of everything you were taught in the school of life you grew up in! EVERYTHING you learned about success is likely wrong.

The things you always SUSPECTED, deep within you, THOSE are the things which are most likely extremely accurate. And extremely costly to ignore!

So,

‘doing your job’ is about exactly what we’ve been talking about this entire time. Do what you have to do because you can’t not. Do it AS you can’t not. Do it as IT wants to be done!

And then –

hand it over.

It’s not up to you to figure out what to do with it, just like it’s not up to you to figure out how to do it. No I don’t mean bundle it up and stick it in the cupboard and wait for a fairy genie to arrive at your door to get it out into the world! Handing it over means – get your head out of the ‘how’. Hand it over to SOUL, to GOD, to INTUITION, to LIFE.

DEFINITELY you must take action.

As one of my all-time favourite authors, and personal mentor as well as friend, William Whitecloud, taught me:

There’s ALWAYS action to take. But no, there’s never anything you have to DO.

So stop making lists.

Plans.

Pathways.

And instead start listening.

Hearing.

Being led and guided in your actions around getting your work out, monetizing it, and yes, of course, what that work is in the first place, by that still small voice within. You know –

the one you usually ignore because you live your whole life in fear of getting it wrong, not doing it like the others, not doing enough.

When deep down you’re perfectly aware that the only ‘enough’ that could possibly exist is you saying yes to enough of WHATEVER IT IS YOU NEED TO SAY YES TO.

And let’s neither of us pretend you don’t know EXACTLY what that is.

I’ve achieved outcomes in business money and life beyond what most people would dare to dream. And whilst I’ve achieved SOME of them (maybe 5%) from a place of butting my head against a wall and trying to do stuff in order to get a result, working ‘towards’,

I’ve achieved MOST of them (and all the stuff that actually ‘stuck’ and was right) from a place of working FROM, and letting my soul, God, life guide me.

Doing the things I was led to do even when they made no sense.

Letting the art, the message, my writing, do its thing without trying to figure out HOW this could possibly connect in to the results I wanted.

And repeatedly simply ASKING for, deciding and then handing over, the money and other outcomes I wanted. Knowing that it’s available because it’s available, not because I ‘earned’ it. But knowing that my end of the deal is to go all in on what I see inside of me.

And that if ever I feel uncertain of what THAT could be, all I need to do is connect back to – what is the thing which, if I DON’T do it, results in my feeling like my whole life is in limbo and I’m just floating through time and space waiting to be real?

Question for you:

What is that thing for YOU?

Side note which I thought I’d spend 1000 or so words on right now but which I find needs only this:

The magic is that when you say yes to that thing, put it first NO MATTER WHAT, push everything and everyone else away or just delete it off your list altogether if you can be so brave, what you will find is that life starts to work for and with and through you.

You tap into a place in time and space and wisdom and truth and flow that simply doesn’t EXIST in the ‘do’ world.

The thing with the paradigm you’re used to operating in …

is it’s kind of the most limited one.

And I think you know that.

So from here on out, let’s play a game of imagining you’re going to allow yourself to be fully human,

and you’re going to do it by saying yes, all the yes, first and foremost yes, on REPEAT yes, to the part of you that you can’t not,

and yet have somehow continued to not!

Let’s get real:

do you actually expect to be able to breathe, or receive ANYTHING properly, when you don’t do the thing you were given breath for?!

Don’t forget –

Life is Now. Press Play.

Kat x

P.S.

Rebel.
Upstart.
Fuck the system; screw the rules.
Won’t do what they told me.
Too much.
Unreasonable.
Ridiculous.
Unprofessional.
Crazy!

Should I go on? I could, but I think you get the picture.

You’re the one who is not only not like the other PEOPLE, you’re also not like the other entrepreneurs.

They, they actually think they’re different; non-conformists?! Don’t make me laugh. You and I both see it as it is:

They just wanna be told how to build a pretty little website and a pretty little social media page or three and a pretty little online product or course and get their pretty little headshots and do a pretty little pre-scripted dance all over the internet so that other equally pretty fucking bland and boring and same same-y peoples pay them money,

And they can all sit in a pretty little womans circle together patting each other linking elbows and stroking each others hair and singing Kumbaya as the sun sets over another day of sinking ever deeper into the unremarkableness that is their lives.

They are the ones who are not only willing to jump through hoops, they also want to build more hoops for other people; they want to perpetuate the hoop jumping life and their whole sales pitch is basically some version of “I will help you to have a better and shinier hoop, come see!”

lolol

BUT REALLY.

Meanwhile, you –

You’ve tried the hoop-jumping life, maybe more than what you care to admit. And, whilst you’ve nothing against sitting around with other ladeez and stroking each others hair, you and your girls; the real ones?

You don’t exactly fit in in the typical woman’s circle.

You don’t feel at home with the pretty-preneurs, not even on the internet let alone in real life.

You don’t actually GIVE a fuck about having all your shit perfect,

Polished,

And just so –

And the idea of having sales and marketing and content processes which you have to systematically pre-plan and then work through and endlessly join dots with?

Makes you want to hurl.

Sure –

You’ve bought in at times to do the idea that maybe you DO gotta do it as they say.

An automated webinar, perhaps?? Facebook ads which carefully and smartly tell the world who you are and how you can help? A sales plan proven and tested by the greats. The gradual sinking slow decline of your soul, your joy, your dreams, and even your pussy as everything within you that once knew she could HAVE IT ALL AND DO LIFE HER WAY SLOWLY DRIES,

WITHERS TO NOTHING,

AND DIES?

Sure –

Why not

And look.

It’s not that any of these things are bad or wrong. Maybe right now you’ve got to a certain point by playing by the rules … kind of. Following what ‘logic’ suggests you do. Breaking free here and there with wild little jaunts into over the top madness, noticing how THAT lights you up and also how people respond to it … but ultimately continuing to go back to trying to find the right fucking system to get you to where you want to go,

Because this thing of trying to just be you interspersed with trying to get it all right and make it work, well –

It’s God damn tiring –

But also, in the end, if we’re going to be black and white about it, it hasn’t got you to where you want to be!!

You KNOW you should be making SO much more money.

NOW.

With consistency, and yeah, while of course of COURSE you’re down for doing the work, you also feel like it SHOULD be a lot easier, more flow

And you know that you know that you know that you’ve still not let out the most unrestrained and fully expressed side of you!

– The you they can’t look away from
– The you they are MAGNETIZED by
– The you who automatically commands a huge freakin’ following, and sales to match it

You know who I’m talking about –

THE MILLIONAIRE REBEL YOU!

Starting January 18th!

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The revolutionary fucking leader who tears SHREDS off of normal every damn day before the rest of the world has barely sipped its coffee!

Who is FULLY unleashed in what she says, how she shows up, how she does business, how she does life.

Who does not give a fuck about following rules! Or sales systems! Or strategies! Who can and will do what works for HER, and if it happens to resemble other ways people build an audience and make a fuckload of money online, cool, and if not, so what! That is not the point! The point is –

She knows what works for her.
She backs herself unapologetically.
She DOES it.

And she gets the damn results. The BIG results. The CONSISTENT results. The FUCK yes results, not just with money but with the VIBERY of it all.

Imagine …

Waking up every day and KNOWING you have crushed the day before it already begun because THAT IS WHO YOU ARE AND HOW YOU ROLL!

* Your shit sells (at any and all price point)
* Your creativity and inner ideas machine flows endlessly (you always know what to put out into the world and that when you speak people PAUSE EVERYTHING AND LISTEN, whether it is with free content and shenaniganery or with your paid stuff)
* You don’t even have to think about low end or high end or how to take people through a value ladder or some such bullshit, the value ladder is YOU CONTINUING TO BE YOU, and the more that you DO you the more people just take themselves through whatever it is you’re offering!
* It is easy, natural, fun, and OBVIOUS how to build your automated income, funnels, the ‘cash machine’ side of your business.
* In fact the whole damn thing feels fun and easy and like you’re just being you (the full on you, the too much you, the rebel you, the fuck all of ’em THIS IS WHAT I STAND FOR AND NOW I’M GONNA TELL YOU you!),
* and at the same time you have the DEEPLY grounded and certain knowledge that the way you’re doing it, hot mess and chaos vibes and all, is WORKING. PS – the reason you feel certain of this is because your bank balance and soulmate audience and their feedback reflects it, not bc your spirit guides told you it’s coming

All of this is ALREADY available to you.

It is who you are and what you were born for.

You did not come here for normal!

You are one of the truly crazy ones, who has something inside of her that will leave the world BREATHLESS –
and allow her to make millions and impact millions –

BUT NOT IF SHE CONTINUES TO DO BUSINESS AND LIFE BY TRYING TO SOMEHOW BE A NON-CONFORMIST WHO CONTINUALLY CAVES AND CONFORMS.

For this to work,

REALLY work, like next next NEXT level $ and life flow work,
you’re going to need to FULLY turn your back on the idea that your breakthrough is waiting on the other side of you adjusting, filtering, compromising, playing the game the way the other entrepreneurs are playing it, or worrying about what the fuck your social media looks like!

What you’re going to need to do is simple:

FLICK THE DAMN REBEL MILLIONAIRE SWITCH BABY.

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All in on madness.
All in on crazy.
All in on chaos.
All in on the TRUE epic awesome ridiculousness and too much-ness of YOU.

REBEL MILLIONAIRE

Starting January 18th!

For those who were born to run the damn thing,

To turn the world on its head and dance on top of it,

And who are ready to do just that.

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