WHEN WILL YOU SEE YOURSELF AS THE HOLY SHIT DREAM CHICK YOU ARE?
For so many of us, so much of what we have for so long put out into the world is almost totally a falsity, a made up idea of who or what we really are, born of a deep-seated idea that ‘the real me’ is not good enough.
It’s not that we tried to pass ourselves off as something we’re not in order to appear better, fancier, or cooler than what we think we actually are, it’s that we don’t actually REALISE how badass, powerful, magical, or cool we ACTUALLY are.
It’s a simple case of not seeing in ourselves what is smack bang obvious to the rest of the world.
Well – !
What WOULD be smack bang obvious to the rest of the world if you’d just let it show at least a LITTLE bit more.
The thing is, the people who get close to you, or who, on the odd occasion, manage to sneak a peek of what’s really going on up there in that crazy amazing soul of yours, they see you as the holy shit woman you are.
You are literally the most incredible magical fucking unicorn person they have ever encountered, and they are BLOWN AWAY in awe and gratitude at the wonder that is you, all the while pinching themselves that they could be so lucky to have found you!
Yet you –
You! You silly silly woman! YOU DON’T EVEN OWN, LIKE, 10% OF YOUR POWER, YOUR MAGIC, YOUR GIFTS, YOUR BADASSERY.
And maybe not even 1%!
So, while, as I said, those who get close enough –
Or those who somehow manage to see behind the curtain when you forget to be self-conscious, or the spirit just takes over, and you show the FULLNESS of you –
do indeed see and know and are indeed awed and wowed –
the sad and sorry truth is that the rest of the world, for the VERY most part, sees you as who you present yourself to be.
Sure, those who are tapped in or observant enough will be aware that there is ‘more to you’, and may even find themselves inexplicably drawn, but if at some point YOU DON’T TURN YOUR LIGHT ALL THE DAMN WAY ON?
Like moths leaving a dark room, they’re gon’ be gone, girl.
Let’s be real about it, have a little wake up call, yeah, and say it as it is:
You are MORE than capable of scaring away –
Your dream partner
Your soulmate clients
Your God-sent best friends
And indeed THE ENTIRE LIFE THAT WAS MAPPED OUT FOR YOU!
– if you fail to own who and what you really are.
YOU WON’T EVEN HAVE IT COME CLOSE ENOUGH TO SCARE AWAY IN THE FIRST PLACE!
This is a fact.
What, you think that it’s actually OKAY that you’re ‘working towards’ being that confident and unapologetic as fuck version of you?
IT’S NOT OKAY!
You think that it’s justified for you to do this bullshit shadow work when you KNOW what’s in your soul, and what we are meant to see?
IT’S NOT JUSTIFIED!
You think you can get away with it, that you continually dial it down, play coy and shy and ‘who me’ about what’s in you, wait for the approval, acceptance, validation of others to then be still less than half of what you actually came here to be?
YOU CAN’T GET AWAY WITH IT.
YOU ARE BLOWING UP YOUR LIFE.
And not in the good way.
There’s an IDENTITY crisis going on here girlfriend, and you know I ain’t talking about whether or not you should dress more girly or some shit like that.
I’m talking about the fact that, even after ALL these years of KNOWING that the answer is to own the fullness of your SOVEREIGN (yes, sovereign!) power, and be the damn Queen, leader, revolutionary, who you came here to be, you are NOT!
after all these years,
you are putting yourself out there as this bland, wishy-washy, who the fuck really cares person who can teach some shit –
show you some shit –
and, sure sure, maybe help you shift some shit, but meh, whatever, who really actually cares, because women like you / coaches like you / spiritual chicks like you / fake badasses like you, are a dime a dozen.
There’s as many as you like, just there for the following or ‘yassss Queening’ on every corner.
The worst part is, you make yourSELF sick at how fucking CONFORMIST you’re being.
Despite the fact that you, through your very BREATH, never mind anything you actually think, or would share from the TRUE depths of your soul, are the 100% certain opposite of a conformist!
You don’t fit in, and never did!
Not in THAT way.
Not with THOSE people.
So why do you keep acting it?
Just low key slide slide sliding through the space with only the faintest of ripples, the odd rearing up of your truth, your magic, your power, so that we’re all like – woah! What just happened?! Who was THAT?!
– but then before we really can figure it out and see it was YOU, down you go again.
“Oh, who? No, not little old me! No, no, I’m just a girl. Approve of me. Validate me. Accept me. Like me. Please!”
Don’t you just make yourself HEAVE, just thinking about it?
I hope so.
Here’s the thing sister:
You are the holy shit woman.
You are the what the fuck just happened woman.
You are so damn far from all these yasssss Queen women who all yip and yap like tiny dogs and look / sound / are the same as each other –
(and by the way, when I say that, I am referring to an ENERGY, not any particular people … I’m talking about an ENERGY of not owning our own power which we have ALL been in at times, including me!)
– and you NEED TO OWN THAT SHIT.
And you do need to realise this:
That even though we may well ‘like’, to some degree respect, and certainly not think BADLY of the woman who you’re showing us to be –
when she refuses to see herself as one.
you in the drivers seat baby.
so, where you off to?
Don’t forget –
Life is Now. Press Play.